Can't wait to get it over & done with!!

I'm nvr gonna feel any better until this whole convocation thing is over.  Bcoz for as long as I'm still gonna see my former coursemates (we're bound to cross path on 7 Dec), the fire that's burning in me will nvr be doused!  They'll always remind me of the screw-ups I had to go through during these 2 yrs! 

The 2 yrs I was with Auston had costed me my health.  At 28, I was diagnosed with SINUS (stress-related by the way) when I consulted the doctor for a terrible pain on my forehead that made me unable to even ruku' during solat coz it felt like someting heavy & sharp is moving along loosely in my head whenever I move my head, even to nod or shake !!!!  I developed breathing problems (which btw is stress-related agn).  The good thing is, if it wasn't for all these, I'd nvr learn to slow down.  I decided to take it very very easy so that I will not breakdown.  Talk of breakdown, I had a physical breakdown in Jul 05.  Just cldn't get out of bed.  Didn't sleep (at the most, 2hrs of sleep each day) for many days doing my final grad project, that 1 fine Sunday, my body just stopped functioning - I was temporarily paralysed.  I didn't get off bed the whole Sunday!  That was scary.  But I saw my well-wishers showing how much they cared...they ensured I take my due breaks (Nikky - thanks for this wallpaper!!), have proper meals, sleep sufficiently & peacefully.  Not forgeting, my Mom's tender loving care during that period, otherwise, I doubt I'd recover so soon (3 days).

Today I tried to take things easy.  I try to forget abt yesterday.  Afterall, what happened wasn't within my control.  I came home to find Auston's envelope on the table.  My final grad project result has arrived...FINALLY! I opened it with vigourous heartbeat:

Saw an "A" and heaved a sigh of relief!  It's finally over!  Wooohooo! I did it; I completed my academic education cycle (always wanted to complete it with a degree)...better still, with my own money w/o burdening my parents, who are orthodox by the way...after my O's, Dad told me: "A girl's place is eventually the kitchen, so no need to study so high".  That's the reason y I stopped after my O's & started working.  I took an oath not to trouble him...and henceforth, my future education will be at my own expense!

I thank..

1. My mom - For giving me the 3 MONTHS I asked for.  She lived w/o me (practically) as I needed space & time in order to complete my project.  If I've to keep entertaining her to go out to kill her boredom & attend to ppl's wedding, cukur rambut, engagement, b'day, etc etc ... chances is I won't see this day.  I imprisoned myself in the room, coming out only to eat, bathe & wudhu.  The TV missed me terribly!;

2. My sis - For the "conqueror paper" she donated to me so that I didn't have to buy special papers to print my project, it wld have costed me a bomb!;

3. My bro - For playing chauffeur @ 11pm despite being tired after work...to drive me (at Mom's request) to Mustaffa Centre on 7 Sep as my printer cartridge ran out just as I was 1hr away from the completion of printing my project & I also ran out of "conqueror paper" despite buying few more during the day..so the only store that is opened @ that hr was Mustaffa Centre!  Was having migraine, thus wasn't abt to drive, was gonna take cab..but Mom asked Bro to help instead & he obliged (although he test-drove my car just a couple of times & hasn't driven the car for 8 mths! plus, he also has never driven to Serangoon..I think);

4. My dad (as tho he'll ever be reading my blog!) - For sponsoring $14 to pay for the binding of my 2 sets of project report.  I was terribly broke, cldn't even afford to bind it...my report ended up thicker than the Quran, unexpectedly...too thick & costly to do a proper presentable binding (u know, the album type) as initially planned, so I just settled for a normal ring-binding!

5. My well-wishers - Nikky, Habibi Liah & Shera for living w/o me, leaving me alone (but still ocassionally checked on me to see if I'm still ALIVE) & waited patiently for end Sep knowing I'm all theirs once I submit my project!

0. (above all & He knows it!) Allah SWT - For granting me the TIME & HEALTH...without which the completion of my studies wld not have been possible.

The countdown begins...1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6...and 7 Dec...here I come!

PS:- I was expecting my results & graduation after I return from Langkawi as I wanted to free my mind & enjoy my vacation (in case I don't do well)...but maybe the Langkawi trip was meant to be my well-deserved reward, so now all's gonna be over by the time I leave for Langkawi on the 16th!!!  Yipppeee!  Finally can go to a beach to scream my lungs out!  Hopefully they send me to Tg Rambutan!  At least btr than living life here...in a mental asylum, no one will say anything if I start to sing & dance in public ala Bollywood style!