I don't wanna be lonely anymore...

Now it seems to me
That you know just what to say
Words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way
Now it's hard for me with my heart still on the mend

I don't wanna be lonely no more
I don't wanna have to pay for this
I don't wanna know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more
You know I could never stand for this
So when you tell me that you love me know for sure
I don't wanna be lonely anymore

Yes..I don't wanna be lonely no more!! Period.

Yippee! Carrie saved AMERICAN IDOL!

If I nvr mentioned dis b4..then I'll mention now..

Me CARRIE UNDERWOOD supporter.

Well, dis is how it started.  I fell in love with ALOHA MISCHEAUX..who reminded me so much of Beyonce (Destiny's Child)..think it's the voice, and the style.  She got booted out.

Then I decided to lookout 4 rocker CONSTANTINE MAROULIS..not bcoz he was gd, but juz bcoz he looked or had some resemblance 2 one of the many EXs who ever existed in my life's chapter (whom by the way have had the privilege of incurring my wrath & tasting my hatred)!  Oh well, after sometime, I cldn't wait 2 see him get booted out..everytime he sings & kick the camera (rock neber dies!!), I was so close to kicking my TV in gesture of kicking him back! 

B4 dat, I kept wondering wat the hell is SCOTT SAVOL still doing in the show?!  He look like some molester (or rapist!) why wld anyone idolise him I wonder?!

Anyhow..on a serious level, I was a supporter of ANTHONY FEDEROV & Carrie Underwood..why can't they have 2 winners eh!?  I mean, Anthony is a miracle..4 a baby with throat cancer or something (check out the hole below his adam's apple!), who was predicted 2 not b able 2 speak wen he grows up, 2b singing as gd as he does is really..WOW!  On the other hand, Carrie..she has the looks, she has the voice - PoWeR!

I was disappointed dat Anthony was booted out..b4 BO BICE..& my disappointment heightened wen Bo survived thus far 2b competing wif Carrie 4 the finals! Wat the hell man?  A rocker, who looks more unkempt than Constantine..looking like what my colleague said - hobo - how can such a person eva be idolized?!  Idiotized can la!  *sigh*  This show is rigged la!  If Bo had won, I'll nvr watch American Idol 4 the rest of my life..serious!  It'll lose credibility..in my eyes.

Alas..Carrie Underwood saved American Idol..it was worth my watching American Idol 4!

Full moon!

I slid my room's window..to seek comfort..for some inspiration..to motivate myself to do my project.  This was what greeted me; a breathtaking sight of a very full moon (I wish I could grab it..but I just couldn't reach it! It's not as near as it appears!).

Chand ne kuch kaha..raat ne kuch suna..tu bhi sun be-khabar..pyar kar..

I know this pic's not sharp..but what dya expect of a mere Nokia 7250i..I just wanted the moon to belong to me!!  *sigh* So near, yet so far!

I love full moons, I've always loved it as much as I love star-gazing & wishing upon the stars @ nite!  If I would always howl at the sight of a full moon, I was speechless tonight.  As the moonlight shone on me, I found the inspiration I needed.  I am now motivated to get on with my project..finally!! (",)

Overdose..of John Abraham!

Happy Vesak Day!

Haha!

I had 3 days 2 do as much as I can 4 my project (provided ma Mom doesn't twist my arm 2 bring her out)...& the good news is...2 days is now down the drain wif nothing much done! :( Not sure wat's wrong wif ma brain..but it's juz not working awrite.  Many wld probably wanna noe how my weekend went down the drain, how my arms got twisted..so here goes:

SAT was like wake up @ 10.15am as usual, juz in time to freshen up & settle down 2 catch "Chi & Me" (the hindi sitcom version of "E.T.") on Zee TV while having breakfast. :) It's a Mon-Fri sitcom @ 6.30pm & re-runs (all 5 episodes) on Sat from 10.30am. So why wait 4 it daily right, when I can watch it straight on Sat for 2 & 1/2hrs!  So..as I was saying, I watched "Chi & Me" till 1pm..& then showered, prayed & did step 2 (draft outline) of my Marketing project whose proposal has been approved on 6 May.  I tot since I wasn't producing anything 4 my Mass Comm project, I btr do something wif the other 1 & email my lecturer-supervisor, lest she'll think I'm shaking legs over here!  I aint shaking legs here u noe, I'm juz staring blankly @ my PC screen!

Ma Mom wanna go out shopping 2 check out the GSS & some exhibition @ S'pore Expo (which is a repeat exhibition, but bcoz it's free admission, she MUZ go!)..I felt bad abt ignoring her wish, coz she gav up waiting 4 my response & decided 2 take a nap.  Poor her.  So I asked her if she wanna go out (as though I cld eva xpect a NO from her!), then we got ready & left home arnd 2pm.  1st stop: top-up petrol full tank, her treat!  We reached expo, I parked the car & Dad called.  Mom had made plans 2 go Suntec together; I'll fetch Dad from his Paya Lebar HQ & we'll swop driver.  Obviously he's supposed 2 call when he leaves his post @ Orchard while waiting 4 his transport 2 bring him back 2 HQ..but he called when he was already @ Geylang!! *sigh* So it was literally a free-admission to Expo, went out barely 1 min, the EPS didn't even deduct a single cent from my cashcard!  The whole day I kept teasing Mom wif my FREE-ADMISSION joke!  Fetched Dad, went 2 Carrefour, bought a new fan for myself (took a $125 loan from Mom) & 2 wooden shoe rack (cabinet type) @ $19.90 each.  Went back home 2 drop Dad & the stuff home.  Then we went out agn..2 finish our unfinished - wat unfinished? unstarted! - business @ Expo.  Quick tour inside, same thing since it's a repeat b4 we zoom off 2 Tampines Century Square.  Got a baby gift @ "Kiddy Palace" (20% disc storewide) 4 my cuz's newborn & a watch @ "25 Hours" ($98.90 2b shared among 4 of us - not bad right?!) for Dad's b'day-cum-Father's Day in Jun.

Came home almost 9pm..showered & prayed..then helped Mom fix my new fan..followed by co-building the new shoe rack wif a lot of heart-ache (thanks 2 Dad irritating the shit out of us instead of lending a hand).  We completed almost 11pm..then we watched DVD ("Tumsa Nahin Dekha" for the 3rd time!) as we were too tired & cldn't sleep.  We watched till we got sleepy & decided 2 sleep. :)

SUN was like wake up @ 11.45am as usual, juz in time 2 freshen up & settle down 2 catch "CHARMED" on Star World which having breakfast!  Oh btw, this season of "CHARMED" will premiere on Ch 5 from 1 Jun @ 8.30pm.  After that, I showered & prayed..& then we had 2 go out 2 hunt 4 lunch as Mom didn't cook.  I told her "If u wanna go visit ur nephew's newborn, u btr do it 2day coz I'm not abt 2b going out on all 3 days & not doing my project..2day will be the last day I'm going out!".  So we left 4 Geylang @ 2pm, had lunch @ Hawa Restaurant @ Onan Rd, then went 2 buy the audio CD of "Tumsa Nahin Dekha" as the files I downloaded from the net is not "burnable" on CD (dun ask me why..I already told u I hate technology sometimes!).  Got a major migraine out there..but we completed our errands (of hunting 4 Tahu Goreng 4 Dad) & got back home arnd 4pm.  Took panadol, showered, prayed, rubbed axe-oil & rested my migraine 4 a while b4 ma Aunt called (we were supposed 2 see my cuz's baby together).  Left @ 5pm..saw the baby..held her in my arms, cootchie-coo & baby talk wif her for 20mins (girl u see, if it was a boy, I wonder if I'd even bother 2 visit!)..send my aunt back @ Bedok & home sweet home almost 7pm.  Showered & prayed, had Chocolate Ball wif Milo 4 dinner, then caught up wif the 2 movies I recorded on Sat, "Saaya" & "Paap".  Of coz, in between, I watched my darling Abhishek's "Kuch Naa Kaho" on Arts Central @ 9pm!

I think I had an overdose of John Abraham yesterday.  "Saaya" & "Paap" both had him.  Both was a Mahesh Bhatt production.  So yes, I did xpect that the movie was lift-off from some Hollywood movies.  "Saaya" = Kevin Costner's recent "Dragonfly" & "Paap" = Harrison Ford's "Witness" (1985).  John Abraham is a gd actor, no doubt.  Whatever role he plays, he carries it off with great conviction.  He's, undoubtedly, among the new breed of model-turn-actor (wif perfect physique, I muz add!) who can go far & last longer in the industry.  Then agn, like I said, I had an overdose of him the whole of Sun night!  I didn't mind though, especially the later part of the night when I was watching "Paap".  If u ask me why, then I'll be honest...in 60% of "Paap", he was walking arnd topless (nice bod, so I didn't mind it..;p)!!  Both the movies had substance; I enjoyed the movies thoroughly, not crap at all.  Of coz, watching it from TV2 & TV3, the movies appear so demure & clean, one hardly gets 2 see any kissing or hot scenes...which is so unlike a Mahesh Bhatt film (remember "Murder"?).  Of coz wif a title as suggestive as "Paap" (sin) & a cover as provocative (4 a hindi movie) as this, one sure wld expect 2 sin.

Having "sinned" till almost 3am (insomnia), I woke up @ 11.45am today.  Had nasi lemak 4 b/fast..& now (2.15pm) bz typing this!  Gonna shower & pray after this..but I assure u, the rest of my Monday will definitely be filled wif my project.  No more TV for me till 8.30pm!!! Grounded! (",)

Boy-O-Boy...what a week!

Yes...I'll say dat agn...what a week!

Re-cap:

MONDAY (16th May)

I found out that my cuz's wife (who happens 2b my colleague) gav birth 2 a baby gal on 15th May (boohoohoo..Madhuri's birthday..boohoohoo..How dare she share b'day with my Madhuri!) Aaargghh..what the hell, who cares!

But, it aint a bad Mon afterall..I had my 1st sweet dream @ age 28. Nope, I'm not pathetic, it's juz that I don't get dreams when I sleep; I either get visions {unexplainable theory}, flashbacks {of events that has happened} or worse, nightmares {the villainous version of dreams}!  *sigh* Or perhaps I dun sleep long enuf 2 invite dreams into my sleep..Oh well, so as I was saying?  Aaaahh yes..I dreamt of Saif Ali Khan (he wasn't a star in my dream..just any ordinary guy on the street) ..what a sweet, sexy, romantic dream..*dreamy eyes*..

Oh puhleaaase, don't corrupt my dream with your naughty thoughts! My dream is as innocent as the dreamer! ;p Really.

TUESDAY (17th May)

Apart from grinning ear-to-ear from the time I woke up remembering my dream..all the way..till the next 15hrs (My poor colleagues could just shake their heads seeing me in this *high* & *sigh* state!), I was granted the “pleasure” of spending 2 hrs, till 2am, trying to save the memories of that sweet dream in here 2 entertain you ppl, only 2 have it disappear rite under my NOSE (due to a glitch which I juz dunno what!)!  If that's not bad enuf, then hear dis: It disappeared juz as I was finishing the final touch-up, of inserting a pic!

So..once agn, I proclaim: I REALLY HATE TECHNOLOGY sometimes! Needless to add, I went to sleep with a beary heavy heart..beary beary sad..but of coz! (Duh)

WEDNESDAY (18th May)

Terribly indigested day with an itinerary dat looks a bit like dis:

1:00pm: Lunch date with Roshni

7:00pm: Dinner date with Farah

So this is how it went..

Lunch date: Roshni (my colleague-friend who juz came back from a 3-wk holiday in Paris!) & I went out of airport (been ages since we did such things!) to lunch @ my fave Chicken Rice stall @ Tampines Blk 138.  Had chicken rice, goes w/o saying! Nice weather, nice co., nice food = GooD LUNCH!

Dinner date: Farah was terribly late.  I waited for her for 1/2 hr, but that's fine as long as I was spared the jam @ Rochor exit on the ECP!  I had Turkish food for the 1st time in my life..@ SOFRA Turkish Delight @ Shaw (Bugis).  I had this thing called "Pide", which is equivalent to what we call Pizza. Farah had "Shish Kebab".  For dessert, ice-cream was unavailable, so the nxt best thing 4 me is chocolate...so I had "Chocolate Pudding" and Farah had "Rice Pudding".  The Rice Pudding was WOWWEE..but my Chocolate Pudding was too chocolatey for me (Farah liked it though)..So guess what 2 genius adults wld do in such situation?!  Trade.  Yes, I took 1/2 of Farah's Rice Pudding and Farah took 1/2 of my Chocolate pudding..& ooh~laa~laa..we enjoyed our puddings awrite! :)

Oh well, have 2 mention: The dinner was on her!  It was her 1st treat 2 me with her hard-earned $$ now that she's working, so why not! *winkz*  Oh, btw, I was wrong (ok, ok, I was wrong - for once!)..she was genuinely asking me out..no strings attached..hehe..she told me "Kak Sharb, if I had any other agenda in mind 4 asking u out, I'd have mentioned it @ the start of the dinner". I wasn't convinced still, so even as we were abt 2 part, I asked her agn "R u sure..." & she juz gav me a "Kak Sharrbbb!" hehe.."Ok ok Farah, I believe u!"

THURSDAY (19th May)

I was pissed-off by my colleague sitting in front of me (not the 1st time she pisses me off!)..hmm..mayb I’m juz not cut-out 2b a gd human being! *sigh*  In any case, I think I might as well not talk abt it or I'll re-ignite my anger!

HABIBI Liyah took up a new challenge in her life today..as MISS MATCH (watch out Alicia Silverstone!) ;p

Slept @ 10.10pm (record-breaking early!), didn't even spend time wif my PC..coz my sis & bro-in-law was home & nvr left as at the time I fell asleep (tired of waiting 4 them 2 leave so I can roam arnd the house freely!)..

FRIDAY (20th May)

Starts wif a lazy Fri @ work..so I was juz irritating the shit out of all my bz colleagues wif my overflowing wits. ;p

Looking 4ward 2 the long wkend 2 work on my project! Oh btw, if u noticed in my whole wk agenda, there was no mention of my project, despite being sentenced 2 do so everynite, then that's coz I nvr gotta do it eventually..that's y looking 4ward 2 dis long wkend 2 really do it!

Not looking 4ward 2 having 2 accompany my mom 2 visit my newborn niece (cuz's baby) who was born on 15th May!!! They don't deserve my attn, that's all I can say (not the poor baby of coz, she's so sin-free for goodness sake)!

Finally, bcoz I’ve been jollying 4 the past 2 wks in office bcoz of my bosses absence, I stayed in office till 7pm (1hr extra) 2 finish all my outstanding work @ the 11th hr before they both come back 2 office on Tues!  But all my exhaustion flew away the moment I come home & on my PC.  Coz nothing is more fulfilling than 2 come home on a Fri nite & finding a testimonial awaiting ur approval on Friendster which read:

“Without even being present u always manage 2 put a smile on my face Sis .... Amazing.”

So u guys..if u’ve been missing me (awww)..I've the best remedy 4 u!  Juz read my blogs & I guarantee u’ll not leave this pg w/o a smile on ur face!  Bet?

Lazy weekend

This wkend has been a lazy, but fruitful wkend for me. Itinerary as follows:

1. Mom's mood finally swung back to normal.

2. I listened to the 2 people who needed a listening ear and some counselling.

3. I brought mom for some grocery shopping and then went to visit granny and made her day.

4. I've been having an overdose of "nutella" chocolates & Magnolia grape milk these wkend.

5. I deleted 2 ppl from my "friends" list as they've been quiet since they were added.  They're relatives actually, so they know the jist of me...but obviously, they don't deserve to get to know the REAL me...so out they go!

6. Nikky said (on MSN): "Take care of your health, and eat more iron..." I told her: "I've only 1 iron @ home which I use to press my clothes, and if I eat that, what do I iron my clothes with then?!" ... *scratch head* Ok, ok, that sounds like a typical dumb blonde or sardar joke, I know ...

7. I shall punish myself for not meeting my target for my final graduation project.  *sigh*  Lazy mind, so no inspiration.  No inspiration, so not as productive as I'd have wanted to be.  So Sharbina - you're grounded the whole of next week and have to do a bit of your project every nite w/o fail!!!! Errmmm .. except Wed, since I've already made a dinner appt. with Farah, my ex-student who's now a successful officer with Spring S'pore. It's been a while since we met; we've been chatting on MSN & on the phone since the end of her attachment @ CAAS ... and we met once just after the end of her attachment, before the start of Ramadhan last year. But since then, no opportunity to meet. So this Wed it shall be Insyallah - something to look forward to!  I do suspect she may need something from me & mtg cld be juz an excuse, as that's what ppl always do wif me...but I may be wrong, she may juz be genuine, unlike others. So let's see...

8. I watched Jogger's Park for the 2nd time now, on Arts Central.  Slow start, but picks up later half of the movie. I don't know what attracts me to the movie, maybe it's just the actress, Perizaad Zorabian.  I'm in awe of her (chirpiness). The subject is not something that I'm in favour of, about a young lady who falls in love with an old man - a retired judge - whom she befriended at the Jogger's Park where both jog at that estate every morning.  A man she had so much of respect & admiration for.  Till one day, both find that they can't live w/o each other and discover they are in love with each other.  But with peer pressures, the relationship just couldn't carry on.  I like the ending, where both decided that it was just not right, and they did what is right.  Parted.  Both went to lead their own lives and 4 years later, both met at the airport and exchanged a Hi & a Bye. Both are happy on the exterior.  But on the interior, viewers' discretion encouraged. Hahaha... Sweet decent love story of a young-old pair. :p So unique.  Oh guess, what, they'll be showing Kuch Naa Kaho (Abhishek with *urgghh* Aish) next Sun.  Love Abhishek in that movie (as opposed to him in Yuva...yucks!)...looking forward to Sun!

Have I missed anything? Oh yes, I miss my princess, Shazadi...I hope marriage hasn't changed her (I know, I know, u're probably bz cooking for ma-in-law & hubby! ;p) & she hasn't forgotten our nice times bitching abt Loveleen on MSN, etc. (oooopppps!).  No updates on her blog since her officially married day (6 May)..kya yaar, what's going on!?

Till I figure it out myself...outz!

Special Dedication

Just in the mood to dedicate a post specially for 2 people in my life who deserve a jadoo ki jappi (magic hug) from me at this moment as they are probably going thru 1 of their low phases in life ...

1) Nikky - something's happened & it's bothering u, I know .. u're just not telling and passing it off as "everything's fine kakak madhuri!" Ya right ! Move on, ok!?

2) Shera - for thinking she's an ugly duckling ... 1 day u'll grow up 2b a (beautiful) swan .. I know it!  Everything happens for a reason, and I hope u stay happy always & stay away from bad people and remain blessed in the company of good sincere people ... Lift up your low spirits, ok!?

Take a chill pill yaar, both of u!!

Hugz & kisses from ... Yours Truly

God bless Uchenna & Joyce

I'm feeling down. I don't know why. (Heee...that sounded so rhythmic, it almost cld pass off as some song lyric! No?)

For one, I've nothing nice to say abt my mom, so I shant say anything here. I know whenever she gives me attitude (which I choose to pass off as PMS or menopausal symptom!), she never fails to make me realise how much I hate my life. *sigh*

So here I am .. rejoicing by watching the final episode of Amazing Race 7... The day Joyce sacrificed her hair for the Fast-Forward ... I had wished & hoped they win the race. I definitely do not want to see Rob & Amber rob them of the pleasure! This Race really bring tears to my eyes. The old couple (Gretchen & Meredith) for staying that long & strong ... then of course, the goodness & kindness of Uchenna & Joyce as human beings. Uchenna thought me the concept of 'positive thinking' as I watch them race the tough & adrenalin-pumping final rounds! The never-give-up spirit is simply admirable! Can't help think they have guardian angels running with them ... so blessed ... by blessing after another after another ... I mean, UNBELIEVABLE ... they were so far back from Rob & Amber and Ron & Kelly ... going to the airport to beg for $$ & starting the tasks leaps after the other teams have crossed theirs ... but yet, they easily caught up! They were held up @ the final gate ... yet Rob & Amber nvr reached the gate and let them have all the time in the world to beg for $$ to settle the cab fare (now that sure reminds me of Bollywood - the cops nvr arrive until the protagonist have settled his scores with the antagonists!) ... Had it been for Rob, he probably wld hav just left the cab driver and raced to the finish line!!!

Oh well, since I've predicted, desired, wished, hoped & prayed for Uchenna & Joyce to win (ermmm .. anyone but Rob & Amber la!) ... I don't think I wanna say  "Congratulations Uchenna & Joyce" ... that'll be too lame to come from me ... all I've to say is "God Bless Uchenna & Joyce" ...

I found myself a new role model - Just when I'm down (this happens @ least once every yr - that's y it tires me!) & regretting the very reason for my existence ... Uchenna did me a favour by reminding me that when God closes a door on u, He leaves an open window for u!

As I write this... Shabir tells me (on MSN) "don't be sad" ...it's CREEPY considering I do not have a webcam and he had no clue that I was down & had tears in my eyes!

Ok peeps .. it's 3am on the morning of Friday the 13th (no wonder creepiness is getting to me) ... I shld really turn in now ... I feel btr after letting off some burden off my chest here ... time to sleep in peace!

~Adios~

Ringtones

Yippee !!!

After almost 1 yr of holding this Nokia 7250i ... and being deprived of all the bollywood ringtones I used to compose for my Nokia 8250 ... I finally stumble upon a website to download polyphonic ringtones !!! And this time, unlike the few other times I tried such downloadings, it worked !!!!!!!!  I really think Emraan is my lucky charm ... I was surfing the net on him when I came across this website:

http://ringtones.duble.com/polyphonic/bollywood-ringtones.htm

So now I've like 6 bollywood polyphonic ringtones in my mobile ... so there goes my plan to change hp!

Ok .. wait a minute!? I'm supposed 2b in town doing price survey (my monthly spy job) ... what the shit am I doing @ home posting this ?!

Ciaoz ... till next time ...

Latest craze!

Apart from a solid 7hrs last nite in front of the PC working on my Literature Review for my final grad project ... (catching up on lost weekends!) I've been lazing arnd most of  my weekdays ... Dad brought home Stardust ... and I'm busy reading Emraan Hashmi's "Wild Encounter" column ... for what? Maybe to call for inspiration for my project!  Think I've got a new crush ... after Arjun Rampal, Dino Moreo, Zayed Khan, Shahid Kapur & Vatsal Seth... now it's Emraan Hashmi (also known as Bollywood's smooch specialist!)...  

05/05/05

*sigh* Why do ppl loathe Abhishek Bachchan so much ... I wonder?!? Can anyone tell me? What has he done to anyone ...Ok, fine, he's not a looker like ur Shahrukh Khan or ur Hrithik Roshan ... but that's exactly why I like him - So that I don't have to compete for him with any other girls !!! So if u don't like Abhishek, good! ;p I shall feast on him ALONE! ;p