I don't wish for death right now...but I wish I never existed in the 1st place!

*tears collecting in eyes* I've been staring blankly at this white space since the past 1/2hr.  So much happened over a span of 8hrs today...but my heart is heavy, my brain is frozen, my tongue is tied...I just dunno where to start.

*tears collecting in eyes*  Have I lost faith in people...or have I lost faith in myself?  I grew up thinking I'm a jinx...I made an identity for myself (I shall do justice to the word humility & not be so full of myself here) & changed my opinion abt myself...that there's no such thing as "a jinx".

FLASHBACK...Sep 2003

Nursing a heartbreak, I decided that I'm done with matters of the heart & in an attempt to evade marriage, I decided to complete my education cycle while I still have the opportunity.  I decided to pursue my degree in Mass Comm after a 4 yr break since my Advance Diploma (equivalent to 1st year degree).

Checked out few institutions, matched it with the few criterias on my agenda, and within a month, Auston seems to fit the bill. 

• Shortest duration (1 year - cramm both Yr 2 & 3 into a single year);


• Cheapest;


• The syllabus covered are not dry & matches my interest (except for Accounting & Finance - no choice, management level courses all have accounting & finance);


• Convenient location (near Bugis MRT)

So I went to check Auston out & made some enquiries.  Sales line, what do u expect - VERY PERSISTENT (irritating sometimes!).  Stanley Teo - Student Recruitment Officer.  Very convincing.  Explained A-Z to me..handled my enquiries well.  I told him I'll think abt it (for Mar 04 intake coz Nov 03 intake, registration closes end Oct, so it was a bit of a rush).  Because this is a direct honours program (US), a graduation project/thesis is needed.  Thought I'll cross the bridge when I reach it later.  Stanley pressurised me into signing up for the Nov 03 intake with this:

"Graduation ceremony is held in Jan each year.  If you sign up for the Nov 03 intake, you'll complete in Nov, meanwhile, while in your final semester (Sep 04), you'll get started with the final grad project, finish & submit by Dec 04, you can graduate in Jan 05 immediately.  Whereas if u sign up for Mar 04 intake, you complete in Mar 05, u've to wait till Jan 06 to graduate, why waste time?!"

True actually, as though he knew I had no time.  So anyways, I exhausted all the savings I had to pay the administrative & registration of the course while I applied for study loan with my co.  I got the loan (which is why I'm $300 lesser each month for 3 yrs till Dec 06!)..so I paid for the course in full (there was a promotion of 5% disc if pay in full).  So, I started the course on the eve of hari raya in Nov 03 (wah lao!!! fancy eve of Eid I was in lecture room & not chilling out @ home! 1st time in my life man!).

...Sep 2004

My 4th & final semester, the heaviest one, with 3 modules (as opposed to 2 modules in the previous 3 semesters!).  Attended the grad project briefing & finally got an idea from the supervisor (who happened to be my lecturer Shila who took my class for 2nd, 3rd & 4th semesters) on how extensive the grad project is, each project take at least 3 mths.  The final semester was like so heavy there were 6 assignments each due every other week!! Obviously we can't start on our thesis then, but will have to wait till exam is over in Nov 04.  Which then meant that there's no way I can submit the project in Dec 04 & graduate in Jan 05!!!  Called Auston & found out Stanley is no longer around & when I related what he told me, they told me I've been misled (technically, conned!) ..but "sorry ma'am, the person is no longer around, there's nothing we can do abt it, we apologise on Stanley's behalf". %$#@ &*$!  I told Shila & Auston, I refuse to waste my time when I know I won't graduate till Jan 06, so I'm taking my own sweet time to do a gd project.  Nov 04 - 1st 2 wks of Eid, I was self-grounded, facing my final semester's exams.

During the 1 yr of my course, these are the kind of ppl who came into my life:

1. Those who'd call me on every eve of assignment due date for help on assignment.  This is bcoz, I'm possibly the only student who has nvr been absent from lectures, sit alone & pay attn during lectures, look bright (read: idiotic enuf to make use of).  After 2 semesters, I decided to be "out of reach" 1 wk b4 assignment due.

2. Those who always don't turn up on the last day of lecture b4 exam & will call me to ask if there were "exam topics" given.  My ans: I left lecture mid-way, try the others.

3. Those who'd call me everyday for the 3 days b4 exam (incidentally, I'm always on 3 days study leave for exam every semester) to ask questions (which technically is "where can the answers to the exam topics given be found in the text?!").  While I was bz reading all the chapters for the exam topics, all they wanna do is zoom into where the ans is found!  1st semester, I felt , ok la, while going tru with them, I'm technically revising myself rite.  Come 2nd semester onwards, I "uncontactable" when I'm on exam leave.  The only time I get to appreciate life w/o that beeping technology!

4. Those who doesn't participate in group projects but ride on me & my group bcoz of our fab synergy that always gives us an A.  Even my grp mates started to slack by the 2nd semester we're together, bcoz they felt that I was too conscientious to slack, so they can trust I will not screw the project!  I'd end up slogging & getting an A all the time, but regretting coz the rest get easy A by doing almost nothing.  By the 3rd project, I decided to play their game..afterall, if u can't beat them, join them!!!

5. Those who don't do their project themselves, but get others to do (and yet very proud of themselves!)...and those who gladly do people's project for them for a fee (once again, very proud of themselves).  With a paper, w/o calibre, I wonder how far one can go!?  Bcoz with calibre, w/o paper, many have proven themselves ... good example...the punkster sch dropout who is now the proud owner of Charles & Keith.

...Feb 2005

By this time, there were some negative publicities abt Auston's administrative lapse.  I was beginning to get demoralised & wondering if I really am "a jinx" afterall.  If there's anyone who nvr fail to make me believe that I'm "a jinx" ... it's my MOM!!! *tears collecting in eyes*  Thanks Ma...for always namecalling me "abhagan" (hindi for suay) & guess wat Ma...Allah listens!

Anyhoots, I finally got started with my final grad project (hoping to get it over & done wif & get Auston out of my system!)...starting with the proposal, getting it approved, working closely with Shila & conceived the project.  After 3 mths of slogging & getting 70% done, Shila told me that she resigned & her last day is 1 Jun 05!!  From 2 Jun 05, a new person will be contracted to supervise our projects & we were all given till 30 Sep 2005 to submit our projects.  A Dr Jasen Loke came to take over.  Cut story short, I had to technically revamp everything that I did with Shila, ie. 3 mths down the drain.  I spent 1 whole mth cleaning up the project to meet Dr Loke's requirement & I slogged for another 3 mths & in Aug, we were told that wef 31 Aug 05, Dr Loke's contract has ended.  So once agn, history repeats itself.  So I get project over with & throw it @ Auston on 9 Sep 2005...a heavy load of my chest. 

...Sep 2005

Auston is no longer in partnership with my uni (Upper Iowa Uni)...some troubles la...Auston's been having some bad publicities since early this yr, which is also why I'm dying to get Auston out of my system!!  I've been in email contact with some Edwin Tan who is the middleman who brought UIU to S'pore.  Raffles Campus is the new S'pore partner for UIU.  Anyways, Edwin was supposed to keep me posted if there will be any graduation ceremony etc, coz all that is like so fluid, we had no clue abt the fate of our graduation ceremony (which otherwise was supposed 2b in Jan 06 by Auston).

Oh well, been celebrating since 9 Sep...re-living life all over agn, I feel like reincarnated! Told myself to just chill out & not think abt anything till after my Langkawi trip mid-Dec.  Come back from the trip, then will think of what I'll do with my life.  In the meantime, I did all the things I had put on hold, including meeting Habibi Liah for the 1st time after being online buddy for a year (since she was 8 mths pregnant with Zoha till Zoha is now more than 1 year old!)  I enjoyed life for a brief moment, then enjoyed my Ramadhan, doing things I missed since the past 2 yrs, including but not limited to  (attempting to sound like a lawyer!) making kuihs!  Eid came.  Eid went.  My final grad project's grade never came!!  After it hit the 2nd month mark, I called Auston to enquire (keep 4getting 2 call them, finally called them on 22 Nov), only to be told by Brenda, from Student Affairs Dept., there's a delay as the Academic Director marking it underwent an eye operation.  My reaction was like "So?!" I went through my fair share of hell too ok!!!  So the staff told me they expect to receive it in a weeks time & will call me (this week).

BACK TO THE PRESENT...29 Nov 2005

I was reading Lynn's (my coursemate) blog last nite & in her latest post, she wrote that her convocation is on 7 Dec.  I commented on her blog that I've yet to even get my grad project's results, so was wondering abt my graduation, how come I'm not having any ceremony when I submitted my project 10 days after she did.

This morning while I was driving to work, I had a call but since I didn't have my earpiece on, I cldn't take the call.  I knew it was Auston.  I tried to return call since then, every hr, but no answer/cldn't get through.  Till 3pm.  And Brenda told me that they've received my grades for the grad project & asked if I'd like to collect personally or have it mailed.  I told her to mail as I work office hrs & wont be able to make a trip.  I asked Brenda "So, what's next, when will I receive THE papers, etc?"...and she started with "Oh ok, will u be attending the graduation ceremony?" I freaked & asked her "WHAT GRADUATION CEREMONY?! I DIDN'T KNOW THERE WAS GONNA BE 1?!"  She was puzzled how come I was missed out.  So she told me to call Edwin.  I called Edwin & Edwin told me Raffles was to have emailed to all graduating student & he read my email sharu@singnet.com.sg.  I told him since when have I ever emailed him or even Auston using that email!?  It has long ceased existence.  How cld they just email such impt. issue & be so confident everyone wld receive/read the email?  They had my hp no., they shld have called to check if I received after not receiving a reply.  By right, since the email doesn't exist, they shld have received a delivery-failure report (unless singnet recycle email id?!).  I tell u I almost vomitted blood @ Raffles Campus' attitude.  Just bcoz they "adopted" us (the last batch from Auston who was stuck with finalising the grad project), they act as though they're doing us a big favour by holding the convocation for us!

Well all that aside...I decided to check out my regular caller (my coursemate who'd call me for every little consultation ... as I was 2 semesters senior)...she had mentioned abt rushing the project & graduating together hopefully.  So I called to ask her abt the status of her project.  She said she submitted, so I tested her with a "so what's happening now?" .. she answered coolly "oh, all is going smooth, they're doing a graduation ceremony on the 7th..." I cut her short with "Did u receive the email on the graduation ceremony?" and she said "yes I did ..." ... Once again, I cut her short with "dya know I nvr received anything, until I found out today that the graduation ceremony is next week?! Apparently, they emailed to my no-longer-existing email, w/o verifying my details & nvr bothered to call to check when I nvr responded!"  She was like "Oh .. is it .. oh dear ..."  Once agn, I cut her "how come u didn't call me to discuss abt this when u got the email?" ... this is the best part of my ordeal:

"Oh ya ah .. u slipped my mind ... I'm so sorry..."

*tears collecting in eyes* ...For the last time, I cut her short "If only u had called me Anita, I'd have known earlier!"

So with that, I reminded myself once agn, why I'm such a loner & choose not to have associations with anyone.  I go to work to work, take my pay, once I'm out of the office, I've no emotional relations with anyone from office (besides the fact that 1 or 2 may still associate themselves with me outside office hrs...can't stop them, rite?).  Same thing, I go to class to study, after class, I've no associations with anyone.  The ones who did, I've discarded them from my life anyway, it's not like they keep in touch genuinely...but only when they need something.  At the most, I'm only in touch with my former lecturer Shila.

So anyways, with a bad day @ work with 3 bosses hounding me (oh didn't you know, I'm superwoman, I split myself into 3 pieces @ work!) since morning, this was the last straw.

Am I really jinxed...or what!?

*Blink...tears roll down my cheeks*

PS:- I'm still wondering how come a graduation ceremony is being arranged before we even know our final project grades?! What if we fail!?

Tera (God's) Jadoo Chal Gaya!!

There's no such thing as coincidence...It is just God doing things & decides to remain anonymous...that's the thing that we conveniently term as "coincidence".  Indeed!  Bcoz what happened today is one of those God's doing.  He does His magic in the most unthinkable ways and He remains anonymous afterwards.  Check this out!

I wrote abt Johnny 3 days ago.  I thought about him and our friendship all these years (since 1991)...from the time he was a playful boy who only thinks about playing "hantam bola" in school...to a fine gentleman who gets his heart broken time & again! Not bcoz he's worthless (excuse me!)...but bcoz he's too damn nice *sigh*!!

I came back to office today after a 2-day course @ Civil Service College (IPAM).  It was a dreadful beginning (everyday @ work is dreadful since the last 2 years anyway, so today is no different!).  I walked in office, like normal, just mind my own business, on my PC, put my headphone on, blast my MP3 & get started with work.  Barely half-an-hour into work, my hp rang...it was Nikky.  She was asking where am I, am I in offie & she started telling me she can't find my office at the end of the departure hall.  Guess where is she?  Terminal 1 (my office is in Terminal 2!).  So ok, that's so expected of her...hehe...so anyways, she was in T1 to send her uncle off... she was wif her family.  So I told her to come over to T2 so we can meet up a while if she's not in a hurry. 

Carried on wif work.  Half-an-hour later, I got another call, this time from a guy...looking for Madhuri!!! Guess who? Johnny!  He asked me the same qn (where r u, etc etc)...so I told him I can't disappear from office for too long by going to T1, so I told him to take the skytrain & come over to T2 so we can meet up for a short while.  10 mins later, Nikky, Johnny, their mom (Siba auntie) & Chotu (the baby Siba auntie babysits who's become like their lil baby sister now!) was just next to my office.  The moment I saw Johnny..there's this feeling of "u were just on my mind 3 days ago & now u're (finally!) in front of my eyes!!"  We had great fun, yakking...just walking from my office to the other end of T2 (to the skytrain for them to go back to T1 coz Johnny parked @ T1)...brought them to the carpark to show my car's new look LIVE.  All in all, we spent a wonderful half-an-hour together! Unplanned. Undreamt.

The stupidest thing out of all this was...in an era of everyone owning a camera-phone...no one even thought of snapping a photo!!!  (Ya ya Nikky, bet right now u're going "oh ya ah!! damn silly!")  But anyways, a picture remains in my heart.  Permanently, so who cares...but a waste la really..esp when Johnny was looking good just now!  Oh talk of photos, I shld give some credit to Johnny.  He doesn't look like in that pic anymore.  That's was like 6 yrs ago!  Now he somewhat looks like this.  Perhaps btr in person, coz unless his left profile is taken, he's not photogenic (sorry John, honesty is my best policy!  I'm not photogenic either...I know...so u don't have to tell me that...hehehehe...) 

So when I decide to be good & rid all the ill-feelings...start to look at things in a better light so I can appreciate a person's good side instead of fretting & harping over his not-so-good side...God instantly rewarded me in the most unthinkable but pleasant way!  I think, all this while opportunity never arise for Johnny & I to really meet up & catch up with each other bcoz...oh well, guess, I juz wasn't deserving of it...yet.  Truly.

HUM TUM

Dear John,

I'm not sure why you came to mind today...but I had 1hr to kill during lunch @ IPAM...and since you came to mind, I decided to do some soul-searching.  Since the time I read it, I've been thinking abt this interesting portion on your updated profile:

"I've been told that I dont keep in touch with friends .. but thats something about me that came about some 2 or 3 years ago .. but I do stick to one thing that I tell all my friends .. I'm one phone call away .. Call me and I'll be there .. To all my friends ..thank you for understanding and enduring this part of me .."

I'm not sure if there are others who complain the same, but yes, that 1st sentence sounds so familiar...Ok ok, I'm guilty of always harping on the fact that you're always saying we should meet up, and it stops there...a mere saying!).

I tried to recollect how Kamal (aka Nikky) & I got back in touch...eventually becoming THIS close.  I sure remember there was a gap of 10 years where our families had lost contact with each other.  How come till today, you & I are still in contact..even if it was just an occasional sms (at least, we never forget each other, na!).

So why was I always fretting that you never make an attempt to keep in touch...and today, I finally recalled how Kamal came back to my life.  It was through you!  In 1 of our MSN chats (that's keeping in touch, no?), you were the 1 who insisted I joined Friendster (remember when u asked me "Do u have a friendster?" and I asked "What animal is that!?").  Although Friendster wasn't my cuppa tea, I made it my daily dose...and bcoz of Friendster I spotted Kamal and...the rest is history.

So why was I always fretting that you never make an attempt to keep in touch?!!  How could I be so ungrateful?  Never once did I acknowledge the fact that you've given me the BEST of you - your sis, Kamal (aka Nikky).  For as long as there's Kamal & I..there's a thread that binds you & I..forever.  Thanks John!  We're quits.  I've no more complaints!

Presenting..the new look!

Yippeee!!! The car's done...and I'm so excited to see my car madeover.  Thanks Pa!!  With the visors on all the windows, and the (blue) anti-glare film, the feeling inside the car is so different...feels more...errrr....shaded?  Sneak preview:

It feels good when u have a passion & u visualize how u want it 2b..& finally seeing the result, exactly what u had visualized...*sigh*...may Allah protect my car from evil eyes & evil doing. :)

In an attempt to cheer myself up...Part 2

...and the story continues

This Sat, Daddy's gonna bring me to D.I.Y Centre @ Ubi Ave 2, to fix:

1. Window Visors ($45) (Called the shop on Sat, but my car's model was out of stock so they ordered, took my no. & told me will call either the same day or Mon, when the stock is in.  Yes, they really called me on Mon when the stock arrives!  So impressed with the service!); and

2.  Anti-glare film ($15) @ the top of the front windscreen (alamak no picture, but it's that dark strip at the top of windscreen, which protects the driver from the sun glare...supposedly!).  It helped when I was driving the 2nd hand old (now dead) Toyota Corolla. New cars doesn't come with it I realise.

HIS TOTAL DAMAGE: $60 (perhaps even more...as I intend to 'ketuk' him for more things if there are other of interest!)

In an attempt to cheer myself up...

I've been spending $$ as though there's no tomorrow - giving my 'baby' (car) a well-deserved makeover as 'her' 1st b'day present (in advance, b'day is 19 Jan actually)! On Fri, I spent $35.70 on this:

1. a pair of 'TWEETY' head rest cover;

2. a 'TWEETY' steering-wheel cover (alamak, no photo, but it's that thing that protects your steering from heat when parked in open carpark, similar to that silver thing used to cover the windscreen); and

3. luminous blue tyre-aircap guards (comes in a pack of 5; 1 is spare, in case lose).  I'm sure it looks cool on the outside, when the wheel turns, a shiny blue piece moves along.  It'll be nice if I could drive next to a huge mirror, so I can see how it looks life from the outside!  Hah..vanity!

Then, yesterday I spent $11 (after bargaining) on 2 pairs of 'TWEETY' seatbelt pads!! There was the original Looney Toons version @ Carrefour that day, but since I need 4 (2 for front & 2 for back seats), I wasn't abt to spend $21.90x2 just for seatbelt pads?!  So u see, my sanity is still intact!!! God pitied me (I know HE loves me!!), I did a favour for a fren-colleague who needed a lift to Tampines Mart during lunch, so while I was browsing @ the shop she's getting her stuff from, I caught sight of this yellow seatbelt pads (@$5.90/pair)...and the rest is history!! 

TOTAL DAMAGE : $46.70

                                                                               The story continues ...

Moon & I

I love the MOON...I don't know why.  Everytime I see a full MOON, an indescribable feeling invades me.  There seems 2b a strong connection between the MOON & I...and it becomes harder not to wonder if I am indeed a werewolf!? Or could I be an alien from outer-space, trapped on this earth?!  I remember in Sec Sch, there's this FAT boy, Razli, who calls me "orang bulan" (man from MOON) because I had an alien eye colour.

Why am I talking MOON today? Oh .. ya .. I just saw a bee-you-tea-fool MOON.  As usual, can't resist grabbing my PC-CAM to snap the moment.  I remember I once posted the full MOON I snapped with my Nokia 7250i.  Hopeless, but at least I captured that moment.  These days, I've been contemplating if I shld buy a proper digicam.  Maybe bcoz of the dissatisfaction with some shaky/blur quality of the photos taken during the recent Eid.  But as soon as I see the outcome of the MOON'S picture I just snapped, I give up the idea.  I'm satisfied.  I conclude that it's not my PC-CAM but it's how the person snaps!  If I can snap a full MOON high up there ... and it turns out like this, plus I get to do my own amateur home video, then I can certainly live with this PC-CAM! Really, I'm easy to please when it comes to materialistic things.  Just look at this & compare it with the picture taken with Nokia 7250i months back & gimme 10 solid reasons why I shld waste $$$ for a digicam?!  I'd rather wait to win one (Oh, I wish upon the MOON tonight that I win a digicam!) Hehehe..!

(Taken with Creative PC-Cam)

(Taken with Nokia 7250i)

An eternal love story...

Ok, I admit...I'm BORED..awrite?!!  I need something to do in life...something BETTER!

Dream Achieved!

Alhamdulillah..by the grace of Allah SWT..with the intellect, patience & health He granted upon me, after so many years of yearning 2b able to read the Quran smoothly and complete it at least once in my lifetime, I finally achieved that dream today..10/11/05 @ 10:11:05pm..(nope, I didn't have a stopwatch with me..it was arnd 2210hrs, but to make it feel miraculous to me, I wrote the time such!)

Coincidentally, I once promised Granny (more than 5 yrs ago!) that I will settle down only after I achieve my dream of completing the Quran.  Uh'oh..do I sense trouble?!  Uh'oh...Stress...need a puff now...CIAO!

Btw, this is my newfound hobby (hobby!..not hubby! :-/) - which craze was introduced by bro - making an animation out of myself.  At the end of it, I really enjoy seeing how I look like as a cartoon character!  As it is I always hear ppl remark like this abt me "cartoon la u!!!" ... So...

Anyways, for more of my creativity, look out for me (as an animation character) in different moods & poses, in my future updates, henceforth!

Sami Yusuf

Ok..I've heard of him. I've heard 1 of his song.  I've seen Habibi Liah & Aneesha rave about their interests in his songs (that Liah is into him, thanks to sis Anishar)... but I had no clue until NOW that he's this good looking!!!!  Had I known, I'd also have been into him! Hehehe... kidding!  Knowing how he looks came as a pleasant surprise (I honestly thought he was some Bolly star .. I was asking my uncle, when I saw one his portrait, "Is that Akshay Kumar? Or was that Zayed Khan?!" ... when he said "Sami Yusuf" ... I fell from my chair!  Oh well .. enuf enuf .. she's already a craze among so many Muslim girls I know.  So fat hope. 

Home front, trying to overcome my bitterness & forget it (though can nvr forgive!) ... trying to move on in life ... by doing things I nvr thought I should, would or could do!!  Oh, Humpty Granny had a fall on Sunday morning, and everyone acceded to her stubborness of not going to the hospital although she's in pain.  Finally, we were informed today (ya, sadly, everyone knew, except my family who was informed only today!)..and when Mom went to see, her hand was like blueblack till the elbow.  Pretty sure there could be a fracture.  True enuf, drag her to hospital, and her hand is now in a cast!!! *sigh*  Sad.  I hope she recovers soon.  I hope situation @ home subsides too, coz Mom went amok over the fact that she wasn't informed earlier when everyone else knew!!!  I hate it when she makes a mountain out of a molehill over such situations.  As though she's so perfect she doesn't make such mistakes of hiding things from people!!!  Oh well...

Office front ... got a bad news!  My senior manager (who was on maternity & due to come back on 28 Nov) has decided to come back nxt wk!!! There goes my freedom & peace!  Think she probably heard abt how we've been bullied (that now chocolate has been dumped on me all)..so she's coming back to fight!  Ok, looking on the brighter side, gd also she's coming back...coz only she can fight the case!!

Other than that .. well, today I completed Juz 28 of the Quran..which means I'm just 2 days (insyallah) away from achieving my long-time dream of completing the Quran once in my lifetime! 

Ya ya..I'm 29..what a shame, u may say..but it's not by choice ok.  I've been deprived of that education since young (started, but nvr got to complete after stopping it mid-way @ age 8).  While I used to only memorise the Surahs (verses)..as I age, I realise my brain capacity decreases and it gets stressful, I can't possibly memorise 30 Chapters of the Quran!  I bought CD-ROM, but it's not the same w/o a Guru.  Tried to learn from Mom (who has completed the Quran few times), but she was too impatient with my inquisitiveness.  Then I appointed Granny to stay with us & coach me (and Dad wanted to join too)..but after 2 wks, Granny had to move back to aunt's place so there u go...once agn, I'm left alone!  With her, she motivated me, she made me feel that I wasn't stupid.  Thus, I was determined to achieve that dream.  3 years ago, I found a path (which was laid by Allah) and followed it in pursuit of that dream.  Since then I was able to read the Quran comfortably enough to be able to read on my own...and that's how the trend of trying to complete it in the 30 days of Ramadhan started...year after year.

Kaisa Yeh Pyar Hai...

Today I'm gonna rave abt this actor, Iqbal Khan.

He acted in "Fun2ssh" (read: Funtoosh).  But he didn't leave an impression on me as as much as his co-actor, Anuj Sawhney (who also acted in Nayee Padosan).  Iqbal suddenly appeared in Sony Entertainment Television as Angad in Kaisa Yeh Pyar Hai (KYPH).  Ahaa..his name caught my attention.  Nice name, Angad. Nvr heard before!

I've been following this serial, KYPH just for the sake of watching.  Then I stopped watching for some reasons.  Last I watched, Angad was framed for murder and was left to rot in jail.  The next moment I started watching KYPH again, Angad's look-alike has made an appearance, as Zaib (actually, Zaib = Angad...he's back for revenge!).

Now .. Zaib's name caught my attention...but along with the name, he himself has gotten me head over heels over him!!!! Somehow, I love the character and the look of Zaib.  Rugged, Sexy, Seductive.  And I love it whenever he tries to seduce this girl Misty (who's not gd looking & engaged btw!)..there's this background music that goes : ru ru ru ru ru ... ru ru ru ru ru ... very the feeling! Hahaha... And I love it whenever Zaib comes so close to Misty's face in attempt to seduce/kiss her, something or the other will happen and ... he ends up not kissing her!  Best!

Hari Raya Preparation..1ST CLASS!

This was how my Hari Raya preparation went:

1. 2 wks before Hari Raya, on Mon (24 Oct), my 6-mth old AKIRA DVD Recorder decided to go dead.  Waited for a whole week for my leave to start on Mon (31 Oct) to send it for repair.  Finally on Fri (28 Oct), Dad was on leave, so he offered to send it to Sim Lim Square for repair..not w/o helping him settle some matters with HDB.  So it's now with AKIRA Service Centre (Jurong East).  Now I'm back to my AIWA DVD player.  Better than nothing.


2. 5 days before Hari Raya, on Sat (29 Oct) my 7-year old AIWA TV (if u're wondering, yes, I'm an AIWA fan!) decided to end its life.  Interestingly, the night before after I removed my DVD Recorder, I was happily watching TV and today when I switched it on, there is no power!!  It left me w/o saying G'bye!  Unlike the last time...it exploded with an explosion scene. 5 years back in Y2K, I was watching "MISSION KASHMIR" in my room.  Those who have seen it wld recall a scene where Sunjay Dutt was singing a song to pacify his angry wife and as soon as his wife slammed shut the door, his room exploded (there was a time-bomb in his briefcase which he left it in his room)...sending Sunjay flung a floor down!  With the explosion, my TV exploded as well...and went dead.  Anyways, back to the future, I paged Uncle Choo (our TV repairman), but he nvr returned call.  I paged so many times, I've nvr even paged for my boyfriend(s) that many times!  How dare you Uncle Choo ... u nvr returned my call!  Dad is so convinced that I shld not waste my $$ and just get a new TV (a repair wld cost me $50 at least).  In the afternoon, after I spring-cleaned my room, Mom & I went to recce TV @ Tampines (Gain City, Courts & Best).  Cheapest: $280 (flat screen).  At night, Dad drove us to Mustaffa Centre.  We spent almost 1/2hr just hunting for a parking space.  I told him to just go home & forget abt it..but he was determined.  So eventually, we parked quite a distance away from Mustaffa.  Dad wanted to sponsor an AKIRA TV (incidentally, he's an AKIRA fan..ya ya ya..no prize for guessing who gave me the AKIRA DVD Recorder!). It was a btr choice @ Mustaffa, price & variety wise.  Eventually, I got myself a JVC semi-flat screen for $180.  Guess what?!  Dad took pity on me & paid for it nevertheless.  God bless him with loads of wealth.  Ameen! *wink*


3. 4 days before Hari Raya, on Sun (30 Oct), I was happily finishing up the final spring-cleaning of my room.  Later at night, after I prayed and bent down to fold my prayer mat/robe, I saw a small heart-shaped gold.  Eh...looks familiar, where have I seen it?  Looks like one of my old pendant.  Oh shittt!!! It's an ornament from my bracelet!!  Arrrggghhhh!!! Now I need to make a trip to Geylang for soldering.  Oh, btw, Mom went out with Dad today to Mustaffa to search for his belt.  So she offered to send it for soldering for me.  It came back alright, not too pleased with the workmanship...but guess, since it broke at a delicate location, this is the best they can salvage it!

Do I attribute these to Halloween?! Heeheehee... On a serious note, I wonder what else is in store for me...if only I had a crystal ball to see my future.