27 Dec 06: Happy 41st B'day Salman!!

Hehe...gone were the days when I used to celebrate Salman's b'day (until 2001) & wld insist everyone wish my Salman Happy Birthday!!  The same way I'd celebrate "my" (read: Madhuri) b'day every 15th May.

Although I dont celebrate Salman's b'day anymore since 2001, I still remember it.  Cant help it la...since 1991 ok!

Haiz...sian ah...tomoro back to work.  Nvm, 2 more days & after that another long wkend!  Then 2 more wks & it'll be payday!!  Yippeee!  I love it when payday is on a Fri - can shop over the wkend!

Anyways...it's been raining non-stop yest'day so I was like on Home Quarantine Order.  Used the HQO to do my personal stuff.  Things I've not had time to do for a while now.  I even didnt wanna sleep early to enjoy the last day of my vacation leave for 2006 (I'm clearing 2005's leave).  So I put in Dhoom 2's DVD to watch its songs. Think I survived 2 out of 5 songs...was already 3am, so I gave up & decided to sleep since I was already sleepy...*snore*...and then, guess what happened?

Mom woke me up @ 8.30am (I intended to wake up @ 11am)!! Arrrgggghhhh.  As per normal practise on wkdays, she'd wake me up 1 time & leave my door ajar so she can call out for me intermittently.  And her call @ 8.45am woke me up, puzzled "y the hell is she telling me to wake up!??!"

I stormed out of my rm to go toilet...and reminded her "I'm not working tau today, y u wake me up?"  And she apologetically went "Ah? Tak keje?  Sorry sorry, Mama ingat Ina keje...sorry sorry..."  I was like "Lerrr, I oredi say so many times after balik Terengganu, Ina tak keje 2 hari...".  Nvm la, miscomm, Mom's quite blur at times.  While all this was happening, there on Mom's lap was this li'l cartoon flashing his toothless smile & deep dimples to seduce me (to carry him!)...but all he gets is "Gud morninggggg!" 

And then he started begging me (in Mom's voice): "Maasi Maasi...bawak kita gi Mustafa Ctr...kita dah takde baju tangan panjang...asyik ujaaannn je, baju kita tak kering...kita shejuukkk la Maasi...pls Maasiii..."  Ok la ok la...let's go (altho I did argue wif Mom y muz we go Mustafa to buy his clothes when we can juz get it nearby in Tampines!).  But I relented, thinking I shall do a gd deed today, kya pata kal ho na ho...Hehe...So I had b/fast (fried macaroni) & bathed & we left arnd 10.30am.  Did our quick shopping @ Mustafa & headed to Geylang after that (Sis wanted to buy tudung).  After buying Nasi Ayam Sambal for lunch from the new Pasar Geylang, we headed for hm as Amsyar was already hungry & cranky.  Luckily the weather was gd, albeit some drizzle at some pt of time.

Technically, I nvr got to do anything the whole day today...not even the errands I had intended to do @ Bedok...coz after reaching hm @ 2.45pm & after eating my lunch after battling wif a wailing Amsyar, I slept on the couch fm 3.30pm (while watching ZeeTV) till 7.30pm...waking up on & off to babysit cranky & nagging Amsyar coz Mom was having migraine.  I wanted to oso spend some mins wif him as he'll be going back to his hse tonite.  Oh, I've given him yet another new name - Mohd Monsoon!!  Haha...he doesnt stop drooling & makes a puddle out of our clothes (his also!)!!  It's monsoon season u see...it hasnt stopped raining!!

The countdown begins...5,4,3,2,1

I'm enjoying my last day of leave b4 working life starts agn.

I'm gonna be putting on those fats/weight agn soon...I binge a lot when I'm at home (mayb out of boredom or restlessness)!

I'm cursing myself...I've this irritating habit of not remembering to take medication when I'm NOT sick!!  I've been on cholestrol-reduction tablets, shld have finished it in 1 mth.  But it's almost 3 mths & I'm still far from finishing it!  I'm gd the 1st couple of wks, after that, once I stop for a day for some (valid) reason, I lose the momentum & will 4get most of the time!

I'm having fun wif Amsyar @ my hse these 2 days while I'm on leave (pure coincidence!).  He's v. brilliant (takes after his Maasi!)...acts cute & is a charmer!!  But I was really missing those days when he was just born.  U know, those helpless days...when all he does is Sleep, Sleep & Sleep!  Missed those days so much, I ended up creating a new album for his photos which I nvr found time to upload!

I'm wondering WHO THE HELL is thinking abt me/missing me tonight...I've been having hiccups every 1/2 hr since the last 3 hrs!!  Which means this is my 6th hiccup!!  It's so blardy irritating!  To stop it, I've to drink 2 cups of water at least...and as a result, I keep going toilet!!

I'm BACK...damn!!

22nd Dec came & went, before I knew it 25th Dec came & it's time to head back to S'pore!!!  *sigh* Wished my vacation was longer!!

Oh well, nevertheless, syukur Alhamdulillah, we - Mom, my cousin Umairah & I) - went & came back safely.  Albeit encountering floods in Kuantan on our 1st night.  It was exciting coz I've nvr really seen a real flood my whole life, where ppl & cars are stuck by the road & only big vehicles (like buses) was allowed to pass through!! That too, when I look far ahead from the front windscreen of the bus, it looked like our bus was crossing the river!!  I feel like Krrish walking on the waters!!!  Hehehe...

Oh ya, if I didn't get to take the Cable Car @ Langkawi last yr...this yr, I didn't get to see turtles coz it wasn't the egg-laying season!! :-(

All that aside, there were no other irritatedness (esp in the bus) throughout the 4 days, despite having at least 3 kids aged between 1-5yrs in the bus!  Really, no crankiness, no wailings, not even from the baby!!  Surprisingly.  I had my period 5 days prior departure, so the migraine-for-no-ram-reason phase (those who know me well enuf will know what I'm talking abt here!) was way over.  I did get h/ache whenever I get stressed up, eg. by conning shop vendors or poor service, but I was quick enough to pop a panadol xtra & get some sleep in the bus.  Plus, we're usually back to the resort by 5pm (to give the kids time to play at the pool) so the free 'n' easy agenda was a plus point & wasn't too tiring.  I even managed to get a massage @ the Spa!

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 - Day 1 (rather, Nite 1); Departed @ 8.30pm

The butt joke of the trip was: We didn't tell or asked my Mak Besar along, coz Nizam shifted to own flat after marriage, Makni's maid has gone off back to Indonesia, so there's no one to take care of Granny, obviously she can't go.  Errmm, there are other (valid) reasons also why we didn't ask her along (usually we go vacation together, until the last couple of yrs).  Guess what?!  While waiting for our bus to depart after Immigration @ S'pore, we saw Mak Besar & hubby in the next bus!!  We bumped into each other @ JB Immigration, and found out from that we were going to the same destination, staying @ the same resort albeit different travel agent (but usually, the itinerary are the same).  Kwang kwang kwang...

Haha...anyways, at JB checkpoint, our bus cldn't depart coz the 2nd bus is still stuck @ Choa Chu Kang meeting point coz 2 pax didn't arrive.  After some time, we learnt that the 2 missing pax were actually in our bus!!!  They shld've taken the 2nd bus instead.  *sigh*  So now, we had to wait for the 2nd bus to reach JB to transfer those 2 & then both buses can depart together.  That was abt all the irritating hiccups we encountered, which wasted our time!  But it was gd, at least we reached Kuantan @ 5-ish instead of 4am!!  They played Mujhse Dosti Karoge to kill 6hrs in the bus...but I didn't watch...I decided to catch some sleep.

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 - Day 2; Reached Kuantan @ 5.45am

Reached Kuantan & stopped by a surau for Fajr prayers.  After that, we had b/fast (I had pratha).  After that, the M'sian Guide brought us to Telok Chempedak beach since it stopped raining.  Just in case we don't get to enjoy the beach if the rain doesn't stop the whole wkend.   After that, we headed to Terengganu (3hrs), had lunch along the way & then checked-in at Awana Kijal arnd 3pm.  After that it was free 'n' easy.  We finally got our keys & got into our Room 533 arnd 3-ish.  We checked the rm, called the maintenance to fix the faulty toilet door etc & settled dwn almost 5pm, afterwhich I rang the Spa & asked if there's a freak chance I cld visit them for a massage & they said YES!  So I went dwn & got myself a 1hr well-deserved massage, which was really worth my RM120 (S$50).  Luckily I opted for "medium" Javanese massage, in case "soft" massage wldn't be worth the money & "hard" massage wld kill!!  In the 1st place, I can't believe I was able to go to the spa impromptu...usually such places require prior reservation, right?!  To top that, I was the only 1 in the room (for 2), so it was indeed peaceful & relaxing for me!

After massage, since Umairah & my mom (who took a nap when I went to the spa) were already up, after they did their solat maghrib, we walked to a nearby shop for dinner.  Back to room by 9pm & we all settled dwn.  Mom & Umairah slept early, I was the only insomniac & TV addict...plus they had cable channels which I don't have back at home, so I wanted to make full use of it!! Hehe.

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 - Day 3; Terengganu tour

Day started early, earlier for Mom & Umairah who had to pray, but 7am for me!!  That's early ok!  I only opened my eyes when Mom told me it's SIMON BIRCH showing on TV.  I love that movie!  After that I woke up & got ready & we left for b/fast arnd 7.45am.  Bus leaving @ 8.30am.  Our 1st stop was the Noor Arfa Batik factory.  After that went to the Pasar Besar Payang (which reminded me of Tekka market!) & that's when the tiring time of the trip was.  Coz it's crazy shopping time for Mom & we had to also have our lunch in that span of 2hrs given...so it was a mad rush esp after wasting almost 1/2hr trying to find a money-changer or Maybank ATM but to no avail.  So by lunch, I was getting a slight h/ache so I popped a panadol in bus while on the way to our 3rd stop, ie. the Masjid Terapong (floating mosque).  After that, back to resort arnd 4-ish & the time is all ours agn.  I wanted to go cycling since we can nvr find time to go to the beach to cycle in S'pore.  Luckily Umairah cycles, so I've a partner.  Waited for the sun to go dwn while I sleep off my h/ache.  Arnd 6-ish we left...took a slow walk to the beach & reached the bicycle station @ 6.30pm.  Guess what I saw on the signboard "opens 9am-6.30pm".  Damnit!!  So disappointing!!  There goes our cycling plan.  But since there's no souls on the beach, Umairah & I just strolled while Mom sat dwn & listen to her mp3.  By 7pm we made our way back to our room & settled dwn.  Umairah ordered ice-cream while Mom & I just had kuaci & Tiger biscuits with tea/coffee for dinner.  After that...they did some reading while I watched TV...then they slept while I still watched my TV!  What can u expect from a couch potato huh!?  Nothing much really!  I slept arnd 11-ish. 

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 - Day 4; Time to go home!

Another early morning for me.  This time even earlier coz Mom was really forcing me to wake up when it was just 6.30am.  It's check-out day, so she wanted me to have more time for packing up.  But I had already done my packing up the night b4, so I just needed to iron my clothes & keep my toiletries after I'm done.  But oh well, since she was making a lot of noise, I might as well just get off the bed.  Bathed, ironed, got ready & left the room by 7.20am.  Bye bye room!  Met Mak Besar agn @ b/fast table.  After b/fast, Mom sat wif Mak Besar while Umairah accompanied me to the back of the resort (the pool/golf/beach area) to fulfill my final photography craze!!  We had fun posing for photos & video-ing the resort. 

After that it's time to go home.  Interestingly, it was a straight journey (no more shopping), except for breaks for solat/lunch.  The only stop we took was at Gelang Patah which was abt 5pm, which means we'd be in S'pore b4 7pm (expected 2b in S'pore arnd 10-11pm & home by midnight as per our normal trips).  So we bought Roti John/Murtabak @ Gelang Patah for dinner @ home.  Reached S'pore safely @ 6.30pm, msg-ed Dad & Sis.  Dad offered to fetch us, Sis told me to tell Mom she & Amsyar will come on Tues morning.  I know Mom was quite disappointed at the idea of not seeing Amsyar (she's been missing him)...but I've been telling her since Sun night when she called Sis & asked her to come over wif Amsyar on Mon night when we're back home, that it's no pt having Amsyar home just to fulfill her desire, but she wont have time to sit & play wif him; it's not fair for him, he doesn't wanna see our faces only, he wanna be carried & played wif!!  So it's best we have time to do our unpacking/washing/settling dwn & then give all our time to Amsyar on Tues, which she agreed. 

Dad fetched us @ Bedok drop-off point @ 7.30pm & we were home-sweet-home b4 8pm.  I opened the door & got a shock seeing Sis folding clothes wif Amsyar sleeping on the floor!!  Blardy hell...she lied to me!  But it was a pleasant X'mas surprise from Santa!! Hehe.

And guess what?  Dad painted his room green!!  What the hell was wrong wif him, in our absence?!!?  I mean, he hasn't painted for more than a decade now (I only remember him painting when I was a li'l kid, that too in the previous hse, this hse, NVR!)!!  It has always been Mom doing the painting in the hse.  Mom went in to shower but still didn't realise, till I asked Dad "what happened to your room?!"

All's well that ends well...I'm now enjoying my leave, today & tomorrow.  After that, Thurs, 28 Dec, it's back to office...and the mundane routine of life.  Till my nxt vacation 365 days from today, Insyallah!

I'm GONE...yeehar!!

Off to Terengganu for a quick getaway! 

<- PICTURE ME HERE

No idea what the shit am I doing here wif only 70% of packing done & leaving home in 2hrs!  I btr get going...Insyallah back here on Tues 26 Dec 2006.

A weekend off from Amsyar...

...means I cld wake up late on Sat & Sun (it's been 3 mths since I've been deprived of that!)

...means I cld get a lot of things done (coz I don't have to babysit him!).

...means I can watch TV real loud @ the living rm & not worry that our Chote Badmaash will be awakened (otherwise, it'll be a tough time to put him back to sleep...he'll wanna play!)!

Yea...this is the 1st wkend since Sep that there's no usual cries or laughter of a baby. I came home from survey (work) on Fri nite finding him gone.  I woke up @ 11.15am on Sat coz it was really peaceful.  Amsyar's not arnd!! Yeehar!  I'm sure Mom misses his presence a lot...but for me, I accomplished sooo much over this wkend.

SATURDAY

I cleaned my fan. 

I clipped my nails (believe me, I don't get time to do even this simplest thing wif him arnd, I clip my nails in the office during my lunch hr!)

I did my waxing & gave myself a good scrub (usually, when I'm on this monthly routine, I spend at least 1.5hrs in the bath!)!

SUNDAY

I did my 2 weeks' worth of ironing & finished it in 2hrs while watching Nach Baliye 2 on Star Plus (Ch 41)!!

Now, isn't it amazing how a li'l baby can change one's life so much there's just no time for anything?!?  Thank God he's not MY baby...so anytime I wish, I can just say bye-bye to him, forsake him & go do my things!!

Ok, what the hell am I doing here blogging when I'm supposed to be getting ready to go for my Sunday's usual beauty appt?  Yea...will do that in just a while...at this moment, having done everything I needed (except go give my annual donation to Darul Ma'wa & Darul Takrim), I'm excitedly counting down to Fri 22 Dec for my well-deserved vacation to Terengganu!  At 30, this will be the 1st time I'll be out of S'pore on Christmas.  Let's see how Christmas mood/deco is in M'sia plak ok.

I'm on a 3-day course @ IPAM tomorrow till Wed, so that's really WOW...no need to see arseholes' faces!  Back on Thurs & Fri morning but no sweat, coz I'll be v. occupied rushing a lot of stuff so I can take my well-deserved break peacefully & come back to office on Thurs 28 Dec... rejuvenated!  Sadly...the arseholes will still be there...but life goes on, na?  At the most, I'll show them this attitude:

Don't play play ah...I got gangster tengek @ home! He'll be back home tonite when I come home from my appt. Likely to be sulking wif everyone coz we nvr appear in front of him like we always do whenever he opens his eyes!  Awww...

Now, I HAVE TO watch Bipasha in CORPORATE!

I read the rave reviews abt her performance in CORPORATE...but I didn't know it was THAT good that she cld beat the likes of Kajol (Fanaa), Rani (KANK), Kareena (Omkara) & Alice Patten (Rang De Basanti) & walked away with the BEST ACTRESS award at the Global Indian Film Awards (GIFA) in KL last wk!

I didn't really like her in Ajnabee & Raaz when she 1st came into the industry as I felt like she was a slut & she used that to her benefit to gain entry into the industry.  But after "knowing" her btr & few movies later, I grew to like her since Mere Yaar Ki Shaadi Hai.  Since then, she's 1 of my fave actresses whom I hope to see at the TOP soon.

Sony's showing the GIFA telecast tomorrow night @ 10.30pm, so I'll be glued to the TV.  Of course, to motivate myself, I had to find out if the winners are those I like or the usual biased ones (like SRK, Rani, Amitabh, bla bla bla).  I'm glad KANK didn't win any popular awards at all, except Abhishek for Best Supporting Actor...didn't I say that the only thing/one who was gd in KANK was Abhishek & SRK's son!!  So yea, I was worried that Abhishek might lose the award to his Dad who's nominated in the same category for the same movie...but the BEST man eventually won!  Yeayy!

Saif won Best Villain for OMKARA (an 'adaptation' of Shakespeare's OTHELLO)...I've not seen OMKARA...but since I like Saif & I know he's gd in whatever he does (whether it's romantic hero or comedy), I'll still give him a clap although I had wanted Jon Abraham to win for Zinda.  Ok, Jon didn't win, but at least his gf Bipasha emerged victorious so he still can celebrate.  Hehe.

Didn't think Hrithik was that fantastic in Krrish (unlike Koi Mil Gaya), but I always believed that Hrithik will always excel whenever he's with his DAD.  There's some unexplained theory...I think it's in their horoscope perhaps...hehe.  So yeah...Hrithik had to win...I was banking on Aamir (Rang De Basanti)...but as long as SRK didn't win for KANK, I'm HAPPY!!! 

The rest of the categories...I don't give a damn! Hehe.

TomKat=Suri

This is probably long overdue.  I can't help it anymore.  Not that I wanna be a kaypoh...don't really give a shit abt celebrity couple/child...but I can't help still wonder whenever I see Baby Suri...how come a combination of gorgeous Tom Cruise & Katie Holmes can produce a chinese/japanese looking Baby Suri eh?!?! What went wrong (My naughty brain is saying Katie had an affair with Jackie Chan or Jet Li!)?

Li'l Rascal is back!

Did I tell u I fondly call Amsyar "Bobo" whenever I'm in a bozo (clown) mood?  Anyway, ya, Bobo MMS-ed me this morning asking "Maasi dah mandi?  He added he dah "pengsan" coz gotta drink milk.  I dunno y this li'l rascal is not drinking milk anymore!!  Mention milk & he'll close his eyes, pretending to sleep.  Badmaash!

My childhood fantasy got shattered @ age 30!!  Was sitting in the train otw 2 survey juz now & an Air Force's ad banner caught my attn; "there's no such thing as UFO"!! *sob sob*  Means I'll nvr ever encounter E.T. or Jaadoo (Koi Mil Gaya).

Talking of MRT, I realise I miss a lot by not taking public transport.  I saw a Hindustani expat in the train (I've seen him & drooled b4 also, last mth!).  The last time I saw him, we both were standing.  Yesterday, he caught my attn agn, this time we both were sitting.  I was sitting across him, diagonally.  He was bz reading a book while I checked him out behind my blue shades.  He cld easily pass off as a character actor in Zee TV's serial...hehe.  Just as I got up to alight at my station, his mobile rang & he took the call.  I managed to take a last glance at him & holy shit...he has a stump for his right little finger!!  Must have been a mishap!  At that moment, Hrithik came to mind.  So called drop dead gorgeous, yet imperfect (his right thumb).  At that moment agn, I thank God for making me not so drop dead gorgeous, but at least I'm complete...a few screws loose, but that's ok, nobody knows.  Hehe.

Today, I saw a chinese guy...his hand & face is even worse than mine (must be severe dermatitis)...almost his whole arm is dry & peeling like orange, even almost his whole face is like that.  He was hugging a malay girl.  Wow.  Not bad.  I'm moved that despite his imperfection, the girl cld look byond his physicalities & yet accept him.  How noble.  Coz I'm not.

Oh well, it's been an eye-opening journey on the MRT these couple of days!

A night off from Amsyar

Yeehar!! No Amsyar tonight!

Sis' Pasir Ris house is almost cleaned up so she's brought him back there to overnight.  Trial.  Coz 22nd-25th Mom & I going Terengganu, so she'll have to take care of Amsyar herself...she btr get him used 2 the Pasir Ris hse, or else...she's gonna have a hard time wif that brat of hers!!

I know Mom will miss him, afterall, he's been the apple of everyone's eyes.  Mom has been sleeping wif him for 3 mths.  It's only recently after I keep nagging @ her 2 let Sis handle him @ nite that she started 2 let Sis sleep wif him!  Today while I was @ Harvey Norman @ Millenia, I came across this digital-printing booth that I cldnt resist but make these calendars! 1 for myself + 2 free ones for Mom & Sis (for $8)!  So Mom wont miss Amsyar too much!

Can you imagine how it is like @ home now?  After 3 mths, I finally can go have supper while watching TV in the living room wif lights on w/o anyone telling me to lower the vol. of the TV!!!  Yes, I'm v. hungry right now...gonna do juz that!!

Meanwhile...no one's worried anymore abt how Amsyar is coping wif his Mom @ his own hse...coz Sleeping Beauty MMS-ed a "gd nite" msg for all of us @ 10pm...wif this picture of him sleeping soundly!  Pandai Mama tido kan Amsyar...Hehehe...

WARNING: Potentially Controversial Topic

What's with Muslim men today eh?

Why do most think Islam=Nabi Muhammad S.A.W?

So 2b on the right track, they must do EVERYTHING that Rasulullah did?! Even if that meant doing or following it blindly!!

Why do most think that their deen (religion) will only be complete if they've filled their quota of 4 wives (like Rasulullah)?  Harlow..Rasulullah didn't marry 4 for the fun of it ok!!  If it was out of lust, he wld have married virgins or unmarried gorgeous women! 

In general, polygamy is permitted in Islam only so that women/children who may be subjected to abuse or destitution can be protected.  That too if those men who wants to marry the women can afford to be fair to each families, financially or otherwise.  Correct me if I'm wrong, but at least that's what I've learnt since my teenaged years.  If nothing of that sort, then if for the sake of marrying another woman, the most basic criteria set

a) is CHRONICALLY ill;

b) cannot have children.

Fair enough.

So?  I fail to see the logic/reason behind all those royal figures in M'sia (for instance) marrying gorgeous celebrities!  Those celebrities are rich enough to fend for themselves...and they also dont have orphaned children that needs protection!!

Oookaaay...I'm going overboard eh?  The only reason for this post is bcoz 3 yrs ago, I learnt that a close family friend - Suraiya - whom I've not met but knows of her existence from my parents, is being ill-treated by her hubby since she got married (her hubby & MIL even disallowed her from meeting or being in contact wif her parents!).  To make things worse, the discovery was a shock bcoz Suraiya is actually the SIL of this chap I was seeing, but jodoh tak panjang (as usual the guy kept going MIA & I'm too mature for such childish games!).  Of coz, when I discovered that truth abt the household (that Suraiya's MIL is not a gd person, her hubby is a wife-beater), I sujud syukur & thanked Allah for saving me.  Then, just now, after ngaji, Maslin's mom opened topic with Ustazah abt a polygamy marriage she "rewang" at over the wkend. Somehow, as her story went on, I begin to suspect something & after some probing, I discovered that the groom was actually Suraiya's hubby!  Son of a bitch!!  I am really shattered.  How dare he!  Suraiya must be under some spell to actually consent the marriage!  She loves the husband too much to report him!  *sigh*

With this discovery, suddenly I find each one of my pasts haunting me.  Yesterday (Mon), I was chatting with Tehzeeb & a topic abt Suraiya & hubby came abt which led to another emotionally-abused-wife story which led to the discovery that person is actually my best fren in Pri Sch - Nadia - whom I've lost touch wif since we entered Sec Sch.  To confirm if it's the same Nadia, I scanned her photo from my Pri Sch autograph bk & showed Tehzeeb.  After that, I felt so nostalgic abt reading the autograph bk that I opened my Sec Sch's autograph bk...only to stumble upon the photo of my 1st ever guy fren of 7 yrs.  I shall not get into the details of my beautiful friendship with him as it'll only make me remorseful of how stupid & arrogant of me to reject Allah's gift for me 10 yrs ago!  Maybe Allah has not forgiven me yet for that mistake I made.  Just maybe.  But it was nice recollecting all the gd memories with him.  Oh, btw, I discovered that he is related to Tehzeeb! 

Hmmm...now...this world is getting scarily too small for me & Tehzeeb.  It's like everything that happened in our lives are interwined with each other!  As though we were meant to save each other from destruction!!  If only we knew each other much earlier...that'll be fun...Perhaps today we'd go "cuci mata" together.  Hehe.

Finally...the most hyped about wedding is OVER!!

Green & white was the theme of my cousin Nizam's wedding this wkend, so I'm addicted to green for now (that explains the font colour!). 

Nizam & I, both born 1976...both have been the pillar of strength to our own Moms by getting things done...both shares the same personality/character...both have been evading marriage for like forever, pushing the buck at each other "U 1st...No no u 1st..."  Alas, his "jodoh" came 1st...so it's time he settles dwn. 

It feels like yesterday that his Mom told us Nizam's wedding will be in Dec...b4 I know it 9 Dec is already here.  I didn't even take leave on 8 Dec till last minute I had to beg my boss for leave...didn't get 1 day leave, so I settled for just 1/2 day!  If I didn't my aunt will probably kill me!! I mean, usually weddings r on Sun, so I have a Sat to "rewang"...but 1st time in our family history, the wedding is juz on Sat...which means rewang day is on Fri!!! Imagine, I leave office @ 7.30pm, reach home settle dwn & leave after Isya 4 my granny's place!!  With the 1/2 day at least I've time to come home, settle dwn & head to granny's place after Asar (not too bad...at least I rewang till 11+pm!  Nothing to do already, so decided to put the energy into btr things, like SLEEP!  Had to wake up early on Sat morning coz gotta go granny's place.  The marhaban's @ 10am & the groom's leaving @ 11am 4 the bride's venue for the nikah!

It's been a while since a close cousin (by close I mean those we grow up together with)got married.  So it was fun to 2c every1 get together 2 make it happen.  When I was younger, I had to do "kendarat" duties...we loved it coz we get money!!  U know that flower with a $5 or $10 note for us to pin on our outfit so we can easily be identified as the helpers!!  Now I've retired, coz the adults don't get the flower anymore, they give to the youngsters to motivate them to work!!!  Just when I thot I wanna "cuci mata"...my aunt assigned me 2b Chief Kendarat!  What?!? Supervisor?! Dowan...no incentive!  So she promised me a big "flower", which she has yet to give btw!! 

By 3pm, it got bz & I find that the teenage kendarats were slacking & mingling & having fun with each other & not doing their job properly that I had to step in & did kendarat duties (wash ppl's hands, serve drinks etc!).  Bingit seh!!!  That went on till 8-ish b4 we finally call it a day & excused ourselves.  By then I was very irritable already coz I was too shagged!  So Mom felt we btr go home since even she's tired & Amsyar's gotten cranky as it's his sleep time already.

The gd thing abt the wedding was mtg my former Sec sch mate Norazlina who's married to 1 of Nizam's college buddies.   We really caught up with each other.  Aherm...the 1st thing she said to me when she finally got my attn & I sat dwn with her was "U look soooo pretty"...to which I told her "Really? Yea, in sch I wasn't this pretty rite..."  (hehe, that was just me & my sense of humour!).  She remembered I was so into Madhuri & Salman back in sch.  Madhuri's still v. much me..but Abhishek has taken Salman's place in my life!

The not-so-gd part of the wedding (apart from the few screw-ups which is inevitable in a function no matter how gd the planning is) was the disappointment of seeing how my teenage cousins have all turned into punksters - rebonding & colouring their hair, shaping their eyebrows, piercing their nose.  Yea yea...I know it's fashion, but I don't condone such things while still in sch.  Period.  Anyways, it's over...at least I know I don't have to see their faces anymore...not until the nxt wedding...which is unlikely to happen till the next 2yrs I hope!!

Sooo...I was rite..."Nizam 1st"!  But that also meant trouble 4 me...coz now I've nowhere to run from the pressure of marriage.  As soon as Nizam's wedding was over, I got this from my fave aunt (Mak Ani) & my granny "Now I look forward to your wedding next!"  Arrrggghhh!  Expected, but still...have always hated that qn altho I always get away with my innovative answers all the time!!

That was my Saturday...thot of resting today, but didn't get much rest either today...awakened by the lil cartoon in my hse...making noise @ 10.30am!  I got up, freshen up, had brunch, played with him till he got cranky, cradled him 2 sleep...then did some stuff on my PC while watching TV.  After zuhur (abt 2pm) I got ready & went out with Mom, Sis & Amsyar, to visit my best fren Wirza who gave birth 3 wks ago.  Spent some time (1hr @ her hse)playing with my god-daughter Shamim...cradled the newborn Muhd Syidaad 4 a while...then rushed off 4 my Sunday's beauty routine!  Thank God Sis took over driving, since her car's parked @ my place, so she dropped me off.

Gonna be a loonnggg week...but looking forward to bonus on Tues & then nxt wkend (22 Dec) 4 my well-deserved vacation 2 Terengganu!!  Yeehar!!

Picnic by the Blue X'mas Tree with Nikky

Nikky had booked my Chocolate Chip cookies since b4 hari raya ended, but we juz nvr found time to meet. Finally, now that the X'mas tree deco is up already, we planned our meet up in the airport (it's becoming an annual thing for her to come to airport every Dec just to take pics of the X'mas Tree!!).  Now...

...Kamlee (mad) + MADhuri = MADHOUSE! Nikky + AIRPORT = PHOTOSHOOT! When else can I practise my photography with my new Casio Exilim camera!!?? 

These were what we were up to...

We met @ 7pm...and made our way home @ 10pm.  Something interesting happened.  I've nvr been so flattered b4.  From the time I exit the PIE @ Tampines, I spotted this gorgeous chap staring @ me...and the chap just kept staring...and followed me...I was feeling very uncomfortable.  "Nikky, he's following me!...Omigawd, am I being stalked!?...Oh gosh, I'm getting shy oredi..." 

What's flattering is that no soul has ever pursued me this persistently b4...right from the time I exited the PIE...all the way till I reached my block!!  I must admit it's a bonus that I've always love this chap too...      Mr Full Moon!

Saturday afternoon @ Mustafa Centre

Today was possibly 1 of my best Saturday outing wif family.  Mom wanna buy a non-alcoholic juice to put in the hamper she's making for my cousin's wedding this 9 Dec...so she had asked me yesterday to bring her to Mustafa today if I've no other plans.

Woke up @ 9.30am wif a slight h/ache due to a loud drilling at my block (so I blasted the hindi songs on Oli 96.8FM).  Once the drilling stopped, I went out of my room...washed up, had my b/fast, babysit Amsyar, changed my bedsheet, did some stuff on my PC & then after zuhur, got ready for Mustafa.

Initially since Mom's only buying a bottle of juice, we decided to take the NEL train, but since Sis wanna come along (she ah, pantang ppl going out!!  Now u know where Amsyar got that trait from!?)  So since, Sis is gd wif direction, we decided to drive, but at Your Highness' terms of coz...which means...NO PRAM allowed.  Yea, I hate prams...I find it a hassle!  Mayb coz all my life I nvr see Mom having to use it, so pram & I juz don't gel wif each other! I'm quite traditional, prefer to juz carry babies or use a carrier...that's how I've been whenever I go out wif  my baby cousins wen they were younger!

Oookkaayyy...the outing to Mustafa was fun, albeit it took us 15 mins to get a carpark coz both buildings' carparks were FULL...but the moment I got to enter the carpark, I immediately got a lot near the lift lobby...so it wasn't too tiring. 

Oh well, this was possibly the 1st time Amsyar remained awake outside...so he finally got exposed to a retail environment.  He behaved well & Mom had fun entertaining him & making a cartoon out of him (I've nvr seen a grandma like her)!  He only got cranky much later wen he got uncomfy & sleepy.  But it wasn't too difficult to shut him up! 

I lost $55 @ Mustafa, $22 on gifts & $33 on Shahrukh's & Amitabh's perfumes (Yea...perfume is 1 of my many weaknesses!).

I fell in lurve wif the tin packaging of the SRK's perfume - the hologamic image of SRK & tiger.  Amitabh's perfume bottle was also interesting, the label of his picture is not on the outside, but inside the bottle!!

Awrite, so the outing to Mustafa was real fun (check this out to know why)...but the only drawback for the day was that I came home wif migraine!  So took panadol extra & slept it off, so now it's gone. 

Yesterday I watched Vivah (starring Shahid Kapur & Amrita Rao...latest movie by the maker of Hum Aapke Hain Koun) online till 3am ...Tehzeeb has spoilt me by introducing this to me!  Thot of watching Naksha (stars Sunny Deol, Vivek Oberoi & Sameera Reddy...believe it's an adaptation of Nicholas Cage's NATIONAL TREASURE...*sigh*) now, but guess what?  I think I'll save it for tomoro coz it's 1.30am!!  Gonna hit the sack instead...Chao!

Amsyar is 3 mths old!!

Yeehar!! Lil rascal is 3 mths old!  Growing up fine.

What's he been up to?

• Gets excited @ the sight of ladies with tudung (means going out!!);


• Sleeps the moment we step out of the hse...but wide awake the moment we reach home (and then starts wailing @ being deprived of going jln-jln!);


• Yaks non-stop (in his baby language);


• Recognizes the camera & starts to pose (by flashing his toothless smile & dashing dimples!);


• Has 2b forced to eat/drink his own food/milk but will start drooling or make pathetic faces when we're eating/drinking...wif the hope of getting our food/drink;


• Lurves seeing us (the femme in the hse) dancing;


• Lurves playing "superman"...we'll stand him on our tummy & then lift him horizontally in the air making him fly;


• Lurves to play wif his saliva & making bubble out of his saliva (now imagine him playing "superman" & u'll have saliva raining on u!);


• Responds to hindi music (I'm being blamed for it...sigh);


• Argues back (in his baby language) whenever Mom scolds him;


• Laughs whenever Mom smacks him (gesturing she's angry) & wants more thinking she's playing wif him; and


• Last but not least...guess what?! The wailing hasn't stopped...he still wails for no reason, usually after maghrib/isya' till the time he falls asleep! :-/

Sounds like a 6-12 mth old child?  I swear he's 3 mths old!  See this!  I think he takes after his Maasi's intelligence. *winks*

Bewafa Sanam

Tune mujhse wafa nahin ki...tujhko kaise wafa milegi!  Tune mujhko dard diya hai...tujhko kaise dava milegi!

It wasn't an ez thing to do...but today I did something which perhaps no other girl wld do.  I (finally) mailed his gift back to him with a note telling him "GAME OVER & that I knew of the unfaithful act all along"!  I procrastinated for days & finally found time & strength to put my plan into action, since the time I decided to call it quits 12 days ago.  9 yrs ago, I did the same thing - mailed someone's gift back - and when we got back in contact (on gd terms) couple of yrs later, he told me what I did was cruel (Cruel meh!?).  So why this nasty plan?  Not that I care to know how he'll feel discovering that the one he thot he's been happily lying to & going scot-free knew he was lying & unfaithful all along!!  I cld've juz discarded the gift immediately when I decided to end it 2 wks ago...juz like I immediately deleted everything related 2 him...but no, I needed him to know that I'm not miserable, but am glad Allah saved me b4 it was too late (once agn)!

This (last thing that I needed to do) wldn't hav been possible if "Sunshine" didn't stand by me & accompany me to the post office to get it done.  She even offered to keep the registered-mail tracking slip (since I refuse to even look at it) to check for me if the package has been received!!  Once confirmed received, we're gonna celebrate over lunch!

Whatever happened, I learnt how impt it is to have a strong faith in religion & God...to remember that Allah will nvr test us beyond our ability to handle the test...to acknowledge that there's always a reason, known as a blessing in disguise, behind everything that happens in one's life. 

I realised how lucky & blessed I am to have supportive parents helping me travel thru' this rough patch...making it ezier for me to erase this chapter from my life...pretending it nvr happened & that it was but a nightmare.

I remain eternally grateful to my closest buddies who've been there for me (not in person, but spiritually in thoughts/prayers I'm sure).  I'm sorry I didn't give u the opportunity 2b there for me in times of my sorrow as I didn't wanna transmit any negative energy to other ppl's lives (as though they didn't have enuf problems of their own!).  Still, I can't thank u enuf...even for those things u'd have wanted to say to me but nvr did, coz I nvr gave u the opportunity to.  Thank u (u know who u r).

Perhaps , I'd nvr be able to trust another man agn after this...perhaps, even if I'm destined to get married eventually, I'm sure I'll always doubt & suspect my man, which I know is unhealthy for the relationship.  But I can't help it if in my eyes I see today's men as syaitan bertopeng manusia.

Mayb I shld just sit back & wait for a situation like in the movie Vivah, where someone like Shahid Kapur (don't mind ya Kareena!) comes along.  Until then, I conclude I lurve my singlehood (Errrmmm...I may change my mind if Abhishek comes back to his senses & propose)...no emotional baggage...no over-the-limit phone bills!

4 mths later...I lost 70% of my hair!!!

4 mths ago...I had this much hair after my haircut...

4 mths later...I lost 70% of that hair!  It's cropped!

So short...it'll probably last me for the nxt 6 mths w/o a haircut!! 

Well, whenever I go to a chinese hairdresser, this always happens when I say "layered".  They cut it real short & thin it like horse tail!!  It's free...so I can't complain.