When I post this kinda entries...

...it only means I'm goddamn B-O-R-E-D!  I'm in no mood to blog...but my fingers refuse to stop functioning...so I've to find things to do. 
Since my hp is just in front of my eyes, I decided to snap pics of my PC (Look who's stuck inside my PC!)...my desk...my mess (Looks gd on pic, altho it's an eyesore for a perfectionist like me!)... 

MESS...hmmm, that reminds me of a topic in itself! 

2 yrs ago, I got realy sick (to the core) of being neat & tidy...seeing ppl live happily in messiness & untidiness, I was craving for such a life so that I'd be normal.  So I decided to put myself into rehab.  To live as messy & untidy as possible...for as long as I can bear it. 

T-O-U-G-H

1st task:  Leave non-letters in the mailbox...JUST THERE!  Let it accumulate.  Initially, I used to stack it nicely, like on a desk, then I decided, that's against the rule.  So I mess it up agn!  I beared wif it for so long & started to get used to & enjoying the sight...when Mom cleared it accidentally once.  That night, I came home, stare at her with a sulk on my face...she laughed "Sorry, Mama lupa!"  She even knew what that face was all abt!  She's guilty.  Hehe.

2nd task: Decided not to arrange the stuff on my desk.  I started throwing things there...instead of where it belongs.  Usually there's a pattern. Once I'm home, I'll unpack my bag (take out my purse, keys, hp) & stuff the bag inside the wardrobe (top compartment is for bags)...and keep the purse, keys & hp on my bed's side table neatly arranged.Rehab program: STOP ALL THAT! Now, I juz leave it on the desk coz, WTH, I'm gonna use it tomoro!  Still not q. recovered from my obsessive-compulsive-clean/neat/tidy-freak-syndrome...coz, come Fri, I'll auto keep the bag in the wardrobe coz I wont need it till Mon!  Need improvement.  My desk did bcome an eyesore the 1st few mths...totally unbearable, so I kept arranging the things on my desk every wkend.  Now I'm fine wif it.

3rd task: To leave the clothes in my wardrobe in a ransacked condition.  FAILED like hell.  Still as organised as ever.  I remember when I was younger & sharing rm wif Sis, my youngest & fave. aunt, Makni, came over during Eid...and tompang solat in the rm...I happen to open the cupboard to take telekong for her..., she saw the contents & remarked "Yg teratur ni mesti Ina punya!" [this neat compartment sure 2b yours!].  Gd guess!  Now u know y Sis & I cant meet eye-to-eye?!  Personality clash.  Total opposites.  (always a case of Her Bad Vs My Good...wont deny, there's My Bad Vs Her Gd too.)  I tried to rummage my clothes in the wardrobe. But I end up getting pissed trying to find clothes to bring wif me when I go for my bath.  So I end up re-arranging the clothes back into its proper segments.  Even the hanging clothes/tudungs are arranged according to type of wear (for clothes), & colours (for tudungs).  Sigh.  Nothing has changed.  FAIL.  To be re-admitted.

Now...the only reason why I'm bored & mad is I've still not received my PB ltr!!  It's been signed on Mon afternoon (we all know coz during this period, we always keep a lookout of HR person coming down to the office carrying an envelope...coz we know what's inside!).  Unfortunately, our Division's Head is on course yesterday & today!  The envelope with our PB ltrs have arrived, but it's stuck in her office!  It's not helping that almost all other Divisions hav received their ltrs!!  If she comes tomoro & makes time to give us, we'll get it tomoro, otherwise, Fri...which is pointless already since we're getting the $$$$ by Fri night already!!  I want to know how much I'm getting coz I'm on strike...certainly not expecting an increase altho I shld, since my job increased by 3-folds over the last 12 mths!  But if they dare reduce my PB, then my output & quality of the output will be reduced correspondingly for this year.  So until I get to see my ltr, I'm not doing much work!  Officially on strike (no govt. some more!!).

Shit!  Migraine's knocking.  So I btr go to bed...coz waking up @ 5.30am to sahur.  Mayb after that wont sleep back, wil go office earlier than usual, so wil be the 1st to get the ltr (as if!).  Crapping la.  Actualy so I can go back earlier & not rush for buka...hehe!

Is it God...or is it Us?

He likes me...but I like B; B's crazy abt C...but C likes D; D wants E...but E's dreamboy is F...

[I can link this chain of feelings up to Z, but I think I've introduced my pt already!]

Y is it such?  That we desire for someone who has no feelings for us...but we have no feelings for the the one who wants us??

Y is it such?  That we think we know who's the BEST for us...but we refuse to accept the one who's supposed to be the BEST for us (in the eyes of the Almighty!)??

[It's another story that our parents seem to think they know best who's BEST for us!]

Y is it such?  That when we cant have the one we want, we refuse to look in front (count our blessings) & move on...but choose to get stuck in our past (reminding ourselves of our fateful plight)??

Y is it such?  That we overlook the gem that we stumble upon in our path...in our chase for some antique figurine?

Y is it such?  That we can have the cheek to seek that gem which we threw aside & not even take a 2nd look...when the antique figurine we were after has been lost/broken??

Y is it such?  That matters of the heart can complicate one's life??

Is it the power of God...or is it just...Us & our weakness?!

PS: Happy birthday Zarina!

Quiz time!

I've decided to post something that can be of use to one's brain.  I love quizzes.  If you love to fret & solve quizzes...the kind who wont sleep till you solve it...then come here for interesting quizzes.

I did something like the quiz below in 1 of the courses I went for @ Civil Service College recently & although I'm not that gd with Maths, I was the 1st to solve it in juz 5 mins!  So while I crack my brain at this 1...u ppl (if u want to, no one's forcing!) go try it & post ur ans, then I'll tell u whether u're rite (private message, so as not to spoil the fun for others who'd like to try).

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Who goes fishing?

In this riddle you must assort the information given in order to find out who goes fishing.

Facts

• There are 5 houses of 5 different colours: blue, green, red, white, yellow


• In each house lives a person of a different nationality: American, Australian, British, Canadian, Irish


• Each of the 5 house-owners has a certain job: carpenter, lawyer, pilot, plumber, waiter


• Each of the 5 house-owners has a certain hobby: chess, fishing, football, sailing, tennis


• Each of the 5 house-owners has a certain pet: cat, dog, goldfish, hamster, horse

None of them have the same pet, job or hobby.

Other facts

• The Irishman lives in the green house.


• The red house is on the immediate left of the white house.


• The person in the red house is a pilot.


• The American plays chess.


• The Canadian is a waiter.


• The person with the horse lives next to the one who plays tennis.


• The person who goes sailing lives next to the one with the cat.


• The person with the goldfish plays football.


• The person in the blue house has a cat.


• The Briton has a hamster.


• The Australian lives next to the yellow house.


• The person with the horse has a neighbour who is a plumber.


• The person in the center house is a lawyer.


• The Australian lives in the first house.


• The dog owner is a carpenter.

Question: Who goes fishing?

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Pathetic Sharb - U took 20 mins to solve it?!? 

Oh well, the time I took is not amazing at all...need to buck up! 

Mayb, juz maybe, I'm sleepy...or I'm just distracted by the TV!

I want...I want!

Remember this post?  It seems the DVD is out!  Any takers to get me this as a b'day gift!?!  Urrmmm...u have time till June to search for it...Or at least if u see it, let me know...that'll be a gift enough for me.

I tawt I taw a...Putty Tat? I tit I tit...taw a Putty Tat!

LOOK UP YOUR BIRTHDAY AND SEE WHAT YOU ARE

January 01 - 09 ~ Dog

January 10 - 24 ~ Mouse

January 25 - 31 ~ Lion

February 01 - 05 ~ Cat

February 06 - 14 ~ Dove

February 15 - 21 ~ Turtle

February 22 - 28 ~ Panther

March 01 - 12 ~ Monkey

March 13 - 15 ~ Lion

March 16 - 23 ~ Mouse

March 24 - 31 ~ Cat

April 01 - 03 ~ Dog

April 04 - 14 ~ Panther

April 15 - 26 ~ Mouse

April 27 - 30 ~ Turtle

May 01 - 13 ~ Monkey

May 14 - 21 ~ Dove

May 22 - 31 ~ Lion

June 01 - 03 ~ Mouse

June 04 - 14 ~ Turtle

June 15 - 20 ~ Dog

June 21 - 24 ~ Monkey

June 25 - 30 ~ Cat

July 01 - 09 ~ Mouse

July 10 - 15 ~ Dog

July 16 - 26 ~ Dove

July 27 - 31 ~ Cat

August 01 - 15 ~ Monkey

August 16 - 25 ~ Mouse

August 26 - 31 ~ Turtle

September 01 - 14 ~ Dove

September 15 - 27 ~ Cat

September 28 - 30 ~ Dog

October 01 - 15 ~ Monkey

October 16 - 27 ~ Turtle

October 28 - 31 ~ Panther

November 01 - 16 ~ Lion

November 17 - 30 ~ Cat

December 01 - 16 ~ Dog

December 17 - 25 ~ Monkey

December 26 - 31 ~ Dove

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If you are a Dog: A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth! ! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified .

If you are a Mouse: Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-together' s. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Lion: Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

If you are a Cat: An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Turtle: You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Dove: You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Panther: You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are a Monkey: Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!!

Ouch!!

Amsyar hit his forehead on the floor tile earlier this afternoon.  Bagus!!  At least I hope now he'll have a phobia of doing his alternative-rock-head-banging stunt everytime he turns on his tummy!

I was in my rm (but left the door open so I can keep a watch on him outside) in front of my PC d/loading songs & doing bulletin on Frenster...Dad was reading papers on the sofa...Sis was in the kitchen preparing Amsyar's stuff to bring for our dinner outing @ East Coast (Sis wanna treat all of us...on the ocassion of getting her PB I suppose)...Mom juz woke up so she was also getting ready b4 solat asar.  All of a sudden, I heard a thud...I saw him lying on his tummy on the floor (Yes, as usual, he wriggled his way dwn from his mattress already!) & I immediately guessed "oh shit, he hit his head!?"...then...a wail!  Uh-oh.  It wasn't ez to silence him...took almost 10mins, excluding another 10mins of sad sobs.  His left eyebrow had a red patch, so that muz've been a hard bang...poor him!

Mom put him on her lap & fed him milk...I came out & started doing some rap steps towards him, to which he responded wif his cheeky smile...so I announced "Ok...selamat...he didnt lose his memory!!" Muahahahaha....After that I apologized to the floor, on behalf of Amsyar's doing.  I pity the floor...kesian...afterall, Amsyar's kepala batu...so the impact muz've been bad for the floor! Hehehe...

Okie dokie...all's well...after asar, arnd 5-ish, we left & headed to East Coast.  It was goddamn packed, no lots @ our usual Carpark E...so after dropping Mom, Bro, Amsyar & his pram...Sis had to drive all the way to Carpark D...which was like a 10mins walk to the Food Centre.  Was a hot day, so I wasnt feeling too gd esp after the long walk in the sun to go to the Food Centre...didnt even finish my Roti John...coz I had lunch arnd 2pm & was still full!  Initially the plan was I wanted to rent a cycle...but bcoz we didnt get a lot at Carpark E (where the bicycle station is) I lost mood.  So after eating, we took a slow walk back to the car - Mom & Bro walked while Mom pushed the pram while I jogged carrying Amsyar, he loves it when he's "running" & someone runs after him (his Mama!).  So I'd say, it was a gd outing for Amsyar.  For someone who juz hit his head hard on the floor couple of hrs ago...he's still so full of energy!  But it was almost 7pm, so he did get a lil cranky in the car as he was feeling sleepy already...but as long as he's not restrained in his child-seat, he's a jolly baby!!

I cried myself to sleep last night...

...& I've been staring at this blank screen for the last 5 mins...not knowing what to write...

...coz there's something that's killing me from inside...but I cant share it coz it's not abt me. 

But it affects me as I'm a v. sensitive person.  V. emotional.  An idealist...& being too idealistic can be bad at times.

I cried myself to sleep last night...and damn, I dont know how many more nights I'll be crying myself to sleep!  I dont know how not to cry myself to sleep...so I dread going to sleep.  Mayb will watch DVD till I feel sleepy enuf & sleep naturally.

Chicken Curry...anyone?

Woken up @ 9.30am to babysit Amsyar...and then 20mins later, Sis came...while she was chatting wif my Mom, I played wif Amsyar walking arnd the hse...till Mom asked me "Wld u like to cook today?!"  Of coz I want!!  Wat's cooking? "Chicken curry...I've prepared the chicken"...Okies...kewl!

So bcoz I've taken over the cooking, Mom went to do her marketing, Sis followed her wif Amsyar...so there I was home alone, cooking.  Not bad rite?!?  Can la...wont starve for sure...matter of can taste as nice as Mom's or not, that's all.  I did it according to my taste-bud.

I cleaned up the kitchen after that...then was watching TV when they came back.  Asked Mom to taste my cooking for me, to her taste-bud, she said it lacked salt (she's a salt freak!) so she added a bit more salt.

That's my Sat.  Gonna get ready to go for my facial appt now...Chaoz, til nxt time!

Toothie

Uh-oh!  The 1st tooth is coming out...it's not gonna b a gd period...the teething phase is tough & pitiful.  He looks cute wif that 1 white thing abt to pop out of his lower gum...but I think he's not too comfy wif it.  He keeps playing wif it using his tongue & making dis cute sucking sounds as tho he's sucking a sweet!!

I anticipate crankiness.  I wish der's something I cld do to soothe his discomfort, teethers aside (it doesnt work for him for long...he prefers our fingers - ladies' fingers!)!  Mommies out der...tips pls...wat did u do wen u were going tru dat phase wif ur kiddos?  Maasi wont be able to bear seeing her hero suffer.

[Princess...u oso teething problem rite?!?! Hehehe...kidding babe...wen I think of Amsyar's teething troubles, I think of ur suffering oso u noe!!]

Oh, guess what? He sleepcrawled agn last nite.  Same timing.  Mom heard some "uh..uh.." sound (his attempts to wriggle dwn & make his way to the fan)...so Mom screamed softly at him "Hoi! Where u going?!?!" ... and guess wat he did? He excitedly grinned @ her cheekily...so mom pulled him by his feet & dragged him back to where he belongs!! Haha.  This morning Mom tol me "...he tot of paying u a visit last nite but got caught red-handed!"  A while ago, Mom reminded me "Tonite if u hear a knock on ur door, dun open..."  I gav her a puzzled look, wondering if she's trying to scare me wif some ghost story or wat (I'm not scared of ghost btw!)...then she added "it cld be Amsyar!"  Haha...gd joke Mom!  He ah, I tel u, bila jln, he tido, bila tido, he jln!!

This morning I spent a wonderful time wif him b4 going to work @ 11am.  We played; We vibed; We snapped pics (been a while since I played wif my Casio digital camera).

Doggie

Those who noe me well enuf will noe dat 2 of my biggest fears are: 1) dogs; & 2) lizards!

On 6 Feb 07 when I was driving out of the T2's Carpark 'C' after work arnd 7.20pm...I almost missed a heartbeat wen I saw dis as soon as I passed tru the EPS gantry!!  A dog in the carpark!?!? How the hell did it find its way inside the airport vicinity!?!?  Did he travel along the PIE/ECP by foot!?  I dunno wat breed it is, but it's HUGE!

Anyways...I nvr got to report it to the Duty Terminal Manager's office to get rid of the dog.  It's forgotten.  Til yesterday (wed), wen I was leaving airport for home arnd 7.30pm...after I exited the carpark (few metres away from where I spotted the dog on 6 Feb 07) & was driving out into the slip road b4 turning to the main road, I saw the damn dog agn!!!  Omigawd.  What the hell is it still doing der after more than a mth?!?!?  Did it lost its way & nvr found its way back "home"?  It looked so lost...as tho scared to cross the road...everytime it tried, there'll be a car coming & it'll climb up the kerb agn.  Omigawd, I've nvr seen an animal looking so lost & distressed.  I wish I cld juz pick the dog up & give it a lift back home...or at least to the police station...but hell...it had to be a dog.  So...sorry la dog...if only u were some cute hottie, u'd hav stood a btr chance of being picked up by me!  ;P

I wish the dog finds its way "home" soon (only coz I dun ever wish to see it at the airport anymore!)...b4 it finds its way to the departure hall wer I work (just nxt to Carpark C level 2!)....Mummieee...scarieeee!

Btw, Amsyar's a fan of dogs.  He loves the sound of bow-wow/woof-woof, which can bring an instant smile on his face!  So der u go...Amsyar's gonna protect Maasi from doggie...yeay!

(Yea, yea...wait till he sees a real dog den we'll see how he responds to bow-wow/woof-woof sound after dat!)

Thank you Allah...

...for THE RAIN!!

Always complain abt going out when it's raining...leceh la, scared to drive la, this la that la....hah...padan muka...been left with the HEAT for weeks!! That I started missing the rain. That I started imagining myself in a winterful country...touching the snow...that while chatting wif Shazadi on MSN, I suggested "maybe we shld just take time out 1 day & go...SNOW CITY!"

Huh?!? SNOW CITY!??!  Where on earth did SNOW CITY come from!?!?  Guess the heat was really getting on my nerves!! It finally rained in Tampines, after wks of scorching heat...that I took my camera & video the rain (in case I ever miss it agn)!!

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Amsyar's been on a crying spree these last 1 wk...back to his old habit of crying whenever he wanna sleep.  Today's real bad.  He slept.  I was having dinner.  He sort of moved, in a sudden reaction due to a nightmare...mayb 'having a fight with Giant & he's thrown off the cliff' or something...he slightly opened his eyes (Mom was holding his hand & patting & pacifying him)...saw dunno "what"...trembled...started wailing...non-stop...til he vomited.  Guess it was a nightmare of falling off the cliff & when he opened his eyes, Nani-ma wasn't much of a help...cldn't save him from falling..."Aaaahhhh"...Haha...Maasi & her theories!!!  Then he bcame so sensitive...cannot ask him anything...cannot say anything...cannot kiss...cannot do anything...he'll start crying agn...sooooo sad...teary all!  Aper punya hero da ni...gembeng!!!

Jokes apart...kids have gd 6th sense (after WOMEN)...makes me wonder if there's any connection between his wailing & the sudden downpour...usually there's downpour whenever I'm down & crying in my heart...dunno if Amsyar's taken over that power from his Maasi...afterall he & I are...SIAMESE TWINS - 2 heads sharing 1 brain! Hahaha!

:-/ Ok...bad joke... \-:

My superhero

Everyday I come hm, if Amsyar's not asleep yet, I'll ask him "...how're u? hav u been a gd boy today?...bla bla bla"...and if I'm lucky, I'll get a "...yes Maasi, I've been gd..." (fm Mom).  Otherwise, everyday I'll get a report on his mischiefs. 

Today's the limit.  I don't know if I shld scold him for being mischievious or laud him for being obedient.  Now, everytime u put him dwn on his mattress, he'll turn on his tummy & start wriggling like an earthworm.  Mind u, he's damn fast ok!!  Like yest, it was tiring chasing after him & pulling him back to his mattress.  I'm trying to watch Dil Kya Kare on Star Plus...& he's so active...in play mode. There's realy no space on his right (the coffee table & sofa is there)...so I kept pulling him back & position him in a way so that he'll turn to his left & wriggle towards me...but he stil choose to turn to his right.  So I scolded him "Where u wanna go?!?!  There's no space there!!  If u stil want...fine...go la...go under the table...then after that head straight under the sofa ok! Gooooaaaal!!"  He laughed (as though he understood)...urrrgghhh!  To stop him & so that I can concentrate on my fave song (title song), I had to carry him...standing up...& danced wif him!

Today I came hm, he was still wide awake...and so excited to see me...so after making monkey faces @ him, I asked my usual qns...to which the ans I got fm Sis: "Today I no gd, Maasi".  So I asked "Uh-oh, what have u been up to today?!?!"...Mom took over: "U know what he did today Maasi? I put him on his mattress, went to the kitchen & made his milk...the nxt min (yes, it was less than 60 secs) I came back, he's gone..."  I asked "Oookaaay, so where did u find him, in the balcony!??!"...Mom replied: "No...(and she pointed) under the table!"  I cldn't do a much btr job than this cut-n-paste job (no time!)...to illustrate his stunt!  So smart...the table is fits juz enuf for him but he can't lift his head or it'll hit the glass panel...so he popped his head out!!  Mom freaked @ him & guess what he did?  He laughed cheekily!!

I'm begining to suspect this li'l cartoon of mine really has superhero powers (Oh no, don't tell me he's really...KRRISH?)!  I must put a videocam in the living rm already...to catch his act!

Post-hibernation

I swear I have my reasons!

First & foremost, I'm sick of spending 1hr penning dwn my thoughts/feelings/views...only to have it wiped off right in front of my eyes in a split of a second...at 1 wrong click of a button!!  I juz nvr learn my lesson...always take lil things for granted...thinking I'll be v. careful...I'll make it quick...I'm almost done...juz so I can quickly type & post...no need to save draft.

*save draft*..........................

*30secs wasted*.....................

*some thoughts missing*...........

As I was saying....I really got pissed when I typed a whole long entry abt Zee Cinestars...abt how happy & excited I was waiting for 17 Mar for the GRAND FINALE...to see Sabina (ahermm) wins & become the nxt cinestar.  My fave contestant from day 1...well...not really day 1...coz she was a wildcard entrant who came halfway tru the show & took everyone's breath away.  Since Sabina incidentally is one of the many names I'm being called...I take pride in the existence of Sabina (pretending that it's me...wait till u find out who's her fave actress!) in the show, much to the cannot-tolerate attitude of my mom & Sis.  Only 1 person stay supportive. Amsyar. That's coz he smiles & laughs at everything u say!!!  He doesn't even know what shit I'm talking abt when I keep telling him "Am Am Am...be nice to Maasi ok...Maasi's gonna be the nxt Zee Cinestar!"...& he'll start his "grrg-grrg-grrg" chuckles!

*save draft*..........................

*30secs wasted*.....................

*some thoughts missing*...........

The GRAND FINALE juz ended....it was a pleasure watching the show bcoz after so long, I finally get to see the ones I've been banking on to win really win!!  Of coz, the ones who didn't win I liked them too, so even if they win, I wldn't dislike them, but it'll juz reaffirm my view that such shows are RIGGED!  Thank God no such thing happened...so RIGGED or NOT RIGGED, I'm happy Sabina (ahermm) & Piyush(also a wildcard entrant together wif Sabina) won although my choice was Raj, another wildcard entrant.  Ok...if u're wondering what's wif all these wildcard entrant...there were 4 who came midway.  2 boys & 2 gals.  The ones who stole everyone's breath away right from their 1st performance was Sabina & Raj.  What Raj had which Piyush lacked was superb dancing!!  What Piyush had which Raj lacked was...a manly to-die-for voice!

Incidentally, last yr's winners Sarvar Ahuja & Aditi Sharma (both wasn't my choice...my actual choice came 2nd both for male & female...disappointing!!) will have their launch movie Khanna & Iyer releasing end of March.  Let's see if they manage to do India proud....

*save draft*..........................

*30secs wasted*.....................

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Zee Cinestars is over...now I'll moving on to SONY...Indian Idol is coming up soon.  Liyah & I will bz choosing our nxt idol...hopefully we don't get pissed watching the ones we like (and the real talented one like Amey Date) gets booted out & the lousy ones stays in!

That's TV front...work front...lost my cool in Feb 07 after not hearing from HR abt my request for upgrade...so I went to UNION (wanted to take up a case against them)...UNION didn't really impress me...but it did help to speed things up.  In just 1 wk...HR kelam kabut called me for interview (altho it wasn't needed since I'm existing staff...but they wanted to cover their pantatz)...which obviously had 2b successful!  They emailed me to say they were gonna upgrade me to Div II (I'm currently Div III) wef 1 Mar.  After that, no ltr...2 wks later, got a call from HR (whoa...now they scared to keep me in the dark...late a bit, will email or call...hehehe)...they told me they noticed from my record that my increment mth is Apr.  So if they upgrade me in Mar, I rugi my increment (which is just abt $55!).  But hell ... rather than losing that & getting a $55 raise...I might as well take the $55 increment for my current post since I've worked a whole 1 yr...and then get upgraded from the new pay...so total will be $110 extra pay from Apr 07 onwards!   Cool!  So bcoz they so sweet to think of my long term benefit, I "forgive" them & decided to drop the case...My heart tells me not to be greedy lest it'll backfire on me.  Allah muz have HIS reasons for making me get what I deserve tru the hard way.  Shall have my revenge in some other ways, Insyallah!

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Home front hasn't been gd for some personal reasons which can't be shared here.  What I can share is...Amsyar's growing up well Alhamdulillah...naughty & intelligent (takes after Maasi!!)...what's unbearable is his stubbornness...always wants his way (but not getting it anyways).  He's very sturdy for a 6-mth old...coz we train him 2b strong & rugged.  He's almost walking (already running in the air)...got a "peet-peet"  Barney sandal to motivate him to walk also.  To walk forward that is...coz right now...he takes his step in reverse mode.  No wonder he's v. fascinated by the reverse-sensor sound in the car!!! He gets excited at the sound of it as though someone's cootchie-cooing him!!  Cartoon la he!

It's been a wonderfully blessed 6 mths...till he fell sick for the 1st time.  After his 6th-month jab, he wasn't feeling too well...not drinking/eating well & kept vomiting after every feed.  I was showered by his vomit TWICE!  1st time we had to actually sms Sis to tell his condition & ask if she'd like to take him to the Dr or want us to monitor him.  Of coz, Sis being a paranoid 1st-time Mom rushed hm from sch to take his son to Dr.  I babysit him 1st (sms-ed boss to say wil be delayed) while Mom bathed & got ready while Sis drives back from sch.  I feel sad when I see him vomit...realy vomited like how adult vomits!!  The sound, the look.  Poor him.  Luckily, we're quite attuned to the sound he makes as a signal he's abt to vomit.  When his breathing is loud & he makes a funny "hiccup" sound, we'll be ready to turn him on a safe zone to vomit...away from our body or the mattress.  Haha.  Not bad ah this boy...even give signal b4 vomiting.  After he vomits, he'll be so quiet (altho we don't scold him & encourage him to vomit he seems to bear some guilt for causing the inconvenience to us).  When he's quiet...I look forward to hear his mischief screams.  When he starts screaming & wakes ppl up as early as 6am...I'll tell Sis "The siren has started agn, hero's well now!!"  Urrgghhh!! 

He came to airport on Thurs...almost my lunch time...so we (Mom, Sis & I) lunched together @ House of Sundanese...after I intro Amsyar to my office.  My colleagues were so delighted to see him LIVE...been seeing him on photos & videos...finally seeing him LIVE in action!  Oh...wait eh...been a while already...need to do something...

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Oookayyyy...how can I forget...the only reason y I came back here was bcoz I can't help but wanna share this:  U know, Amsyar sleeps in between 2 ladies.  On his right is Nani-ma & on his left is his Mama.  Mama wil be on a mattress & Nani-ma & baby wil be on a sofa bed, which is abt 2" higher than the mattress.  As I mentioned b4, Amsyar's into turning on his tummy & he's beginning to crawl...rather...wriggle like a snail.  So like any normal nights...all 3 of them were sleeping in the living rm last nite.  Except, Maasi was battling insomnia in her rm...not sleeping @ 2am!  Finished catching up on ppl's blogs, I decided to call it a day...went out of my rm to go to toilet b4 going to bed.  As usual, I'll check if Amsyar's sleeping ok (breathing or not etc. I know it's wacko, but I can't help it...babies can't tell u if they're having troubles u see).  Usually if I see some movement, I know he's alright.  Plus he's been down wif fever since Fri night, so all the more he's cranky. I opened the door...Sis at the edge of her mattress...mom at the other end - the head of the sofa bed...In the middle...wei!??!  Harlow?!?  Where's the kid??!  In that darkness...I squint my eyes to search for him...guess where I saw him!?!?  Lying on his tummy...head up like a lizard...next to his Mama's feet!!  I wonder if he was trying to demonstrate his interpretation of 'syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu'...but he has actually turned on his tummy, wriggled his way dwn the sofa bed onto the mattress 2" below & further wriggled himself 180 degrees.  Yet 2 adults on each side didn't realize it!!  I dunno how long he's been up to it!  Fancy him in play mode @ 2am...alone in the dark!  Sheesh...he's short of wriggling his way dwn the mattress. Usually I check & make sure every corners of the mattress have cushions to protect in case he makes a stunt dwn...Interestingly, yest, Mom muz be so tired & stressed...she didn't protect the floor wif cushion.  I went out & got a shock of my life seeing how far he has reached from where he was sleeping...I went up the sofa bed, tapped Mom once but she didn't wake up...I called out softly to Amsyar so as not to frighten him...asking him "What r u doing?!?! Where on earth do u think u're going, it's 2am!!"  He lifted his head to look at me & gave a blur look (as tho he didn't realise he was sleepwalking!)...I tapped Mom another time & when I told her Amsyar "dah merayap"...she almost jumped...shocked that even my Sis didn't realise her son has crawled dwn to her mattress & "walked" all the way to her feet!  Sis can wake up & laugh at her son...giving a name to what he juz did - "SLEEPCRAWLING"!  Mom's not too pleased wif Amsyar...coz now he's big enuf & is going "jalan-jalan" on his own w/o her!  Gosh...they can make a joke out of the situation!

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Went to check on the li'l cartoon...doing alright.  Juz restless.  Tossing & turning.  He went amok agn today...he hasn't done that since 2 mths!  Back to his old habits of cranky & cries for no reason everytime he wants to sleep.  Oh & he adores TWEETY...whom he knows as Bubu Tweety.  Once he can talk, I'll have to stop this Bubu Tweety crap lest he'll call out Bubu Tweety when he sees Tweety in public places.  Mati gua!  Wil be a laughing stock!

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What else eh!??  Was hoping to go Genting for a holiday during the Zee Cine Awards '07...wil be cool...go holiday to a place where there'll be Bollywood atmosphere everywhere I go...Bollywood music, posters...juz my kinda lifestyle!  When I saw the teaser ads on Zee TV, I told Mom "Ma! Our nxt holiday wil be Genting & it's not gonna be in Dec"...at that time I didn't know when it's gonna be held.  Last wk, I got a mailer that Changi Airport Recreation Club organised a 3D/2N trip to Genting on 26-28 May (altho I was pretty sure ZCA's bound 2b in Mar/Apr)...Mom & I was on for it...but hell...on Fri night I find out that ZCA is gonna be held on 1 Apr...April Fool's betul la! I can't go end Mar/early Apr.  Mom might not be avail to join me as it's not sch holiday so Sis needs her to look after Amsyar...plus it's peak period @ work!  Bingit ah.  So near yet so far.

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Dah la tu...cukup la...aren't u bored of reading already?!?!