Thursday, June 21, 2007

When the heart aches

Rather than ignore...rather than being in a home that doesn't give me a feeling of being "at home"...I might as well stay away from home.


I purposely wake up really late so that I can rush through the morning & can avoid him.  But it brings tears to my eyes the moment I shut the front door when I leave home seeing him looking at me with hope in the eye that I'll carry him.  "Why is Maasi not even looking at me?"  Not even a kiss.  For so many days.  When I wake up, he's asleep...but seconds later, he'll also wake up, turn on his tummy & start crawling after me wherever I go!!!  Even when I'm leaving, he'll crawl to my feet & try to stand up supported by my leg, hoping I'd carry him (he reminds me of a cat!).  I'll just put him down back to the floor, salam Mom & leave.


When he sleeps, he's been restless & crying - he can sense that Maasi is distancing herself.  "At least Nanima takes me when I wldn't stop crying...and sayang me...but Maasi just ignores me. Why!?"  Sorry beta, I've no answer for u.  I know it's not your fault...but I lose interest in things pretty easily, esp. when I feel that it's not worth my effort.


(TALK OF THE DEVIL...THERE HE GOES!  AWAKENED & WAILING AS I'M TYPING THIS POST!)


Today I thought I might as well finish some work & go home late, hoping he'd be asleep if I reach home after 8pm.  At 7pm, my boss asked if I cld help her with some figure-checking.  I agreed to help telling her "no intention to go home yet, so yea u can give it to me".  I finished everything for her...only @ 8.30pm!!!  Wah lao.  Mom will be wondering why I'm not home yet (usually home by 7-ish, anything later, will sms).


I came home...damn...he wasn't asleep!  He was drinking milk on Mom's lap.  I just did my normal routine.  But Mom can't help laugh at how he tries to jump off her lap to pound on me!  But I just walked away.  In Mom's voice "Maasi, y u come back late...I waited for u at the stairs but u nvr came...only Nana came back".  I dunno what else to say.  Y is Mom doing all these.  Y doesn't she understand when I tell her "I'm not interested!"


I went to my rm...almost in tears, but controlled.  I thought to myself...y is that poor li'l one being punished...but I can't find an explanation...it's just my stone-heart.  I finally relented & picked him up (b4 Mom gives me a cold-shoulder for nothing - It's a free world, but I don't even have the freedom to feel the way I wanna feel!).  God...it's so heartbreaking the way he just clings on to me, kept looking @ my face, kept fidgeting with the collar of my pyjama.  Except for that...he's still the same - gets his eyes glued to the TV screen when he hears the song Kasamh Se (Zee TV serial) comes on!  And he can't sit still on my lap when I read to him his 123 & Colours book.  He wants to hold the book & read himself...but it ends up in his mouth!  Oh...his 4th tooth has arrived (the 2nd buck tooth on top is popping out!)...he's now officially...HANNIBAL!! 

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Wishlist for 2007...

...other than loads of $$$$...


1. Have been eyeing this thing for my baby (my car!) for some time now:


Air Purifier


2. Since childhood, I've had a strong desire to be able to play a musical instrument.  Used to learn/play the guitar during my teen years.  That phase was over.  Today, can't afford drum lessons, too expensive & no sponsors...so piano is my alternative since there are cheap keyboards available:


Electronic Keyboard


Electronic keyboards fascinates me - can't help play with them (even toy keyboards) whenever I see one!  Not that I know how to make music with it...but I'm sure with some lessons/practise, Himesh Reshammiya can step down!  I wanted to buy a toy keyboard for Amsyar but my family knows I've an ulterior motive...hehe.


3. Quite sian of driving already...so am considering going back to my old outdoor hobby, cycling:


Bicycle


Now that I'm gonna be on long wkends pretty often, intending to cycle as part of my exercise regime. Maybe join my parents for jogging every Sun morning...while they jog, I cycle...like the good old times!


(pictures for illustration only)

How Real Am I?


You Are 84% Real
There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are.
You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all.
For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life.
You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.

Moral of the story: DON'T MESS WITH ME!  I'M REAL!


Anyways...been a while since I analysed my personality so was in the mood to do this.  I've been pissed off since Sat and this fire burning inside me is not abt to be doused so soon bcoz I'm REALLY pissed!  Mom's sad that I've been v. quiet & off-mood.  I even ignore Amsyar & it's really affecting him...he's been crying for my attn.  Mom tries to bring him to me ocassionally, but still...it's not the same anymore.  I'm like that, if I don't like someone, don't expect me to like anything related to them!  Mom knows me too well...she's trying her best advising me not to behave like that to Amsyar as he's innocent...bla bla bla...*yawwwnnn*


Since I didn't wanna be @ home (which doesn't give me a homely atmosphere!)...I decided to stay out of home.  So after my survey, I went to catch Jhoom Barabar Jhoom @ GV Tampines.  5.30pm show, but reached there arnd 5.40pm, got the tix, went in...wallah...pretty much empty!  Show not started yet some more (started 5 mins after I walked in)! 


Been a while since I do such things, catching a movie alone during off-peak hrs while everyone wld be bz working!  Movie was a timepass...had $9 spare in my wallet, so decided to throw it on JBJ.  Movie ok la, nothing fantastic abt the storyline...something along the lines of Bunty Aur Babli's comedy, except this time not abt thief-couples but abt this couple who cooked up a story that they're engaged only to realise later that they love each other but are now stuck with their lies so they can't move on to woo each other!!  Songs...only the title song got into me, the rest were too cliched!  Basically, the movie's just like any other Yash Chopra movies - Sex bombs, skin show, kissing, songs popping out of nowhere & angmos dancing in sync with the Bolly stars in beautiful locales of Paris, London etc.  That's Yash Chopra's movies for you! 


If there's one thing I liked abt watching this movie...it's seeing the pairing of Abhishek-Lara (since their 1st pairing in Mumbai Se Aaya Mera Dost) and Bobby-Preity (since their 1st pairing in Soldier).   Both couples weren't that hot back then.  So it's nice to see all 4 coming together after they're big stars now!  And the pairing of Abhishek-Bobby...wow...remember Amitabh-Dharmendra in Sholay!??!  I'm sure they must've had fun discussing their fathers' successful pairing.


If there's one thing I disliked abt the movie, it's Amitabh!  So insignificant, what was the need for his role!?!?! C'mon la, he's not in the age to be swaying arnd!  I thought he's supposed to be in not too gd a health (I even predicted he may die this yr!)!?!?


Now...what irritated me the most is that despite getting a cosy aisle seat at the left corner, there was this Indian couple (from India) on my right at the centre block's aisle who has with them a son abt age 2 spoiling my mood...I even stomped out of my seat & moved to the last row!!  I think everyone knows what I mean!  I knew I was in for an irritating time when I walked in & saw a pram near my aisle seat!  *Sigh*  Y bring a 2 yr old in a theatre when u know they're in the age where they can't remain still & silent!!  If u think you paid for the tix so u can do whatever u wish to...well other ppl DID too!!  And bcoz I did too...I've a right to expect some peace in the theatre!  If u brought the kid to a cartoon/animation movie, at least it can sustain the kid's attn if the show is of his interest...bring him to such "cheap" movie...of coz he'll be bored la...bodoh nak mampos (Shazadi will be smiling rite now!)!!

Monday, June 18, 2007

My 1st flight...@ age 30!!

Bangkok...of all places. I was a lil nervous when I learnt that I'm being sent for a 1-day trip to Bangkok.  Doing survey is ok.  But going on a flight was freaking me.  And Bangkok is surely not the 1st place I'd like to go on my 1st plane ride...maybe KL wld be btr since I'm familiar with the place, culture & language there...but oh well, I took it as a challenge.


And the mgr (SY) I'm supposed to go to is also not someone I talk to in office...not someone I'd go on a trip together...so my colleague was laughing at me on the whole idea!  And it was really stressing me up!  But I just took it cooly...I made arrangements for the tickets etc.  I didn't like the idea of getting stuck in a jam for 1 hr to go to the city for shopping & SY also just went to BKK for shopping so since both of us didn't wanna go to the city to shop, we decided to take the 2nd last flight back.  If we wanted to shop, we've to take the last flight back but we'll reach S'pore @ 10-ish.  It'll be too tiring coz we're taking the 1st flight to BKK @ 8.45am (thus having to be at the airport by 7-ish), coming back @ 10-ish on a Fri was not a welcomed idea!  So we decided to come back by the 2nd last flight, reaching S'pore @ 8-ish.


The day finally came.  We met @ 7.30am, I got my 1st boarding pass & while SY had b/fast wif hubby, I went to office to kill time...by snapping photos of my workstation & this:


1st Boarding Pass


Our flight was @ 8.45am...so by 8am we cleared immigration & headed to our gate.  Damn, they didn't allow hp to be on, so there goes my mp3 listening.  Luckily there's in-flight VOD, so after browsing the catalogue (was tempted to watch GURU, but refrained), I decided to watch Night At The Museum!!  But since the flight was shorter than the movie, I cldn't complete the last bit (I presume abt 1/2hr more) of it.


SY calculated the no. of hrs we had before we cld check in, and told me we had 3 hrs. 3 hrs!??!  I'm already full with the in-flight meal, so I'm unlikely to lunch @ the airport...so wat r we gonna do at the airport?!?  If we need an ave of 1.5hrs to & fro city by cab, we have 1.5hrs to SHOP!  So let's go to the city...1 shopping ctr where I can get cheap stuff wld be gd enuf for me.  The landing wasn't smooth so I felt like I was on a roller-coaster ride going downwards!  And it didn't help that some of the pax went "woooooohhhh"...in thrill!  I looked at SY and sarcastically asked her "what? roller-coaster ride is it?!?"  To which she shared with me that landing tests the skills of a pilot...some pilots make smooth landing...this pilot's landing sucks!


Anyways...after we touched down at Suvarnabhumi airport, SY went to make a toilet trip while I changed for another S$50 since we've decided to go shopping (initially I only changed S$50 for survival).  While changing money, I realised this Suria celebrity Nurul (can't stand her btw) & her family I suppose was in the same flight.  I just pretended I didn't know her.  Fish...I had no intention of bitching in this entry! Sorry.  Back to work.


The moment we reached the arrival hall's taxi stand, I instantly got amused & fascinated by the multi-coloured taxis in BKK...there's purple, orange, green & even pink taxis!!


Taxis @ Arrival Hall of SuvarnabhumiTaxi Going


Ok...call this crazy photography, but I purposely took the plate no. of my taxis, just in case anything untoward happens, at least whoever finds my camera will know I had been in this or that taxi! Hehe.  And oh...guess what I saw while in the taxi?!


McDonalds @ BKK


McDonald's!!! Hehe. Jakun!  Anyways, the whole journey was just 1/2 hr from the airport, but we got stuck in a jam for abt 20mins.  So we took abt 1hr to get to where SY intended to bring me - PLATINUM FASHION MALL...a wholesale/retail store at this area called Pratunam:


Platinum Centre


SY did worry the cab driver wld bring us to Pratunam (instead of Platinum) Centre which is opposite...which he did actually coz he was on the extreme right lane where Pratunam Centre was...and since he cldn't get to the extreme left lane to bring us to Platinum, he dropped us in between these 2 & we took an overhead bridge to Platinum which was just few metres away.  In there, we went on separate ways...planned a mtg place & time...then off I went from 1 level to another...up to level 5 (there's 7 levels!)...and it was 10 more mins before our shopping time is up.  By then I already know what I wanna buy, so I quickly got some clothes for Amsyar & some home stuff (cushion covers & tissue box casing) for Mom & met SY & hopped onto a taxi back to Suvarnabhumi airport to check in & get back to work.


Taxi Back


The journey back was syiok, bcoz the driver went at 120km/h thus we reached in just 1/2hr!  It was a smooth ride on the highway, thus I got to really appreciate the beauty of Bangkok.  Such a huge city.  The horizon is so beautiful...I nvr saw CLOUDS as beautiful as what I saw here in BKK!!  Something I don't get to witness in S'pore with all the high-rise!


Clouds


I mean...look @ that! Isn't that how clouds are depicted in cartoon images?!?!  Amazing!


Ok, reached the airport, checked-in for our flight home which departs @ 4.50pm BKK time & it was abt 2pm BKK time so we had abt 2hrs b4 we head back to our gate for boarding.  The survey was really fun.  SY found it stressful as she's not used to it.  But I managed like a pro.  Except some problems I faced with cameras.  It was behind counters & those I cld see locked in the showcases, they hid the price tags under the item! Damn!! Means I had to ask the salesperson...who wasn't keen to entertain me asking prices of so many models.  And I had problems remembering the prices which are in 5 digits (eg. 11,230 baht) as opposed to a 3-digit S$599!!  I'm a right-brain person who responds btr with visual rather than auditory, so I remember prices btr when I see the tag rather than remember what the sales person utter to me!  Darn!  Other than that...all was gd.


By 4.10pm BKK time, SY & I met at our gate & we boarded the plane after making our last toilet trip.  Oh ya, what sucked was that I was having my 3rd day u-know-what...so it wasn't comfortable for me going to toilet.


Once the plane took off...I realised that Night At The Museum wasn't available as they movies available were limited to those that were lesser than 1.5hrs considering the journey is short.  So I decided to watch Jim Carrey's The Number 23 (which I nvr knew existed in the 1st place!).  Wrong choice.  It was goddamn boring.  To R(A) for my liking.  I mean, Jim Carrey & no comedy is so...not fun!  And the service this time sucked!  Look at this...my meal is served...but the cups were empty till 20mins later the steward decided to ask what I'd like for a drink!


Inflight Meal


Because I was unhappy, this time I decided to take home with me the toothpick & sugar!  Hah!  Actually, when I fly, now then I realise that these steward & stewardess are nothing but like those waiter/waitresses at restaurants!!!  What's so great abt the job then? Oh well, yeah, I know...getting to see the world F.O.C I suppose!??!  Whatever la...as long as it makes them happy & satisfied!


Home sweet home almost 9pm.  Interestingly, I'm probably the 1st person who went on a flight with no one to send me off.  Hehe. Coz I drive & I've season parking @ the airport.  So it's as ez as driving myself to airport empty handed wif just a pouch on my waist, go on my flight, come back wif 2 heavy bags of shopping goods (I got foodstuff eg chocs & chips too while doing my survey) & driving myself back home!!!  No need to trouble anyone!  Sad feeling...mixed with amusement at how independent I am!


Return Boarding Pass Stub


Oh well...all's well that ends well...I had a fab experience on a flight for the 1st time on my life!  That 1 day BKK trip sort of covered for my horrible vacation this yr.  I take home wif me some beautiful memories of the sights of BKK on video & a dying desire to plan for a shopping-spree vacation to Pratunam, Bangkok nxt yr!!  Weeeee....oh....Insyallah!


Back to work tomorrow...sianz...look forward to coming wkend...coz I'll be on leave on Mon, 25 Jun...so will have yet another long wkend!  Yeehar!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Sad disappointing vacation...

...thanks to HAMIDAH TRAVEL & TOURS PTE LTD!!!!


Firstly, I always go for vacation in Dec.  Of coz, I risk getting stuck in floods as it's always monsoon season.  This yr, Sis wanted to join, so had to accomodate her schedule during Jun sch holidays.  Bro too wanted to join since he's earning during his 1 mth sch break.  So having to accomodate these 2, I'm left with only week 8 Jun or 15 Jun.  Which was really a rush job, as there's no agent doing a gd trip during that period.  I wanted so much to go Pulau Redang, but all agents doing on a wkday!  I wont be able to get a full week leave!  After streamlining our options, we were left with Pulau Pangkor organised by Kak Zu of Hamidah Travels.  Which was what I mentioned in my earlier post.


Later, when I was ready to pay, they said it was $225 (instead of $215, bcoz $215 was based on stay at Sea View Hotel).  Fine.  No problem.  On 8 Jun, I was on leave, so I went to Golden Landmark to make payment, after my dentist appt.  Paid & gave the list of particulars.


Few days b4 departing I asked Kak Zu for the itinerary, and she got Hjh Sukina to fax to me.  When I received the itinerary, I realised there was no mention of KL shopping on the way back as promised by Kak Zu.  So I enquired.  But Hjh Sukina told me that it's not a fixed itinerary, KL shopping usually depends on whether there's time & if there's demand.  She told me that Kak Zu has nvr done Pulau Pangkor b4 & is talking rubbish.  So ok, makes sense...usually shopping is a by-demand itinerary. 


2 days b4 departing, I got a call from Hjh Sukina early morning @ 8.30am...she apologised profusely & told me that she dunno how come, but she misplaced the list I gave with everyone's particulars.  Luckily I was still @ home, so I on my PC & read it to her (since she has no email & she cldn't wait till I come to office @ 10am to fax).  Ever heard of something like that??? Your travel agent misplaced the list of particulars you provided.  I've gone on 8 vacations with 2 separate travel agencies (Smailing Tours & Sha Travel), this is the 1st time I come across something like this!


But nvm.  Pardonable.  The following day, Hjh Sukina called @ nite to confirm the pick up point, time, coach.  Instead of Eunos, the plan changed to Bedok bcoz she's sharing coach with her fren from Minerva Travel.  1 PZ coach (48 pax) costs $200 so since she only has 20 pax & Minerva travel also didn't have that many, they decided to share a coach till JB immigration.  So $100 per agent.  Smart cost-saving.  But is this cost-saving passed down to us?  Haha.  Answer to Allah.  But the gd thing, albeit puzzling, was usually we depart by 8pm (ie. gather @ 7.45pm).  But Hjh Sukina tol me that the bus departs @ 10pm, thus to gather @ 9.45pm.  I asked her how come...and she explained that the ferry @ Lumut (Pangkor) departs late (I suppose the 1st ferry is always arnd 8-ish in the morning)...so no pt in reaching there too early (estimated to arrive arnd 6-ish/7am & wasting time.  So I was ok.  In fact elated.  Coz we cld do Isya' & Dad cld also spend time wif Amsyar & drove us there (save us taxi hassle).


Fri, 8 Jun


Since I was on leave, I decided to check out the JL expo sale b4 departing.  We left a lil late (almost 3pm) & got stuck finding empty carpark lots, so we got a lil delayed @ reached home only 7-ish.  I quickly put on my masque (Sun's routine but since I won't be arnd to do it, I had to do it in advance). Amsyar was sleeping when we left home arnd 9.15pm, but due to bikes zooming, he was awakened.  Coach departed @ 9.55pm & he was playful & enjoying himself till 11-ish!!


Reached JB immigration, but no instruction on the coach we were supposed to take (normally, this is already arranged, seating plan given & ferry timing communicated b4 we reach JB immigration).  So after clearing immigration, we had to hang arnd till we received confirmation abt the coach which we're taking.  That wasted abt 20mins of our time.  Then when we got on the bus, there was no seating plan assigned to each of the grps...so everyone sat wherever they wished!  Mom & Sis went up already...they had 2 big bags, but had no initiative to use the bags to "chop" the empty seats infront/behind them...so with ppl kept cutting me, the seats was taken.  In the end, because we cldn't get seats together, we moved to the back of the bus - last seat!  Yes, with a 9-mth old infant.  Wonderful rite?  When the coach departed, Kak Zu (whom I've been dealing with all these while) came all the way to the back to look for Sharbina (the one who has a 9-mth old infant traveling along)...and was so paiseh that we ended up at the back due to the poor planning of her colleague.  She apologised profusely.


Sat, 9 Jun


It wasn't too difficult for me to sleep since it was a SVIP bus (the only gd thing!!)...so the leg room was comfortable enuf to tilt the seat to 45deg and lift the leg rest & sleep comfortably.  I realise every 2hrs the bus driver wld stop bcoz 1 old man needed to take toilet break.  And after the toilet break, they'd hang arnd by the road shoulder of the highway for a puff & not move till 1/2hr later.  With all that wasting of time, we reached a rest area with surau arnd 6-ish.  There was some stalls selling food so I asked Hjh Sukina if it was b/fast stop.  She wasn't even sure.  And since she cldn't find the bus driver, she finally told everyone to have their b/fast.  So all had b/fast.


Then we set off to Lumut Ferry Terminal.  We reached there almost 8.55am.  Hjh Sukina told us that she will make the ticket arrangements & we all catch up.  While we were walking, news started to go behind & soon it reached our ears that 'we missed the ferry by 5mins & now have to wait for the nxt ferry @ 11am'!!!  My gawd!! U mean Hjh Sukina didn't even know what time was the ferry timing??!?!?!  WTF!!  Ended up we had to waste 2 hrs waiting for the nxt ferry!!  With Amsyar v. sweaty & irritable, Mom had no choice but to sponge him clean & change him out of his pyjamas.  After that we checked out the shops & spent quite a bit buying T-shirts.  By 10.30am we cld get into the ferry already.


I asked Hjh Sukina what's the plan for the sightseeing on her itinerary.  By the time we reach the resort wld be close to noon.  She then told me "ok la, since we got stuck here, today we do Free & Easy...tomorrow we go for the sightseeing...actually the sightseeing just 1/2 a day can finish...but I understand la, all will be shagged by all this waiting...bla bla bla".  Teluk Dalam Resort had a porter arrangement to & fro the Ferry Terminal to gather our luggages & send to the resort lobby for us.


We reached the lobby.  Hjh Sukina went to the reception & then I saw her walking away to Kak Zu...and I heard hearsay that the keys were not ready.  I saw the reception mgr put quite a few bunch of keys onto a basket, looked arnd, dunno who to pass it to.  So I walked to Hjh Sukina & sarcastically ask her "do we take our own keys or u'll have to receive it & then give it to us?!" ... to then she said "Oh the hotel didn't receive my fax to them so the keys are not ready" ... I told her the reception mgr has a basket of keys wif no one to give.  Then she gelek2 went to the reception counter.  [Oh did I tell u that this Hjh Sukina is like a weak 50yr old woman who looks sleepy perpetually (no energy).  Why the hell did she become a tour agent/guide I wonder!!]  Then, I told her I don't care whatever, but can I just have the key to my room as I've a 9-mth old infant who needs a bath & it's almost noon - 3hrs past his morning bathtime!!!  So the reception asked her if she had the list with her...to which she said "oh no, the list is in my luggage!!".  Oh gawd!! 1 piece of paper that can easily fit a handbag, u keep in your luggage?!!?  The reception then asked if she cld remember the names in the list.  To which I answered to the reception myself & got my own keys!!


I brought Mom & Sis to our chalet (kampong hse) & then came back to the lobby to fetch Bro who was waiting for our  luggages.  We freshen up  & went for lunch.  After lunch we went back to our rooms & I woke up arnd 4+ to solat.  I didn't have a sajadah so I went to Mom's room.  After solat & after Mom called Dad to make him talk to Amsyar, we brought Amsyar to the pool for a dip.  After swimming, went back to bathe & then went for dinner.  After dinner came back to our room as the lobby shop was closed (Bro wanted some chocs).  So in the end, he decided not to wait for the shop & wanted to sleep instead (v. shagged...he calls it bus-lag!).


After putting lil' monkey to sleep & after doing my maghrib & isya' (and after Mom called to talk to Dad...awww), Mom & I decided to check out the shop (due to open arnd 8-ish pm when the nxt batch of Ferry pax arrives).  We bought our doses of chocs & red-bull/mineral water & got ourselves an ice-cream each...to eat along the way back to our kampong.  At the shop, we bumped into Kak Zu, where I asked (agn, no information...till I myself had to ask!!) what's the plan for tomorrow...what time do we meet in the lobby for the sightseeing...to which Kak Zu told me it's to gather arnd 1-ish after lunch.  Ohhhh...so morning is agn Free & Easy la.  Cool.  But this is so different from all my other vacations where the sightseeing itinerary was more than the Free & Easy!!


Oh well, after that we left & headed back...then Mom & I decided to just sit on the parapet of her veranda & we had a heart-to-heart talk in the co. of a lizard (yes Shazadi...chipkali! And I told my family how u'd react if u were there instead!).  After a while, we went back in.  And since the night was still young, I put on my DVD player & watched DVD (Namastey London).  After the movie, arnd 11pm, I decided to dash back to my own room & sleep.  Mom watched me go back from her veranda.


For sleep time, Bro & Sis swopped rooms...Bro sleeps in my room while Sis sleeps with her baby & Mom on the queen bed.  Whether it was Sis sleeping in my room or Bro, I was meant to suffer (from their snoring!!).  I put on my mp3 & slept my night through till morning call (from kaypoh Sis) came arnd 6.30am.


Sun, 10 Jun


Before leaving for b/fast, Mom called Dad agn & we all wished him HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA & sang him a birthday song (Amsyar likes it when we sing that song...he thinks it's his B'day!!)!  After that we headed for b/fast & then went to the beach for a stroll & played volleyball with Amsyar's mini rubber ball.  After playing, I rented a bicycle from 8.45am for 1hr...and Bro & I took turns to cycle arnd the resort.


After that I told Mom they didn't have to wait for me till 9.45am...they can go back & freshen up, I'll be back after I return the bicycle @ 9.45am.  So they proceeded, while I did my share of scenic-photography.  A must when I go for vacation!  It was only then I realised how beautiful the island/resort actually looks!  After returning the bicycle, I showered & took a panadol & then had a nap as I was having a headache.  Arnd 12-ish, I woke up & got ready to go for lunch. 


After lunch, we gathered at the lobby arnd 1.30pm as planned.  Dunno what we're waiting for...as usual, no coach in sight yet.  But I heard Kak Zu asking Hjh Sukina if there's a coach, and she said yes.  So I heard the coach was on the way.  After almost 20mins, we heard there's no coach, so they had arranged for 4 taxis (mini 9-seater van).  Great!!  What cld be worse than this - sandwiched in a mini van, with no a/c & boring places arnd the whole island, which lasted only 2 hrs...coz most of the places we found it too boring thus stayed in the van?!


By 4-ish, we were back in the resort...I wif a bad migraine.  Took another panadol, but threw up my whole lunch.  Re-took another panadol, this time Extra.  Slept.  Mom came with swimming attire & asked me to come along...but I told her to go ahead as I wanted to nap due to the migraine. Plus I've no more swimming attire, the previous day I used it, it's already wet. No plan for 2-day swimming.  So I got some peace to sleep.  Till 6.30pm Sis came back to shower.  After that I got up & got ready for dinner.  After dinner, felt a lil btr.  Hang arnd the lobby waiting for the shop to open, till we decided to ask the receptionist & found out that the shop wasn't opening, so we headed back to our kampongs, bathed & settled down.  After watching the slideshow of the pictures of our vacation, till my camera battery went flat, I charged the battery while Bro watched some TV till 10pm, then I decided to put on some song DVDs & chased Bro back to my room to continue watching TV.  He went to sleep instead, while Mom wanted to watch Hrithik's songs.  But halfway thru, I realised I was the only one watching, so I changed to a movie of my choice (Yakeen). 


While watching, I realised it started pouring.  Shit, I'm stuck in this room!!  So I watched Yakeen till almost midnight & decided that since the rain wasn't stopping, b4 it got heavier, I btr dash back to my room.  I packed everything, left it in the safe & then woke Mom up to say I was leaving & if she wanted the door locked.


I was q. scared, but I was smart enuf to leave the veranda light of my chalet on so it wldn't be dark like the night b4 where Mom had to watch me going in.


Mon, 11 Jun


I certainly didn't have a gd sleep the last night as Bro's snoring was terrible.  I listened to my mp3 till it went flat...and I kept getting woken up every 2 hrs due to his snoring.  I went to charge my hp arnd 2-ish & then forced myself to sleep.  I think I somehow managed to...but 2hrs later, arnd 4-ish I got woken up agn, took my hp & listened. But by then I cldn't sleep coz his snoring cld still be heard so since I lost my sleepiness & it was 4.30am...I was at a loss of idea as to how to kill time till 6am.  I wanted to call Mom if she's awake (usually on vacations she sleeps till 3am & after that will remain awake!!)...but if I call, Amsyar will wake up.  I didn't wanna go out of my chalet @ that hr in case Mom's asleep & if I knock, she'll be shocked & I'll feel bad abt disturbing her sleep.  So this was what I did.  I on my TV...put the volume to as loud as possible, loud enuf not to be bothered by Bro's snoring (yet the TV vol didn't wake him up!!)...they were playing this interesting movie on Star Movies - Bigger Than The Sky - so I decided to watch it...but I think the TV ended up watching me...coz I got a morning call from Sis @ 6-ish and saw the credits running!! Haha.


But finally, it's morning. I got up, got ready for check-out & left for b/fast by 8am.  After that we just hang arnd the lobby, snapped photos...till the coach came & took us back to the jetty for our ferry which was coming in 1/2hr. 


We were all so glad that it was time to go home.  Apart from the disappointing vacation...it was also coz just the day we were departing, I discovered that Amsyar's eye which had been red for the past 1 wk & everyone tot it was coz he was sleepy, actually had a cataract-looking piece of skin on his eye.  We had no heart seeing him with that kinda eye during the vacation & just wanted to be back in S'pore so we cld bring him to the Doc.  We dropped by some stop for lunch (which was the most comfortable eating place in the whole of M'sia - home like Indian food & no cats!!)...after that it was straight to JB. 


But the bad times weren't over yet.  B4 reaching JB, Hjh Sukina told us that the bus driver just informed her that he has no permit to enter S'pore thus we'll have to change bus (the driver made arrangement already to change us at a Pump Station).  After we got on the new coach (stil SVIP), we were informed that all will be dropped at Beach Rd.  I told her that's ridiculous, we were supposed to be dropped at where we were picked (ie. Eunos or Bedok for those residing at the East)...then she started going on & on & I just told her "so basically, we've no choice la?!?! So Beach Rd it'll have to be la!"  I just snubbed at her.  I think my Bro, who was sitting with me, cld sense I was really pissed.  He's as cool as a cucumber...no matter what happens, he just smiles it off & move on, altho we all know he must be regretting spending $225 on a screwed-up vacation!!  We told Dad we'll come back by cab & not to bother to fetch us back as it's late & we dunno where in Beach Rd we'll be left at.


Hjh Sukina bargained with the driver, but didnt get anyway & so all of us were just left stranded @ Beach Rd almost 11pm wif a sleeping baby!!  I knew that the taxi driver took us for a ride just to pretend that he didn't know the way in S'pore, so he purposely took a wrong exit by not exiting at Moulmein Rd...and went 1 round b4 reaching Beach Rd.  We cld've reached 1/2hr earlier otherwise!  While Sis & Bro went to get supper, Mom & I queue for taxi...but when it was our turn, while waiting for them to come back, we allowed those behind us to get on the taxi 1st till they came.


The taxi driver we got wasn't really keen for Tampines, but relented reluctantly.  He really was very attitudey...put on a deaf-ear when I give him instructions.  When I told him to exit by Bedok Reservoir, I knew he heard but he didn't acknowledge.  He drove so frighteningly - no courtesy to other drivers & kept overtaking cars at the last minute to get to the left lane when I instructed him agn to exit by Bedok Reservoir.  It was really scary...I gestured to Mom a malay proverb which meant "when the shit is abt to come out then go look for toilet!"  After that, when we reached our block, I told him to stop "after the lamp-post"...and straightaway he stopped at the lamp-post.  I told him to "move further a bit"...I repeated agn since he didn't move...then I saw him pressed the meter, so I decided to give up...really pissed!  I mean, what's a bit further, I don't think it'll be another cent even!  But at least we'll be nearer to the lift!


I went out of the cab...while bringing out our luggages from the boot, I mumbled to Bro & Sis in disappointment "kesian eh, there's a lot of deaf ppl in this world...".  When I turned, I saw Bro opening the door...I thought he was gonna thank the driver (which he nvr does!)...then I heard him questioning the driver abt his attitude & why cldn't he move forward a bit when we asked him to!  I was like shocked!  My cucumber-cool Bro had reaction!!  And that was really touching.  I guess, the cab driver's attitude was the last straw for him...and he refused to tolerate it!  A pity none of us took down the cab no. or I cld've complained (what I'm gd at!).  I just told Bro to "forget it...let's go"...the driver tried to defend himself by saying I told him to stop at the lamp-post...to which I screamed back "I told u AFTER THE LAMP-POST...and after you stopped, I told u to move forward a bit, not once but twice, but u ignored!" .... then I tol him "Nvm, just leave it...it's over anyways!"...and I tol Bro to leave him, no pt!


But I really appreciated my Bro's action.  At least he served his purpose - TO PROTECT US, BEING THE ONLY MAN IN DAD'S ABSENCE.


We reached home almost midnight & we quickly took turns to settle down...I slept arnd 1-ish after catching up on Indian Idol which I recorded.  Rested the following day...went out in the late afternoon to do my banking biz...and ngaji @ nite...& then back to damn office yest'day (Wed, 13 Jun).


I thought I can't always come back from a vacation & rave abt how I enjoyed my vacation...it was beginning to sound cliche...so here I am telling u what a horrible vacation I had!!  So unfulfilling that I'm considering another getaway when I can at the end of the yr...but it's at my expense coz I've claimed my 2007 travel subsidy of $350 for this vacation!


Meanwhile, I look forward to my Bangkok official trip this Fri, 15 Jun.  My first time on a plane!!  At age 30!! Can u believe it? Unimaginable. Coz I'd always thought I'd be on a plane either for my honeymoon or NEVER (if I don't get married that is)!!  But I got this opportunity the moment I got upgraded.  Coz usually they do a rotational airport trip (BKK, HK & KL airports) to do price survey, but as a clerical, I wasn't qualified to go (the organisation wldn't spend on a clerical!) although I'm pro enuf where surveys are concerned & sending me wld serve more purpose than the inexperienced ones!  Oh well, beauracracies of Govt. sector!

Monday, June 4, 2007

Countdown begins...

5 more days & off I am to Pulau Pangkor!! Finally the week has arrived.


I took leave on 1 Jun (Fri) so I had a looongg wkend (Thurs-Sun)...which is abt to end in less than 12 hrs!!  *sob sob*  It's been a tiring long wkend...except for today, I've been out almost all the other days! 


Thurs


Believe me...I forgot what I did on Thurs!!  I remember waking up v. irritated bcoz Amsyar was cranky as early @ 8-ish - his routine noise when he's being dressed after bath!!  End up I got up @ 9-ish.  Already I slept almost 4am (insomniac) thus watched DVD (Good Boy Bad Boy) till 3.30am.  Oh ya, I remember now...I wanted to play my Video Game, but the console was faulty (dunno if it's battery or the game console itself has died!)...so I ended up watching Namastey London on DVD during the day...play wif Amsyar when he woke up...and just bum arnd watching TV whole day.  Ch5 showed Shallow Hal & 50 First Dates back to back.  So I watched that...till 9pm after 50 First Dates ended...I dozed off.  After 20mins, I went to my room, to cont napping intending to wake up arnd midnight...but Amsyar came to my room & crawled all over me @ 10.30am!!  I slept for 13hrs!!! Wow!


Fri


Fri brought Mom jln2 (I like to go out during office hrs as it's less crowded)...so we went to try this Sri Bistari Changi Village's Nasi Ayam Penyet at its Tampines outlet @ Blk 462.  It was disappointing. Not bcoz the food sucks.  But bcoz the environment/service sucked big time.  No plates, so eat on styrofoam.  It's a small outlet, barely 3 tables in it.  No drinks.  Had to go to 7-11 nxt door to get us a drink.  Already it started pouring so heavily when we reach, so I get drenched despite an umbrella, so such ambience for lunch really spoilt my mood.  After that went Tekka...juz jln2...after that went Geylang (Joo Chiat Complex) coz Mom wanted to trade in her bracelet which Amsyar broke it!  Came home almost 7pm.  Waited for 10pm for my usual dose of Saregamapa on Zee TV, Indian Idol3 on Sony @ 11.30pm & Star Voice of India on Star Plus @ 1.30am.  I'm this bz every Fri & Sat nite from 10pm - 1.30am!!


Sat


Woke up 10-ish as usual thks to my "baby alarm clock".  Baby sit him while Mom works in the kitchen.  After I had my bath & did my zuhur, Sis came & asked for co. to go test drive.  We went to Automobile Megamart to test drive a Suzuki Swift from Hua Yang, but for some for some reasons, we had to wait for something, for abt 1/2hr, so we decided to check out the other showrooms.  Landed at Borneo Motors.  So Sis managed to test drive the Toyota Yaris she's been eyeing for!!  The car's really cool!  I'm over VIOS, and is now in love with the Yaris.  If I have the money, I'll change to it...instead of Hyundai Verna!  After that, came home & waited for Mom to get ready to bring Am out to the Mall & had dinner at Kopitiam @ Tamp Mall.  Actually, I wanted to go to Century Sq to buy a mattress for my queen bed...but in the end, it was too expensive, so I forego the idea...for now.  Came home almost 6pm...played wif Amsyar for a while...after he slept, went to my room to watch DVD (Shakalaka Boom Boom - CRAPIEST movie of 2007!)...after that was multi-tasking wif my usual Fri/Sat nite routine...till 1.30am...by then I got a migraine so I took 1 panadol & went to sleep.  Which is so not like my usual Sat!!


Sun


Woke up almost 10.30am (by who else??!)...after that babysit Amsyar while Sis went for her hair treatment & carwash...kept Mom company in the kitchen while she prepares Laksa.  After that Amsyar was really becoming a handful...so I put him to sleep.  After that, it was peace for 1hr...I helped Mom to clear the kitchen quickly & we gobbled up the laksa peacefully!  After we settled dwn...then Amsyar woke up.  By then his Mom was already back...so I left them, while I did my packing.   Sis wanted to test drive a Toyota IST at Malay Village...but I'm not abt to go out today...the last day of my looong wkend!!  I've to do my ironing, packing (Mom has given a earful that she wants me to pack this wkend & not do a last min packing as usual!).  I just love the last min packing thrill. Hehe.  I had to do my waxing etc, which I'd planned to do by this wkend as we'll be off to Pulau Pangkor nxt wkend.  Managed to do all that I had to do for the day...incl clip my nails!!  Hehe.  Amsyar really takes up my time & leave me wif no time to do anything...the only time I get to do anything is when he's sleeping!!  When awake, the moment he sees my face (or anyone's face) ... he'll throw tantrums to wanna be carried & entertained!


It's way past  9pm...and I btr cherish the remaining hrs b4 the looong wkend ends.  Gotta do my isya' & my usual Sun nite routine (masque routine)...and then settle dwn for Ugly Betty.  There's DON (the original - Amitabh) showing on Sony tonight @ 10.30pm...gonna be catching that (from start & hopefully till end)...coz I always watch half hr after start & stop watching half hr b4 it ends!


Tomoro's back to work...Mon-Thurs...gotta slot in my usual survey routine from this mth...got a break since Feb due to the T3 tenders that we were bz wif!  The bz/stressful period @ work is over for me.  Now I'm catching up & getting back on track.


I've been upgraded since 1 Apr after a long irritating wait since I graduated in Dec 05...and having to resort to UNION's intervention.  Wif the upgrade, I got myself a cubicle at work...more privacy...away from distractions & copycats!!


Fri 8 Jun...off for my vacation, back on 11 Jun...but will be on leave on 12 Jun to rejuvenate.  After that back to office on 13 & 14 Jun...before being sent to Bangkok's Suvarnabhumi Airport wif a Manager for price survey.  It's a 1 day thingy...leaving on the 1st flight & coming back on the 2nd last flight).  Ok...this is weird enuf & can contest for a feature on Ripley's believe it or not...but I'm 31 & this is gonna be my 1st flight!!  I hope I don't freak out like Kajol did in Pyaar To Hona Hi Tha!  Mom keeps telling me "Hey, indirectly, your dream of traveling on a flight is fulfilled!".  True...but what saddens me is that my 1st flight is for work & not vacation (or honeymoon as I had predicted)!


Oh well...I can't stop laughing at the way Suvarnabhumi is being pronounce - Su-Wana-Poom!!!  Wah lao...nothing like how it's spelt!!


Ok then...I'll probably be back here after my vacation...so try not to miss me too much!


PS:- Nikky - Jhoom Bharabar Jhoom (I've been booked for this...hehe) is releasing nxt wk only...so maybe we catch up when the movie is released ok...likely will be after my vacation.


Ciao!

Friday, June 1, 2007

Life since May 07

My organisation finally upgraded me to a higher post w.e.f 1 Apr 07 - after I involved UNION after getting tired of waiting for 14 mths since I graduated in Dec 05 & submitted my degree & my request to be upgraded!  Looking back, I think I'd probably have gotten it faster if I was YELLOW!  It sucks to be a minority!  Really, Shilpa (Shetty).


Upgraded at last...but all I wanted was the extra income (peanuts!) every mth.  Wasn't interested with all the other additional perks, like a cubicle or designation etc.  Since I know we were shifting office this yr, I told my bosses I didn't wanna move into a cubicle as I've 3 time-sensitive issues on my plate & thus, no time to waste on shifting.  But I got a hint later that we might not shift office that soon...at least not this yr, since something major is going to happen after 1 Jul.  So since there's this v. cozy cubicle (away from everyone) in our ex-meeting-room-turned-into-office-space...which we fondly call the FISH TANK; basically, a glass room with 7 mgr's cubicles & 1 officer's cubicle.  There's only 3 mgrs in that room, while the rest of the vacant cubicles being made as storage space.  With more and more officer's joining our Dept., I decided that I wanted to have that lone officer's cubicle at any cost - to free myself from copycats, kaypoh colleagues & distracting stupid phone conversations with kids/husbands/siblings!!!!  Gosh, I think I'm the only 1 who wastes my hp bill to get out of office to use my hp to talk long personal stuff!


Anyways, by 3rd wk of Apr, the person responsible for the mess at the vacant officer's cubicle finally cleared the mess for me...and by May I shifted all my stuff (over 3-phases after office hrs) & officially started work @ my new workstation:


New workstation


That's a peak into my private & peaceful workstation!  A v. productive place to work with lesser distractions.  Only complaint: my neighbour (the only guy in the fish tank) has a habit of slamming phone/drawers!!  I think 1 day, he's gonna get an email from me asking him for a favour to be more mindful of his own actions, as he now has a neighbour!!


So that's the latest change in my life since 1 Apr 2007.  When my boss was putting me up for the upgrade, she kept emotionally-blackmailing me "u know la ha, wif a higher post, u've to expect more responsibilities"...& I'd cut her saying "Yea, yea, that Spiderman dialogue - with great power comes great responsibility!"...I felt like also telling her "Harlow! W/o the higher post, all these yrs I'm already doing what that higher post officer shld be doing, how much more can you add on me!?!"  I hope they know I'm not some battery-operated robot!! 


Oh well, meanwhile...I shall just enjoy whatever I have while it lasts!