27 Dec 06: Happy 41st B'day Salman!!

Hehe...gone were the days when I used to celebrate Salman's b'day (until 2001) & wld insist everyone wish my Salman Happy Birthday!!  The same way I'd celebrate "my" (read: Madhuri) b'day every 15th May.

Although I dont celebrate Salman's b'day anymore since 2001, I still remember it.  Cant help it la...since 1991 ok!

Haiz...sian ah...tomoro back to work.  Nvm, 2 more days & after that another long wkend!  Then 2 more wks & it'll be payday!!  Yippeee!  I love it when payday is on a Fri - can shop over the wkend!

Anyways...it's been raining non-stop yest'day so I was like on Home Quarantine Order.  Used the HQO to do my personal stuff.  Things I've not had time to do for a while now.  I even didnt wanna sleep early to enjoy the last day of my vacation leave for 2006 (I'm clearing 2005's leave).  So I put in Dhoom 2's DVD to watch its songs. Think I survived 2 out of 5 songs...was already 3am, so I gave up & decided to sleep since I was already sleepy...*snore*...and then, guess what happened?

Mom woke me up @ 8.30am (I intended to wake up @ 11am)!! Arrrgggghhhh.  As per normal practise on wkdays, she'd wake me up 1 time & leave my door ajar so she can call out for me intermittently.  And her call @ 8.45am woke me up, puzzled "y the hell is she telling me to wake up!??!"

I stormed out of my rm to go toilet...and reminded her "I'm not working tau today, y u wake me up?"  And she apologetically went "Ah? Tak keje?  Sorry sorry, Mama ingat Ina keje...sorry sorry..."  I was like "Lerrr, I oredi say so many times after balik Terengganu, Ina tak keje 2 hari...".  Nvm la, miscomm, Mom's quite blur at times.  While all this was happening, there on Mom's lap was this li'l cartoon flashing his toothless smile & deep dimples to seduce me (to carry him!)...but all he gets is "Gud morninggggg!" 

And then he started begging me (in Mom's voice): "Maasi Maasi...bawak kita gi Mustafa Ctr...kita dah takde baju tangan panjang...asyik ujaaannn je, baju kita tak kering...kita shejuukkk la Maasi...pls Maasiii..."  Ok la ok la...let's go (altho I did argue wif Mom y muz we go Mustafa to buy his clothes when we can juz get it nearby in Tampines!).  But I relented, thinking I shall do a gd deed today, kya pata kal ho na ho...Hehe...So I had b/fast (fried macaroni) & bathed & we left arnd 10.30am.  Did our quick shopping @ Mustafa & headed to Geylang after that (Sis wanted to buy tudung).  After buying Nasi Ayam Sambal for lunch from the new Pasar Geylang, we headed for hm as Amsyar was already hungry & cranky.  Luckily the weather was gd, albeit some drizzle at some pt of time.

Technically, I nvr got to do anything the whole day today...not even the errands I had intended to do @ Bedok...coz after reaching hm @ 2.45pm & after eating my lunch after battling wif a wailing Amsyar, I slept on the couch fm 3.30pm (while watching ZeeTV) till 7.30pm...waking up on & off to babysit cranky & nagging Amsyar coz Mom was having migraine.  I wanted to oso spend some mins wif him as he'll be going back to his hse tonite.  Oh, I've given him yet another new name - Mohd Monsoon!!  Haha...he doesnt stop drooling & makes a puddle out of our clothes (his also!)!!  It's monsoon season u see...it hasnt stopped raining!!

The countdown begins...5,4,3,2,1

I'm enjoying my last day of leave b4 working life starts agn.

I'm gonna be putting on those fats/weight agn soon...I binge a lot when I'm at home (mayb out of boredom or restlessness)!

I'm cursing myself...I've this irritating habit of not remembering to take medication when I'm NOT sick!!  I've been on cholestrol-reduction tablets, shld have finished it in 1 mth.  But it's almost 3 mths & I'm still far from finishing it!  I'm gd the 1st couple of wks, after that, once I stop for a day for some (valid) reason, I lose the momentum & will 4get most of the time!

I'm having fun wif Amsyar @ my hse these 2 days while I'm on leave (pure coincidence!).  He's v. brilliant (takes after his Maasi!)...acts cute & is a charmer!!  But I was really missing those days when he was just born.  U know, those helpless days...when all he does is Sleep, Sleep & Sleep!  Missed those days so much, I ended up creating a new album for his photos which I nvr found time to upload!

I'm wondering WHO THE HELL is thinking abt me/missing me tonight...I've been having hiccups every 1/2 hr since the last 3 hrs!!  Which means this is my 6th hiccup!!  It's so blardy irritating!  To stop it, I've to drink 2 cups of water at least...and as a result, I keep going toilet!!

I'm BACK...damn!!

22nd Dec came & went, before I knew it 25th Dec came & it's time to head back to S'pore!!!  *sigh* Wished my vacation was longer!!

Oh well, nevertheless, syukur Alhamdulillah, we - Mom, my cousin Umairah & I) - went & came back safely.  Albeit encountering floods in Kuantan on our 1st night.  It was exciting coz I've nvr really seen a real flood my whole life, where ppl & cars are stuck by the road & only big vehicles (like buses) was allowed to pass through!! That too, when I look far ahead from the front windscreen of the bus, it looked like our bus was crossing the river!!  I feel like Krrish walking on the waters!!!  Hehehe...

Oh ya, if I didn't get to take the Cable Car @ Langkawi last yr...this yr, I didn't get to see turtles coz it wasn't the egg-laying season!! :-(

All that aside, there were no other irritatedness (esp in the bus) throughout the 4 days, despite having at least 3 kids aged between 1-5yrs in the bus!  Really, no crankiness, no wailings, not even from the baby!!  Surprisingly.  I had my period 5 days prior departure, so the migraine-for-no-ram-reason phase (those who know me well enuf will know what I'm talking abt here!) was way over.  I did get h/ache whenever I get stressed up, eg. by conning shop vendors or poor service, but I was quick enough to pop a panadol xtra & get some sleep in the bus.  Plus, we're usually back to the resort by 5pm (to give the kids time to play at the pool) so the free 'n' easy agenda was a plus point & wasn't too tiring.  I even managed to get a massage @ the Spa!

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 - Day 1 (rather, Nite 1); Departed @ 8.30pm

The butt joke of the trip was: We didn't tell or asked my Mak Besar along, coz Nizam shifted to own flat after marriage, Makni's maid has gone off back to Indonesia, so there's no one to take care of Granny, obviously she can't go.  Errmm, there are other (valid) reasons also why we didn't ask her along (usually we go vacation together, until the last couple of yrs).  Guess what?!  While waiting for our bus to depart after Immigration @ S'pore, we saw Mak Besar & hubby in the next bus!!  We bumped into each other @ JB Immigration, and found out from that we were going to the same destination, staying @ the same resort albeit different travel agent (but usually, the itinerary are the same).  Kwang kwang kwang...

Haha...anyways, at JB checkpoint, our bus cldn't depart coz the 2nd bus is still stuck @ Choa Chu Kang meeting point coz 2 pax didn't arrive.  After some time, we learnt that the 2 missing pax were actually in our bus!!!  They shld've taken the 2nd bus instead.  *sigh*  So now, we had to wait for the 2nd bus to reach JB to transfer those 2 & then both buses can depart together.  That was abt all the irritating hiccups we encountered, which wasted our time!  But it was gd, at least we reached Kuantan @ 5-ish instead of 4am!!  They played Mujhse Dosti Karoge to kill 6hrs in the bus...but I didn't watch...I decided to catch some sleep.

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 - Day 2; Reached Kuantan @ 5.45am

Reached Kuantan & stopped by a surau for Fajr prayers.  After that, we had b/fast (I had pratha).  After that, the M'sian Guide brought us to Telok Chempedak beach since it stopped raining.  Just in case we don't get to enjoy the beach if the rain doesn't stop the whole wkend.   After that, we headed to Terengganu (3hrs), had lunch along the way & then checked-in at Awana Kijal arnd 3pm.  After that it was free 'n' easy.  We finally got our keys & got into our Room 533 arnd 3-ish.  We checked the rm, called the maintenance to fix the faulty toilet door etc & settled dwn almost 5pm, afterwhich I rang the Spa & asked if there's a freak chance I cld visit them for a massage & they said YES!  So I went dwn & got myself a 1hr well-deserved massage, which was really worth my RM120 (S$50).  Luckily I opted for "medium" Javanese massage, in case "soft" massage wldn't be worth the money & "hard" massage wld kill!!  In the 1st place, I can't believe I was able to go to the spa impromptu...usually such places require prior reservation, right?!  To top that, I was the only 1 in the room (for 2), so it was indeed peaceful & relaxing for me!

After massage, since Umairah & my mom (who took a nap when I went to the spa) were already up, after they did their solat maghrib, we walked to a nearby shop for dinner.  Back to room by 9pm & we all settled dwn.  Mom & Umairah slept early, I was the only insomniac & TV addict...plus they had cable channels which I don't have back at home, so I wanted to make full use of it!! Hehe.

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 - Day 3; Terengganu tour

Day started early, earlier for Mom & Umairah who had to pray, but 7am for me!!  That's early ok!  I only opened my eyes when Mom told me it's SIMON BIRCH showing on TV.  I love that movie!  After that I woke up & got ready & we left for b/fast arnd 7.45am.  Bus leaving @ 8.30am.  Our 1st stop was the Noor Arfa Batik factory.  After that went to the Pasar Besar Payang (which reminded me of Tekka market!) & that's when the tiring time of the trip was.  Coz it's crazy shopping time for Mom & we had to also have our lunch in that span of 2hrs given...so it was a mad rush esp after wasting almost 1/2hr trying to find a money-changer or Maybank ATM but to no avail.  So by lunch, I was getting a slight h/ache so I popped a panadol in bus while on the way to our 3rd stop, ie. the Masjid Terapong (floating mosque).  After that, back to resort arnd 4-ish & the time is all ours agn.  I wanted to go cycling since we can nvr find time to go to the beach to cycle in S'pore.  Luckily Umairah cycles, so I've a partner.  Waited for the sun to go dwn while I sleep off my h/ache.  Arnd 6-ish we left...took a slow walk to the beach & reached the bicycle station @ 6.30pm.  Guess what I saw on the signboard "opens 9am-6.30pm".  Damnit!!  So disappointing!!  There goes our cycling plan.  But since there's no souls on the beach, Umairah & I just strolled while Mom sat dwn & listen to her mp3.  By 7pm we made our way back to our room & settled dwn.  Umairah ordered ice-cream while Mom & I just had kuaci & Tiger biscuits with tea/coffee for dinner.  After that...they did some reading while I watched TV...then they slept while I still watched my TV!  What can u expect from a couch potato huh!?  Nothing much really!  I slept arnd 11-ish. 

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 - Day 4; Time to go home!

Another early morning for me.  This time even earlier coz Mom was really forcing me to wake up when it was just 6.30am.  It's check-out day, so she wanted me to have more time for packing up.  But I had already done my packing up the night b4, so I just needed to iron my clothes & keep my toiletries after I'm done.  But oh well, since she was making a lot of noise, I might as well just get off the bed.  Bathed, ironed, got ready & left the room by 7.20am.  Bye bye room!  Met Mak Besar agn @ b/fast table.  After b/fast, Mom sat wif Mak Besar while Umairah accompanied me to the back of the resort (the pool/golf/beach area) to fulfill my final photography craze!!  We had fun posing for photos & video-ing the resort. 

After that it's time to go home.  Interestingly, it was a straight journey (no more shopping), except for breaks for solat/lunch.  The only stop we took was at Gelang Patah which was abt 5pm, which means we'd be in S'pore b4 7pm (expected 2b in S'pore arnd 10-11pm & home by midnight as per our normal trips).  So we bought Roti John/Murtabak @ Gelang Patah for dinner @ home.  Reached S'pore safely @ 6.30pm, msg-ed Dad & Sis.  Dad offered to fetch us, Sis told me to tell Mom she & Amsyar will come on Tues morning.  I know Mom was quite disappointed at the idea of not seeing Amsyar (she's been missing him)...but I've been telling her since Sun night when she called Sis & asked her to come over wif Amsyar on Mon night when we're back home, that it's no pt having Amsyar home just to fulfill her desire, but she wont have time to sit & play wif him; it's not fair for him, he doesn't wanna see our faces only, he wanna be carried & played wif!!  So it's best we have time to do our unpacking/washing/settling dwn & then give all our time to Amsyar on Tues, which she agreed. 

Dad fetched us @ Bedok drop-off point @ 7.30pm & we were home-sweet-home b4 8pm.  I opened the door & got a shock seeing Sis folding clothes wif Amsyar sleeping on the floor!!  Blardy hell...she lied to me!  But it was a pleasant X'mas surprise from Santa!! Hehe.

And guess what?  Dad painted his room green!!  What the hell was wrong wif him, in our absence?!!?  I mean, he hasn't painted for more than a decade now (I only remember him painting when I was a li'l kid, that too in the previous hse, this hse, NVR!)!!  It has always been Mom doing the painting in the hse.  Mom went in to shower but still didn't realise, till I asked Dad "what happened to your room?!"

All's well that ends well...I'm now enjoying my leave, today & tomorrow.  After that, Thurs, 28 Dec, it's back to office...and the mundane routine of life.  Till my nxt vacation 365 days from today, Insyallah!

I'm GONE...yeehar!!

Off to Terengganu for a quick getaway! 

<- PICTURE ME HERE

No idea what the shit am I doing here wif only 70% of packing done & leaving home in 2hrs!  I btr get going...Insyallah back here on Tues 26 Dec 2006.

A weekend off from Amsyar...

...means I cld wake up late on Sat & Sun (it's been 3 mths since I've been deprived of that!)

...means I cld get a lot of things done (coz I don't have to babysit him!).

...means I can watch TV real loud @ the living rm & not worry that our Chote Badmaash will be awakened (otherwise, it'll be a tough time to put him back to sleep...he'll wanna play!)!

Yea...this is the 1st wkend since Sep that there's no usual cries or laughter of a baby. I came home from survey (work) on Fri nite finding him gone.  I woke up @ 11.15am on Sat coz it was really peaceful.  Amsyar's not arnd!! Yeehar!  I'm sure Mom misses his presence a lot...but for me, I accomplished sooo much over this wkend.

SATURDAY

I cleaned my fan. 

I clipped my nails (believe me, I don't get time to do even this simplest thing wif him arnd, I clip my nails in the office during my lunch hr!)

I did my waxing & gave myself a good scrub (usually, when I'm on this monthly routine, I spend at least 1.5hrs in the bath!)!

SUNDAY

I did my 2 weeks' worth of ironing & finished it in 2hrs while watching Nach Baliye 2 on Star Plus (Ch 41)!!

Now, isn't it amazing how a li'l baby can change one's life so much there's just no time for anything?!?  Thank God he's not MY baby...so anytime I wish, I can just say bye-bye to him, forsake him & go do my things!!

Ok, what the hell am I doing here blogging when I'm supposed to be getting ready to go for my Sunday's usual beauty appt?  Yea...will do that in just a while...at this moment, having done everything I needed (except go give my annual donation to Darul Ma'wa & Darul Takrim), I'm excitedly counting down to Fri 22 Dec for my well-deserved vacation to Terengganu!  At 30, this will be the 1st time I'll be out of S'pore on Christmas.  Let's see how Christmas mood/deco is in M'sia plak ok.

I'm on a 3-day course @ IPAM tomorrow till Wed, so that's really WOW...no need to see arseholes' faces!  Back on Thurs & Fri morning but no sweat, coz I'll be v. occupied rushing a lot of stuff so I can take my well-deserved break peacefully & come back to office on Thurs 28 Dec... rejuvenated!  Sadly...the arseholes will still be there...but life goes on, na?  At the most, I'll show them this attitude:

Don't play play ah...I got gangster tengek @ home! He'll be back home tonite when I come home from my appt. Likely to be sulking wif everyone coz we nvr appear in front of him like we always do whenever he opens his eyes!  Awww...

Now, I HAVE TO watch Bipasha in CORPORATE!

I read the rave reviews abt her performance in CORPORATE...but I didn't know it was THAT good that she cld beat the likes of Kajol (Fanaa), Rani (KANK), Kareena (Omkara) & Alice Patten (Rang De Basanti) & walked away with the BEST ACTRESS award at the Global Indian Film Awards (GIFA) in KL last wk!

I didn't really like her in Ajnabee & Raaz when she 1st came into the industry as I felt like she was a slut & she used that to her benefit to gain entry into the industry.  But after "knowing" her btr & few movies later, I grew to like her since Mere Yaar Ki Shaadi Hai.  Since then, she's 1 of my fave actresses whom I hope to see at the TOP soon.

Sony's showing the GIFA telecast tomorrow night @ 10.30pm, so I'll be glued to the TV.  Of course, to motivate myself, I had to find out if the winners are those I like or the usual biased ones (like SRK, Rani, Amitabh, bla bla bla).  I'm glad KANK didn't win any popular awards at all, except Abhishek for Best Supporting Actor...didn't I say that the only thing/one who was gd in KANK was Abhishek & SRK's son!!  So yea, I was worried that Abhishek might lose the award to his Dad who's nominated in the same category for the same movie...but the BEST man eventually won!  Yeayy!

Saif won Best Villain for OMKARA (an 'adaptation' of Shakespeare's OTHELLO)...I've not seen OMKARA...but since I like Saif & I know he's gd in whatever he does (whether it's romantic hero or comedy), I'll still give him a clap although I had wanted Jon Abraham to win for Zinda.  Ok, Jon didn't win, but at least his gf Bipasha emerged victorious so he still can celebrate.  Hehe.

Didn't think Hrithik was that fantastic in Krrish (unlike Koi Mil Gaya), but I always believed that Hrithik will always excel whenever he's with his DAD.  There's some unexplained theory...I think it's in their horoscope perhaps...hehe.  So yeah...Hrithik had to win...I was banking on Aamir (Rang De Basanti)...but as long as SRK didn't win for KANK, I'm HAPPY!!! 

The rest of the categories...I don't give a damn! Hehe.

TomKat=Suri

This is probably long overdue.  I can't help it anymore.  Not that I wanna be a kaypoh...don't really give a shit abt celebrity couple/child...but I can't help still wonder whenever I see Baby Suri...how come a combination of gorgeous Tom Cruise & Katie Holmes can produce a chinese/japanese looking Baby Suri eh?!?! What went wrong (My naughty brain is saying Katie had an affair with Jackie Chan or Jet Li!)?

Li'l Rascal is back!

Did I tell u I fondly call Amsyar "Bobo" whenever I'm in a bozo (clown) mood?  Anyway, ya, Bobo MMS-ed me this morning asking "Maasi dah mandi?  He added he dah "pengsan" coz gotta drink milk.  I dunno y this li'l rascal is not drinking milk anymore!!  Mention milk & he'll close his eyes, pretending to sleep.  Badmaash!

My childhood fantasy got shattered @ age 30!!  Was sitting in the train otw 2 survey juz now & an Air Force's ad banner caught my attn; "there's no such thing as UFO"!! *sob sob*  Means I'll nvr ever encounter E.T. or Jaadoo (Koi Mil Gaya).

Talking of MRT, I realise I miss a lot by not taking public transport.  I saw a Hindustani expat in the train (I've seen him & drooled b4 also, last mth!).  The last time I saw him, we both were standing.  Yesterday, he caught my attn agn, this time we both were sitting.  I was sitting across him, diagonally.  He was bz reading a book while I checked him out behind my blue shades.  He cld easily pass off as a character actor in Zee TV's serial...hehe.  Just as I got up to alight at my station, his mobile rang & he took the call.  I managed to take a last glance at him & holy shit...he has a stump for his right little finger!!  Must have been a mishap!  At that moment, Hrithik came to mind.  So called drop dead gorgeous, yet imperfect (his right thumb).  At that moment agn, I thank God for making me not so drop dead gorgeous, but at least I'm complete...a few screws loose, but that's ok, nobody knows.  Hehe.

Today, I saw a chinese guy...his hand & face is even worse than mine (must be severe dermatitis)...almost his whole arm is dry & peeling like orange, even almost his whole face is like that.  He was hugging a malay girl.  Wow.  Not bad.  I'm moved that despite his imperfection, the girl cld look byond his physicalities & yet accept him.  How noble.  Coz I'm not.

Oh well, it's been an eye-opening journey on the MRT these couple of days!

A night off from Amsyar

Yeehar!! No Amsyar tonight!

Sis' Pasir Ris house is almost cleaned up so she's brought him back there to overnight.  Trial.  Coz 22nd-25th Mom & I going Terengganu, so she'll have to take care of Amsyar herself...she btr get him used 2 the Pasir Ris hse, or else...she's gonna have a hard time wif that brat of hers!!

I know Mom will miss him, afterall, he's been the apple of everyone's eyes.  Mom has been sleeping wif him for 3 mths.  It's only recently after I keep nagging @ her 2 let Sis handle him @ nite that she started 2 let Sis sleep wif him!  Today while I was @ Harvey Norman @ Millenia, I came across this digital-printing booth that I cldnt resist but make these calendars! 1 for myself + 2 free ones for Mom & Sis (for $8)!  So Mom wont miss Amsyar too much!

Can you imagine how it is like @ home now?  After 3 mths, I finally can go have supper while watching TV in the living room wif lights on w/o anyone telling me to lower the vol. of the TV!!!  Yes, I'm v. hungry right now...gonna do juz that!!

Meanwhile...no one's worried anymore abt how Amsyar is coping wif his Mom @ his own hse...coz Sleeping Beauty MMS-ed a "gd nite" msg for all of us @ 10pm...wif this picture of him sleeping soundly!  Pandai Mama tido kan Amsyar...Hehehe...

WARNING: Potentially Controversial Topic

What's with Muslim men today eh?

Why do most think Islam=Nabi Muhammad S.A.W?

So 2b on the right track, they must do EVERYTHING that Rasulullah did?! Even if that meant doing or following it blindly!!

Why do most think that their deen (religion) will only be complete if they've filled their quota of 4 wives (like Rasulullah)?  Harlow..Rasulullah didn't marry 4 for the fun of it ok!!  If it was out of lust, he wld have married virgins or unmarried gorgeous women! 

In general, polygamy is permitted in Islam only so that women/children who may be subjected to abuse or destitution can be protected.  That too if those men who wants to marry the women can afford to be fair to each families, financially or otherwise.  Correct me if I'm wrong, but at least that's what I've learnt since my teenaged years.  If nothing of that sort, then if for the sake of marrying another woman, the most basic criteria set

a) is CHRONICALLY ill;

b) cannot have children.

Fair enough.

So?  I fail to see the logic/reason behind all those royal figures in M'sia (for instance) marrying gorgeous celebrities!  Those celebrities are rich enough to fend for themselves...and they also dont have orphaned children that needs protection!!

Oookaaay...I'm going overboard eh?  The only reason for this post is bcoz 3 yrs ago, I learnt that a close family friend - Suraiya - whom I've not met but knows of her existence from my parents, is being ill-treated by her hubby since she got married (her hubby & MIL even disallowed her from meeting or being in contact wif her parents!).  To make things worse, the discovery was a shock bcoz Suraiya is actually the SIL of this chap I was seeing, but jodoh tak panjang (as usual the guy kept going MIA & I'm too mature for such childish games!).  Of coz, when I discovered that truth abt the household (that Suraiya's MIL is not a gd person, her hubby is a wife-beater), I sujud syukur & thanked Allah for saving me.  Then, just now, after ngaji, Maslin's mom opened topic with Ustazah abt a polygamy marriage she "rewang" at over the wkend. Somehow, as her story went on, I begin to suspect something & after some probing, I discovered that the groom was actually Suraiya's hubby!  Son of a bitch!!  I am really shattered.  How dare he!  Suraiya must be under some spell to actually consent the marriage!  She loves the husband too much to report him!  *sigh*

With this discovery, suddenly I find each one of my pasts haunting me.  Yesterday (Mon), I was chatting with Tehzeeb & a topic abt Suraiya & hubby came abt which led to another emotionally-abused-wife story which led to the discovery that person is actually my best fren in Pri Sch - Nadia - whom I've lost touch wif since we entered Sec Sch.  To confirm if it's the same Nadia, I scanned her photo from my Pri Sch autograph bk & showed Tehzeeb.  After that, I felt so nostalgic abt reading the autograph bk that I opened my Sec Sch's autograph bk...only to stumble upon the photo of my 1st ever guy fren of 7 yrs.  I shall not get into the details of my beautiful friendship with him as it'll only make me remorseful of how stupid & arrogant of me to reject Allah's gift for me 10 yrs ago!  Maybe Allah has not forgiven me yet for that mistake I made.  Just maybe.  But it was nice recollecting all the gd memories with him.  Oh, btw, I discovered that he is related to Tehzeeb! 

Hmmm...now...this world is getting scarily too small for me & Tehzeeb.  It's like everything that happened in our lives are interwined with each other!  As though we were meant to save each other from destruction!!  If only we knew each other much earlier...that'll be fun...Perhaps today we'd go "cuci mata" together.  Hehe.

Finally...the most hyped about wedding is OVER!!

Green & white was the theme of my cousin Nizam's wedding this wkend, so I'm addicted to green for now (that explains the font colour!). 

Nizam & I, both born 1976...both have been the pillar of strength to our own Moms by getting things done...both shares the same personality/character...both have been evading marriage for like forever, pushing the buck at each other "U 1st...No no u 1st..."  Alas, his "jodoh" came 1st...so it's time he settles dwn. 

It feels like yesterday that his Mom told us Nizam's wedding will be in Dec...b4 I know it 9 Dec is already here.  I didn't even take leave on 8 Dec till last minute I had to beg my boss for leave...didn't get 1 day leave, so I settled for just 1/2 day!  If I didn't my aunt will probably kill me!! I mean, usually weddings r on Sun, so I have a Sat to "rewang"...but 1st time in our family history, the wedding is juz on Sat...which means rewang day is on Fri!!! Imagine, I leave office @ 7.30pm, reach home settle dwn & leave after Isya 4 my granny's place!!  With the 1/2 day at least I've time to come home, settle dwn & head to granny's place after Asar (not too bad...at least I rewang till 11+pm!  Nothing to do already, so decided to put the energy into btr things, like SLEEP!  Had to wake up early on Sat morning coz gotta go granny's place.  The marhaban's @ 10am & the groom's leaving @ 11am 4 the bride's venue for the nikah!

It's been a while since a close cousin (by close I mean those we grow up together with)got married.  So it was fun to 2c every1 get together 2 make it happen.  When I was younger, I had to do "kendarat" duties...we loved it coz we get money!!  U know that flower with a $5 or $10 note for us to pin on our outfit so we can easily be identified as the helpers!!  Now I've retired, coz the adults don't get the flower anymore, they give to the youngsters to motivate them to work!!!  Just when I thot I wanna "cuci mata"...my aunt assigned me 2b Chief Kendarat!  What?!? Supervisor?! Dowan...no incentive!  So she promised me a big "flower", which she has yet to give btw!! 

By 3pm, it got bz & I find that the teenage kendarats were slacking & mingling & having fun with each other & not doing their job properly that I had to step in & did kendarat duties (wash ppl's hands, serve drinks etc!).  Bingit seh!!!  That went on till 8-ish b4 we finally call it a day & excused ourselves.  By then I was very irritable already coz I was too shagged!  So Mom felt we btr go home since even she's tired & Amsyar's gotten cranky as it's his sleep time already.

The gd thing abt the wedding was mtg my former Sec sch mate Norazlina who's married to 1 of Nizam's college buddies.   We really caught up with each other.  Aherm...the 1st thing she said to me when she finally got my attn & I sat dwn with her was "U look soooo pretty"...to which I told her "Really? Yea, in sch I wasn't this pretty rite..."  (hehe, that was just me & my sense of humour!).  She remembered I was so into Madhuri & Salman back in sch.  Madhuri's still v. much me..but Abhishek has taken Salman's place in my life!

The not-so-gd part of the wedding (apart from the few screw-ups which is inevitable in a function no matter how gd the planning is) was the disappointment of seeing how my teenage cousins have all turned into punksters - rebonding & colouring their hair, shaping their eyebrows, piercing their nose.  Yea yea...I know it's fashion, but I don't condone such things while still in sch.  Period.  Anyways, it's over...at least I know I don't have to see their faces anymore...not until the nxt wedding...which is unlikely to happen till the next 2yrs I hope!!

Sooo...I was rite..."Nizam 1st"!  But that also meant trouble 4 me...coz now I've nowhere to run from the pressure of marriage.  As soon as Nizam's wedding was over, I got this from my fave aunt (Mak Ani) & my granny "Now I look forward to your wedding next!"  Arrrggghhh!  Expected, but still...have always hated that qn altho I always get away with my innovative answers all the time!!

That was my Saturday...thot of resting today, but didn't get much rest either today...awakened by the lil cartoon in my hse...making noise @ 10.30am!  I got up, freshen up, had brunch, played with him till he got cranky, cradled him 2 sleep...then did some stuff on my PC while watching TV.  After zuhur (abt 2pm) I got ready & went out with Mom, Sis & Amsyar, to visit my best fren Wirza who gave birth 3 wks ago.  Spent some time (1hr @ her hse)playing with my god-daughter Shamim...cradled the newborn Muhd Syidaad 4 a while...then rushed off 4 my Sunday's beauty routine!  Thank God Sis took over driving, since her car's parked @ my place, so she dropped me off.

Gonna be a loonnggg week...but looking forward to bonus on Tues & then nxt wkend (22 Dec) 4 my well-deserved vacation 2 Terengganu!!  Yeehar!!

Picnic by the Blue X'mas Tree with Nikky

Nikky had booked my Chocolate Chip cookies since b4 hari raya ended, but we juz nvr found time to meet. Finally, now that the X'mas tree deco is up already, we planned our meet up in the airport (it's becoming an annual thing for her to come to airport every Dec just to take pics of the X'mas Tree!!).  Now...

...Kamlee (mad) + MADhuri = MADHOUSE! Nikky + AIRPORT = PHOTOSHOOT! When else can I practise my photography with my new Casio Exilim camera!!?? 

These were what we were up to...

We met @ 7pm...and made our way home @ 10pm.  Something interesting happened.  I've nvr been so flattered b4.  From the time I exit the PIE @ Tampines, I spotted this gorgeous chap staring @ me...and the chap just kept staring...and followed me...I was feeling very uncomfortable.  "Nikky, he's following me!...Omigawd, am I being stalked!?...Oh gosh, I'm getting shy oredi..." 

What's flattering is that no soul has ever pursued me this persistently b4...right from the time I exited the PIE...all the way till I reached my block!!  I must admit it's a bonus that I've always love this chap too...      Mr Full Moon!

Saturday afternoon @ Mustafa Centre

Today was possibly 1 of my best Saturday outing wif family.  Mom wanna buy a non-alcoholic juice to put in the hamper she's making for my cousin's wedding this 9 Dec...so she had asked me yesterday to bring her to Mustafa today if I've no other plans.

Woke up @ 9.30am wif a slight h/ache due to a loud drilling at my block (so I blasted the hindi songs on Oli 96.8FM).  Once the drilling stopped, I went out of my room...washed up, had my b/fast, babysit Amsyar, changed my bedsheet, did some stuff on my PC & then after zuhur, got ready for Mustafa.

Initially since Mom's only buying a bottle of juice, we decided to take the NEL train, but since Sis wanna come along (she ah, pantang ppl going out!!  Now u know where Amsyar got that trait from!?)  So since, Sis is gd wif direction, we decided to drive, but at Your Highness' terms of coz...which means...NO PRAM allowed.  Yea, I hate prams...I find it a hassle!  Mayb coz all my life I nvr see Mom having to use it, so pram & I juz don't gel wif each other! I'm quite traditional, prefer to juz carry babies or use a carrier...that's how I've been whenever I go out wif  my baby cousins wen they were younger!

Oookkaayyy...the outing to Mustafa was fun, albeit it took us 15 mins to get a carpark coz both buildings' carparks were FULL...but the moment I got to enter the carpark, I immediately got a lot near the lift lobby...so it wasn't too tiring. 

Oh well, this was possibly the 1st time Amsyar remained awake outside...so he finally got exposed to a retail environment.  He behaved well & Mom had fun entertaining him & making a cartoon out of him (I've nvr seen a grandma like her)!  He only got cranky much later wen he got uncomfy & sleepy.  But it wasn't too difficult to shut him up! 

I lost $55 @ Mustafa, $22 on gifts & $33 on Shahrukh's & Amitabh's perfumes (Yea...perfume is 1 of my many weaknesses!).

I fell in lurve wif the tin packaging of the SRK's perfume - the hologamic image of SRK & tiger.  Amitabh's perfume bottle was also interesting, the label of his picture is not on the outside, but inside the bottle!!

Awrite, so the outing to Mustafa was real fun (check this out to know why)...but the only drawback for the day was that I came home wif migraine!  So took panadol extra & slept it off, so now it's gone. 

Yesterday I watched Vivah (starring Shahid Kapur & Amrita Rao...latest movie by the maker of Hum Aapke Hain Koun) online till 3am ...Tehzeeb has spoilt me by introducing this to me!  Thot of watching Naksha (stars Sunny Deol, Vivek Oberoi & Sameera Reddy...believe it's an adaptation of Nicholas Cage's NATIONAL TREASURE...*sigh*) now, but guess what?  I think I'll save it for tomoro coz it's 1.30am!!  Gonna hit the sack instead...Chao!

Amsyar is 3 mths old!!

Yeehar!! Lil rascal is 3 mths old!  Growing up fine.

What's he been up to?

• Gets excited @ the sight of ladies with tudung (means going out!!);


• Sleeps the moment we step out of the hse...but wide awake the moment we reach home (and then starts wailing @ being deprived of going jln-jln!);


• Yaks non-stop (in his baby language);


• Recognizes the camera & starts to pose (by flashing his toothless smile & dashing dimples!);


• Has 2b forced to eat/drink his own food/milk but will start drooling or make pathetic faces when we're eating/drinking...wif the hope of getting our food/drink;


• Lurves seeing us (the femme in the hse) dancing;


• Lurves playing "superman"...we'll stand him on our tummy & then lift him horizontally in the air making him fly;


• Lurves to play wif his saliva & making bubble out of his saliva (now imagine him playing "superman" & u'll have saliva raining on u!);


• Responds to hindi music (I'm being blamed for it...sigh);


• Argues back (in his baby language) whenever Mom scolds him;


• Laughs whenever Mom smacks him (gesturing she's angry) & wants more thinking she's playing wif him; and


• Last but not least...guess what?! The wailing hasn't stopped...he still wails for no reason, usually after maghrib/isya' till the time he falls asleep! :-/

Sounds like a 6-12 mth old child?  I swear he's 3 mths old!  See this!  I think he takes after his Maasi's intelligence. *winks*

Bewafa Sanam

Tune mujhse wafa nahin ki...tujhko kaise wafa milegi!  Tune mujhko dard diya hai...tujhko kaise dava milegi!

It wasn't an ez thing to do...but today I did something which perhaps no other girl wld do.  I (finally) mailed his gift back to him with a note telling him "GAME OVER & that I knew of the unfaithful act all along"!  I procrastinated for days & finally found time & strength to put my plan into action, since the time I decided to call it quits 12 days ago.  9 yrs ago, I did the same thing - mailed someone's gift back - and when we got back in contact (on gd terms) couple of yrs later, he told me what I did was cruel (Cruel meh!?).  So why this nasty plan?  Not that I care to know how he'll feel discovering that the one he thot he's been happily lying to & going scot-free knew he was lying & unfaithful all along!!  I cld've juz discarded the gift immediately when I decided to end it 2 wks ago...juz like I immediately deleted everything related 2 him...but no, I needed him to know that I'm not miserable, but am glad Allah saved me b4 it was too late (once agn)!

This (last thing that I needed to do) wldn't hav been possible if "Sunshine" didn't stand by me & accompany me to the post office to get it done.  She even offered to keep the registered-mail tracking slip (since I refuse to even look at it) to check for me if the package has been received!!  Once confirmed received, we're gonna celebrate over lunch!

Whatever happened, I learnt how impt it is to have a strong faith in religion & God...to remember that Allah will nvr test us beyond our ability to handle the test...to acknowledge that there's always a reason, known as a blessing in disguise, behind everything that happens in one's life. 

I realised how lucky & blessed I am to have supportive parents helping me travel thru' this rough patch...making it ezier for me to erase this chapter from my life...pretending it nvr happened & that it was but a nightmare.

I remain eternally grateful to my closest buddies who've been there for me (not in person, but spiritually in thoughts/prayers I'm sure).  I'm sorry I didn't give u the opportunity 2b there for me in times of my sorrow as I didn't wanna transmit any negative energy to other ppl's lives (as though they didn't have enuf problems of their own!).  Still, I can't thank u enuf...even for those things u'd have wanted to say to me but nvr did, coz I nvr gave u the opportunity to.  Thank u (u know who u r).

Perhaps , I'd nvr be able to trust another man agn after this...perhaps, even if I'm destined to get married eventually, I'm sure I'll always doubt & suspect my man, which I know is unhealthy for the relationship.  But I can't help it if in my eyes I see today's men as syaitan bertopeng manusia.

Mayb I shld just sit back & wait for a situation like in the movie Vivah, where someone like Shahid Kapur (don't mind ya Kareena!) comes along.  Until then, I conclude I lurve my singlehood (Errrmmm...I may change my mind if Abhishek comes back to his senses & propose)...no emotional baggage...no over-the-limit phone bills!

4 mths later...I lost 70% of my hair!!!

4 mths ago...I had this much hair after my haircut...

4 mths later...I lost 70% of that hair!  It's cropped!

So short...it'll probably last me for the nxt 6 mths w/o a haircut!! 

Well, whenever I go to a chinese hairdresser, this always happens when I say "layered".  They cut it real short & thin it like horse tail!!  It's free...so I can't complain.

New toy

Looks familiar?! Yeah, u guessed rite!  That's Amsyar...55 yrs ago...Heehee...trying to make a nostalgia effect using my new Casio Digital Camera.  Not bad eh?!? 

Dhoom Machale...

Okie...so I finally caught Dhoom 2 (D:2) with Shazadi last nite @ GV Tampines.  I watched it for Abhishek (only!).  Oh ok, yeah, Uday Chopra too.  But I was prepared that I was gonna hide my face 1/3 of the time whenever Hrithik & Aish appears on the screen.

The nite b4, when I told Tehzeeb of my plan, she told me that her fren watched it & wasn't too impressed (as compared to Dhoom).  The only 1 who was gd & worth watching was Hrithik!  Now how can that be when my Abhi is in !?!?  Obviously he has 2b the BEST rite?!  Well, when Tehzeeb told me she was disappointed wif Amitabh's role in KANK, I didn't believe her till I watched it myself.  She was rite!

Anyways, Yash Raj Films today is nothing but skin-show.  Gone are the sweet romantic love stories like Dilwale Dulhaniya Le Jayenge and Dil To Pagal Hai.  After Dhoom & Neal 'n' Nikki, I wasn't too shocked when I watched D:2 last night.  Well, yeah, what keeps shocking me is the line up of actresses who're slowly made to shed their clothes.  Of coz, the plus pt for them is they get to tone their bodies into such enviable shape (I'm inspired to shape mine like Bipasha's!).  If there's any 1 thing I enjoyed abt D:2 is the stylish movie-making technique (the stunts, the gadgets, the hero's entry scenes)...oh, okaaayyy...how can I 4get the songs...which has no effect on 1st hearing but will eventually grow on u.  I'm so addicted to the song "Dil Laga Na" bcoz Sukhbir Singh (my fave bhangra singer) sang it!  The beat is also...addictive!!  Choreography was...like...WOW (Use of the word LIKE was intentional ;-p...Shazadi will know what I mean!  Bimbo in the making!).

Enuf of what I like?!  Now, if there's anything I hated abt the movie is Aish...her role...her dialogue-delivery...her dressing...her everything.  But I love her lip-kissing scene with Hrithik though...coz that sure will make my Abhishek boil & break-off wif her! Muaaahhhaaaa...*evil laughter*  I mean for someone who went on & on abt refusing to kiss on screen since her 1st film...then she acted in 2 Hollywood films & yet she didn't kiss the Hollywood hero, much to my disappointment!  I mean, Hollywood & no kissing?!? Can't be rite?!?!  They'll mock Bollywood for being so orthodox.  Haha.  But yes, Yash Raj Films did it!  She finally kissed on screen!  Forget kissing.  She was so scantily dressed, I thought they might as well don't waste even that lil bit of fabric on her!!  If she thinks she looks gd...she can carry on thinking.  Her dialogue...oh Gawd...pls spare me!  There was a scene where she & Hrithik will be in confrontation, Hrithik putting a bullet in his gun & both take turns to shoot one another...that scene was such a drag I almost fell asleep & told Shazadi to wake me up if Ali (Uday Chopra's character) comes on.

On the whole, if u compare D:2 with the 1st Dhoom...then I find the thief-at-work scenes in D:2 were more adrenalin pumping.  I like the starting of D:2 as compared to the "Shikdum" song in Dhoom...which was...like...too provocative for a Bollywood film.  But Abhishek's entry in D:2 was WOW...as compared to him waking up in bed in Dhoom!  Hehe.  Songs were almost the same, nothing great at 1st hearing, but grows on u...matter of getting used to.  If Dhoom had Esha Deol playing vamp, D:2 has Aish...so both equally BAD!!  I admit, Hrithik was damn gd in the movie yaar!  Btr than Jon in Dhoom.  While Jon shared screen space wif 4-5 other accomplices, Hrithik had the screen all to himself.  Of coz, 1 will go ga-ga abt his role coz this is the 1st time u see Hrithik not playing hero but playing the negative character, but he really did justice to the role.  This is the 1st film I thought Hrithik proved himself w/o his father's shadow.  *clap clap*  Oh yeah, I personally think his bod looks damn gd D:2 - well-shaped & lean!  Unlike the usual, beefcake. 

Pretty sure D:2 will be a hit worldwide.  I can feel the heat already.  If u like fast-paced movies wif lotsa hunks & babes...go catch D:2.  A treat-to-the-eye!

Retail therapy...Sounds familiar?!

U bet!

That's what I indulge in to keep my sanity whenever I go thru a bad phase in life.  At work, at school, at home...whatever!!

So, if I can just skip the finer personal details, let's just say I've just woken up from a nasty nightmare.  And to shake me off the fear, I underwent a 1-day retail therapy with Mom yesterday (lucky her 2b accompanying me in such a mode!!).  The deal with her was: All expenses for the day's outing shall be borne by me.  It's been years since I get to spend on Mom.  Ye lah, org dapat "durian runtuh" (organisation's profit share payout)...so it's only fair that I pamper Mom for all her the love & hardwork she's showered on us (especially me) all this years.  Unconditionally.  Before I lose the $$$$ in my not-so-sane state, I put aside half into my savings & gave Mom $200 for her savings. 

With the remaining, we left home @ 11am yesterday (Sat), headed for Tekka...as usual, getting a carpark is a torture, but finally did.  The 1st shop I encountered had lousy service that I just walked away...much to Mom's discomfort at not knowing how to handle the situation.  When she gestured to me if she shld buy the rompers for Amsyar, I just screamed over "Don't bother...banyak lagi kedai jual baju baby, this is not the only one!"  I mean, look, here we are interested in the item sold in his shop & when we ask how much, he answered "3 for 10 lah!"...I questioned him "why must have the lah?!  It's not like we're the ones selling or we're supposed to know"  & the Ah-pek dared to answer back "There got what!"... I replied back "As tho we can see the price high up there...even if we did, what's the harm in u just enlightening us...don't u want business?!"  I got real pissed, here I am trying to cheer myself up & this Ah-pek just spoilt the day for me!!  After that...couple of poor service...but everytime I encounter a poor service, I'll walk away.  The gd thing abt Tekka market is u're spoilt for choice!  There's plenty of shops selling the same things!!  And wif each poor service, I get pacified by excellent service.  The best was the shoe shop I got 2 sandals from.

I bought (all prices after-bargaining):

2 rompers for Amsyar - $5

1 Indian sandal for mom - $14

1 sandal for myself - $13

1 Salwar Kameez for mom - $65

1 Indian outfit (exclusive boutique design) for myself - $65

5 kurtis - $45

2 skirts - $18

2 fancy belts - $10

Other miscellaneous stuff Mom bought - $20

I went crazy wif the kurtis...getting at least 1 from each shop that Mom decided to call it quits "I think we btr call our shopping a day now?!".  So I refrained from further buying despite falling in love wif yet another kurti.  It's 1pm...we're starving.  Off we went to Banana Leaf Apollo @ Race Course Road.

Mom got herself her fave - Fish Head Curry, while I indulged myself in the long-missed Masala Chicken Briyani.  I dunno wat abt this restaurant that I keep wanting to come back...but I think it's the banana leaf.  I feel like eating at home...u know...just throw all the food on 1 plate.  Plus it feels like attending a wedding, where the kendarats (the waiters) will keep a lookout & keep coming to u to ask if u want more of anything (eg. rice).  Lunch for both : $35. 

After that we walked to Mustaffa.  Had a nice touching chat wif Mom along the way.  Roamed arnd Mustaffa, contemplating to buy dancing dolls for Amsyar (he responds to anything that moves, like fan...and incidentally, all 3 female members in the house he's in happen 2b cabaret dancers so he gets fascinated by dancing women too!!)...but decided against it for fear that the talking doll might ask for our soul at night.  Eee...scary!!  Hehe.  So we headed to the camera counter...and tadaa...that's when my real retail therapy took place.  For the past 3 mths, I've been eyeing a digital camera - Casio Exilim EX-Z60 ($399) - and now that I'm loaded & depressed, I grabbed it w/o thinking twice.  $345 @ Mustaffa w/free 1GB SD card.  Why not?!? 

After that, we took the NEL train to Little India (don't forget, I parked my car at Tekka!!) as it was raining.  After that, we drove to Geylang as Mom needed to do some errands at some jewellery shops.  Got lost thanks to Mom's "superb" direction!  Shld have taken the expressway @ exit Paya Lebar rather than trust her to cut thru Lavendar & Kallang roads!! Dunno where we landed at also!  Last thing I spend on @ Geylang is a blue tudung (to match a Salwar Kameez mom sew for me...the blue is so unique, there's just no matching tudung!)...aaahhh...just $6 @ First Lady.

Total damage for the day: $641

Okieeee....I feel gd!!  Went home happy...all purchases were gd, no problem.

Earlier today, a while ago, I drove Mom to EastPt, bringing Amsyar along for his compulsory daily outing (but all he does is sleep anyways & when we reach home, he'll be wide awake & start getting cranky wanting to go out!! Urrrgghh...badmaash!!).  Yeah, Mom wanted to collect her new glasses from Optic Point.  But guess what?!? The glasses were not ready despite them indicating the collection date as 26 Nov!! Damn.  What's wif all this poor service I'm encountering each day?!?!  Anyways...didn't wanna feel like a wasted trip...I went to Pedal Works (my fave shoe shop) & ended up getting a sandal for myself.  $39. 

Add that to yesterday's damage...$680.  Ok, she's really out of her mind! 

Wait...1 more thing to do b4 I call it quits.  I need a hindi movie!  DHOOM 2 is showing...Shazadi & I've been planning to catch it since Fri, but didn't materialise.  So we're doing it tonight insyallah.  Ok, I'm off for my facial...watch out for my next post to know what I thought of D:2.  And yeah...my retail therapy shall end wif the movie...after that I shall be counting down to my short vacation to Terengganu wif Mom & mayb my cuz...I'll be leaving all the negative energy in me out there in Terengganu & come back to S'pore to a brand new life!

Ciao!

Hiatus too long...Reflection time

Sometimes, when u make a choice, just 1 choice in life, ur whole life is altered...and events that occur as a result of that 1 choice take u towards a direction that u don't want to go but cannot U-TURN.

Just 1 choice...I wish I had made a btr choice.

I wish...

Sameer DIDN'T win Li'l Champs! :*(

Nothing new...esp. when it comes to public voting programs.

But still, I can't help getting worked up!  Nope, Sameer didn't win Saregamapa Li'l Champs, as hoped!  As it is, I was itchified & went to check the website 1 wk b4 the Finale was gonna be telecast & I already knew Sanchita won.  But there's still this lil hope that Sameer shld come 2nd, ie. 1st runner up...it's ok for Sanchita to win as her voice is adult enough & she can sing playback for most of the actresses today, as compared to if Sameer won, he can't playback for actors yet.  Too young.

As it is, I didn't know the Finale starts @ 7pm.  I thought it's 10-ish.  As much as I dreaded, I had to follow my Mom go Hari Raya visiting (there's a particular hse I'm not keen to go, which Sis knows & I've told Sis to help me by bringing Mom there asap & not wait for me.  But Mom insisted to wait for me...coz it's in Yishun & she wants me to drive, coz it's leceh to take public transport wif a baby *sigh*).  So I told Sis, FINE...I shall take Amsyar & use him as my attn-diverting item at that hse.  Luckily, didn't really need, coz everything just fell into place naturally.  Almost had to bump into that family agn @ another granduncle's hse @ Bt Pjg...but we diverted to another hse along the way & thus Allah really protected me.  By the time we reached the granduncle's hse, that family already came & go.  Phew!  Since Dad was already hm, and we were planning to go to his nephew's house in CCK, we called & told him to get ready & drove back to Tamp to fetch him.  That got us a lil delayed @ reached home @ 7-ish...but at least the dreaded moment is over.  Oh, not yet...they've yet to come over to my place...and I hope when they do, I'm not home!!!

I switched on the TV @ 8pm & realised I've missed 1 hr of the finals.  I had only wanted to watch Sameer's performances for the night.  By 9.30pm, they announced the results & I was HOPPING MAD when they announced Sameer as 2nd runner up (ie. he came 3rd, which means blind Diwakar is 1st runner up!).  Ridiculous!!  Mom & Sis carried on watching, Sis not used to my tantrums got a lil sad for me that I quit watching.  Mom's quite used to it.  I don't like to waste my time.  I went to do my ironing instead...while watching Jhankaar Beats (for the dunno how many times!!), which I recorded on Fri 27 Oct (while bz 1 day b4 Amsyar's cukur rambut).  I was recording & watching it for abt 1.5hrs when Mom sent me to hunt for more mutton!!  Since that day, I nvr got to sit down & watch what I recorded.  Till yesterday.  I really lurveee the songs in that movie - incidentally I've recently gotten my family addicted to the song Suno Na sung by Shaan, which got him his 1st award in 2003 (I think) for playback singing in films. And oh, I also discovered that Shayan Munshi (who plays Neel) can really dance!!  His bod is very flexible, he can challenge Hrithik anytime, man!!!  A pity he's not being noticed & not showcased much in the industry.

Amsyar's Progress Report

Amsyar turned exactly 2 mths old today, Alhamdulillah.

He's a bright boy since birth...Masyallah.  At few weeks, he behaves like a big baby, prefering to be lie on his tummy rather than flat on his back.  He recognised our voices & responds to us, although he still can't see us.  BUT!  His biggest drawback was that he nvr stopped wailing!

At 1 mth, he's started to shake his head vigorously to give a NO response to...almost everything (esp. when we threaten to do something to him as punishment for not behaving)!!  And oh, he can throw tantrums already (still wailing @ his whims & fancies btw!)!!

At 1.5mths, he's already starting to project out his voice, in an attempt to yak wif us. Enjoys eating (Farley & Brown Rice Nestum) btr than drinking his milk (now, that explains why he's growing up chubby as compared to the boney baby we brought home 1.5mths ago).  The wailing continues...

At 2 mths, he's lost all his hair...just kidding, he's been shaved bald by his Nani following his Cukur Rambut ceremony!  Come to think of it...he looks btr bald...hehe...reminds me of Mini Me from Austin Powers!  He responds to my Mom calling him...even if Mom's not nxt to him...in the kitchen for instance, when Mom calls him, he'll project his voice & give a soft "uhh"...as though answering my mom...Cute no!?!?  We were really shocked so we kept asking Mom to repeat.  And guess what? He doesn't respond like that to anyone else calling him, but only to my Mom's voice!!  The sad news is...the wailing hasn't stopped despite Mom promising me that it's normal for babies in confinement & that they'll auto-stop after the 44 days.  His deadline is way way overdue & he hasn't stopped his wailing-for-no-ram-or-reason habit!!  Actually, he's just an attn-seeker...so he's just being cheeky & wants to be lifted up so he can start sucking your shoulder when u carry him on your shoulder & take him for a walk!

If this is what Amsyar has become @ 2 mths old...oh God...I dread to think what he'll be up to in mths & yrs to come!  God bless my Mom!  I'm spared, coz anytime I'm pissed wif his non-stop wailing, I'll just go out & come back 3-4 hrs later when I know he'll be fast asleep by then (after 11pm).  That's to punish him for not wanting to keep quiet.  No Maasi!!!

Hajira...u're so rite...he gives me migraine (the whole of the 1st week of Eid when I was on leave, I was popping in Panadol & Panadol Extras every evening to sleep!).  But he's not acting as my Panadol Extra as yet.  Maybe when he can massage my head for me...he'll start to be my Panadol Extra...

Ok that's all abt Amsyar...I'm looking forward for Tehzeeb to finish her last paper on Thurs as she has so much to tell me...hee...

Failed Marriages

Is it a father's curse...

Or does it run in the family?

Is it failure to seek Allah's guidance...

Or is it just the wrong decision?

Is it a test of faith from Allah...

Or is it destined?

Is it the wrong choice of spouse...

Or is it how we choose to run our marriage?

*sigh*

Eid Mubarak to all my Muslim fans!

Missed me?!?!

Nope??

Nvm.

I'll still carry on...miss or no miss. Hehe.

It's Sunday & I'm done wif my spring-cleaning (for 2006).  I'm 1 day ahead of schedule...I took only 2 days...instead of 3 as planned.  Which is gr8...coz it means Hari Raya eve is rest day for me.  The best thing abt my spring-cleaning this yr is...I DISCARDED ALMOST 1/2 THE THINGS IN MY ROOM!!! Hehe...just in the mood to throw away things.  Total junk collected: 4 big plastic bags!!!  So much so I've an empty compartment in my dresser...can play hide-n-seek wif Amsyar!!!  I can hide Amsyar & let his Mama & Nani-ma seek for him...frantically!  Actually, no need to be frantic.  His wails will give him away!!  Hahaha...wicked!!

Where was I?  Oh, ya...empty compartment...yeah...1 empty compartment in my dresser & the rest of my drawers & compartments are now 1/2 empty (not as full as b4). 

I'm all ready to hang my curtains & fit my new bedsheet later tonight.  I'm sipping Strawberry Milkshake while clearing my tonnes of emails & reading all my darlings' blogs!!  Wonder if there's anything nice on TV/Cable (minus Bride & Prejudice on Central @ 9pm) tonight.  Even if there isn't, I'm quite alright, coz I'm quite happy watching songs of Emraan Hashmi's on DVD (which Dad bought 1 mth ago...haha!).  I'm keeping track of the no. of gals he has kissed to date!  Actually, all the songs have kissings in it!!  Tsk tsk tsk.  Why am I watching it then?  Coz I can't fast already...so it's alright...

Oh I must also add that I successfully completed all 30 Juz of the Quran in 21 days this yr!!!  That is with tonnes of discipline to read more than 1 Juz a day.  I lost the 1st 6 days of Ramadhan...and it was tiring trying to catch up on the 6 Juz from the 7th day.   I perservered nevertheless.  Till I'm on track.  And then, I decided 1 Juz a day is not a gd idea.  So I try to read as much as my brain can take it!  By the 27th day, I completed 29 Juz.  But I was beginning to get foul-tempered for no reason...and by night...while watching Maid In Manhattan on Ch 5...I find myself going to toilet every hr.  Which signals PMS for me.  So I had a strong hunch that I wasn't gonna make it for Saturday.  So after Maid In Manhattan (12 mn)...I decided to read Juz 30.  Completed it.  Survived Subuh, but woke up @ 10am the nxt morning only to discover...it's OVER!!  Thank God I completed the Quran the previous night.  So since Sat (yest that is)...it's been spring-cleaning non-stop...which is why I cld finish faster...coz no need to break for solat.  Waahh...kya planning hai!!

Ok...to all my Muslim fans...Eid Mubarak!!!

Shagging Saturday...

Woke up @ 9-ish on Sat thinking Mom's back from market & ready to prepare the pulut so I can help...but she was boiling the pulut & when she saw me, she went "Yeayy, Maasi dah bangun...so boleh ikut gi pasar!!"  So yeah, I had to accompany her to the market (drove her).  Gd thing I followed, coz she 4got to buy banana leaf, which was so impt!!

Came home helped her with the preparation of the pulut...and by 2pm the final product was ready...

Headed to Granny's place...along the way dropped by few places to send the pulut.  Had a gd time @ Granny's place.  She's doing orite...but not too happy abt the operation that she had to undergo last Thurs.  Amsyar went out officially (otherwise it was always visit to the Doctor's!)...and he was well-behaved for his 1st outing (visit his great- grandma!)...check him out here!

By 4.30pm, we left Granny's place...and I had to drive to Sis' MIL's place @ Pasir Ris for her to send the pulut...afterwhich Sis asked 2b dropped to Century Sq as she wanted to do some shopping for the baby (yeah yeah yeah...been waiting for her confinement 2b over coz she's been itching to leave the hse!).  I ask her to get me Strawberry Milkshake as I was missing it already.  Left her there & we headed home. I was very shagged by then...and was having a slight headache...and it wasn't getting any better wif Amsyar's wailing!!

I slept from 5.30pm & woke up just in time for iftar!!  Was feeling too sick I cldn't even eat (pulut).  Later went to sleep...and yeah, Amsyar's wailing wasn't much of a help (u know, migraine...I need total darkness + silence + sleep to cure!).  Despite refraining from it for so long...I had no choice but to pop 2 panadol extras & continue my sleep.  Guess what?! I slept till midnight.  That too coz I was woken up by my hp ringing (thank God for that wake-up call!).

I showered, prayed & completed Juz 21 & by 1.30am I was really starving.  So I had chicken curry wif bread.  After that I was fresh & cldn't sleep...so I finally watched FIGHT CLUB!  Not bad the movie, quite fun to watch.  I finally went back to sleep @ 4am & woke up for sahur agn @ 5am.  *sigh*  What a Saturday.  Today I've my laser appt @ 1pm...oh yeah, that reminds me...I shld go settle down & get ready to leave @ 12.15pm instead of sitting here in front of the PC!

Saregamapa Li'l Champ - UPDATE

This is getting interesting!!

My darling Sameer is in the final 3!!! It's been a while since the one I'm banking on to win is really making it!!  I hope he eventually wins...ok, at least go to Final 2.  He's really a blessed kid.  Lady luck's been on his side. 

Check out Sameer's most touching performance! Although he's always stolen my heart wif his fast numbers...he did the best in this song, which happens to be my all time favourite sad song of the 80s.  He's such a sensitive boy, he makes everyone cried in this episode!!! Haha...feels like hugging him!!  Can't wait for the end of this show...I hope he becomes LI'L CHAMP 2006!!

MIA

That's pretty much expected of me during Ramadhan.  No matter how much I try, I really have no time to come online...let alone  blog.  Thought of doing it over the wkends...but yet, still no time.  With my goal to complete reading the Quran in the 30 days of Ramadhan (1 Juz a day)...it's been a crazy chase!!! Hehehe...but I'm on track.  Today's the 20th day & I've completed 20 Juz.  *clap clap*

At night, my trawih keeps me bz.  And I sleep pretty early too...if nothing, by 11.30pm I'm in dreamland already...

Dad's bought 2 DVDs for me, I've even recorded "FIGHT CLUB" on Zee TV couple of wks ago...but till date, have yet to see any!!! Pathetic...for someone who can go on a movie marathon & complete 3 movies in 1 day!

This sounds like my normal Ramadhan...but how come last yr I still had time to blog (I remember posting abt my cookie-baking & shopping etc).  Well...here's the reason for why I'm doubly occupied:

WARNING: DO NOT be fooled by that angelic face!  He's a tyrant!!  He doesn't allow anyone to do anything but entertain him!!  He's finally 1 mth (on 30 Sep)...picture taken on 1 Oct while I was watching Tomb Raider on Channel 5 & he's next to me trying very hard to get my attn!!  See, he won't even let me sit peacefully & watch TV!!  Sis is finally off her confinement period today (44 days)...so is Amsyar.  Life's turned upside down since he came.  But I must admit, Hajira...u're so rite...he's my migraine & he's my panadol extra!!  Whenver he wails for no reason (for fun happiness peace & joy as Nikky wld say it!)...everyone will frantically try to shut him up coz they know I get upset as my migraine gets triggered [DON'T MAKE ME ANGRY, U WON'T LIKE IT WHEN I'M ANGRY!! - Incredible Hulk"].  After a while, I got a solution.  I coop myself in the room & blast 103.7FM THR Hindi Power from after my trawih till 12 midnight!  Once in a while, Mom will bring him in my room when he's in a more well-behaved mode coz he misses my presence.  All these aside...he's a DAAARRRLIINGG!!  When I'm home early (b4 6.30pm), if he's wide awake, Mom will ask me to bring him down for a walk...so I'll change out of my office-wear into something "cleaner" & yeah...we'll dance our way down!  Yeeehaarrr...

Amsyar's Aqiqah is done @ 3 wks old when Sis is slightly btr healthwise, his Khitan (circumcision) done @ 1 mth old as soon as his jaundice cleared.  So now left the cukur-rambut ceremony which will be done on 28 Oct (5th day of Eid).  Tomorrow's gonna be a bz Saturday for me, coz Mom's making pulut and distributing it to Granny (it's also visit-granny day) and some close relatives as part of the thanksgiving ritual for the Mom's out-of-confinement as well as the successful circumcision of the baby.

Hmmm...can't wait for him to be bigger for me to wrestle wif him!! 

My masterpiece(s)

I nvr believed in luv…so God decided to show me.

He sent a guy…to sweep me off my feet.

Not quite a prince charming…but certainly boy-next-door.

I’ve always thought of myself as UGLY DUCKLING…but he made me see the SWAN in me.

No matter how cold I am towards him…he doesn’t fret, neither does he give up.

I can’t even be angry with him for too long…as he always has his way of planting a smile on my sour face.

I’ve given up giving my heart to the wrong undeserving boys...who make use of me for their own selfish purposes.

And just when I promised myself I’d keep my heart for myself…God sent him to me…

To let me discover…that luv, with the RIGHT one, is indeed…bee-you-tea-fool!

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The story behind the above:

1. The poetry - I created it within 5 mins tru imagination.  It was created for my teenage cousin, Shera, who wanted something that she cld post on her blog to spite others to think that's she's happily in luv.  While I was amazed at my imagination, I wasn't too comfortable wondering where those feelings came from within me...was it a foresight?!!?  Today...it's like Dejavu!

2. The image - I did it in ppt when I gav my heart to Mr Wrong.  I loved sunset & the words were exactly what I was going tru at that time!  This was meant for Mr Wrong...but it nvr reached him.  He wasn't deserving of this!  Pretty sure there's someone else who'll be fated to receive this from me...*Ameen*!!

Mama's boy!

Album updated wif more of Amsyar's pictures for your viewing pleasure...

Chota Badmaash (Li'l Rascal) has been up to no gd...getting cranky @ nite this whole of his 2nd wk...wonder wat his problem is!  Worst part is we juz dunno wat he wants us to do for him!!  Very manja, wanna be hugged tightly close to your chest, then he'll sleep!  Mom says he's exactly what his Mama was when she was born!!!  Not juz carbon copy of looks ...

...he's taken after her character also!!!  Gd luck MOM!!

Baby's 1st weekend

This wkend was our 1st wkend wif Amsyar's presence.  Our lives have changed having him arnd.  I cant watch TV outside wif loud vol (Mom tells me to lower it down coz Amsyar's such kaypoh, he reacts to even the slightest talking sound!).  I cant watch TV peacefully, he keeps wanting 2b patted to sleep, the moment I remove my hand, within 5 mins, he'll move & threatens to cry!!  Badmaash!  When I whisper to him to quit his naughty acting, he'll flash his oh-so-cute dimples!!

During his 1st two days here, he didnt sleep & stayed awake from 1-5am.  Haha...serves Nani right!!  On his 3rd nite, I decided this cant go on...my Mom needs her beauty sleep too or she'll be exhausted...so I whispered sweet-nothings in Amsyar's ears, coaxing him 2b a gd boy & let Nani-ma sleep bla bla bla... He listened (now that's like Maasi's clever boy!!)...he changed his sleeping pattern.  He wakes up once or twice for milk & Mom had no problem putting him back to sleep.  The nxt few days were hunky dory.  Until wee hrs of Fri morning when he started throwing tantrums...wailing so loudly @ 2.45am that even Mamu & Maasi came out of the room to see what's wrong wif him!  Poor Maasi, she juz managed to sleep @ 2am coaxing Amsyar to sleep!!  When Mom bathed him on Fri morning, his umbilical cord finally came off.  Alhamdulillah...after 9 days...I can finally carry & cradle him w/o worrying that he'll be in pain if that huge plastic clip on his umbilical cord is pressed against him stomach.  Only after having him did I realise that there's this huge clip dangling on a baby's umbilical cord...makes me wonder if I've ever caused any pain to all the newborn I've ever cradled when I visit them during their 1st week!

1st wkend wif Amsyar, Sat: Woke up early to bring him to Poly for his 4th neonatal check-up.  Heartbreaking to hear him scream when his tiny li'l feet gets pricked.  This boy na, he just refuses to drink plain water.  Very naughty.  When it comes to milk, he drinks properly, but when he realise that he's being fed plain water, he refuses to open his mouth, blocking it wif his gums.  When we manage to put it in, he'll collect the water & not swallow the water & then he'll start his act...coughing la, let the water flow out la...when we scold him, he'll flash his dimples!!  Urrrgghh!!  I wish he'd understand that the plain water is gd for him...to cure his jaundice & prevent him from being pricked every other day!!  He has to go for his 5th blood test on Mon which is his 12th day.  If his jaundice is still not below 100 (today is 192) @ 14 days, Dr will have to do more tests on him!!  Other than his Dr's visit...Amsyar's been a well-behaved boy.  It's been a wonderful Sat, finally got time to cradle & play wif him!!

1st wkend wif Amsyar, Sun: Woke up early as mentioned in my earlier post.  Amidst my blogging, I helped Mom in the kitchen & swept the hse.  Mom was telling me that @ 3am, Sis & BIL had to knock her room for help coz Amsyar was throwing tantrums & refused to stop crying.  Mom said it was such a cute sight, she heard knocks on the door, jumped off the bed & opened the door, to find her daughter, son-in-law & their baby in front of her, looking like they've been chased out of their hse & begging for help!!  Hahaha...Mom managed to put him to sleep after a long time...but he started his tantrums agn @ 4.30am till Mom had to wake Dad up to help cradle & silence him while Mom makes his milk.  Dad is so gd @ cradling & swinging a baby to sleep...he's being a pro @ it since we were small. 

After zuhur & lunch, I cradled Amsyar who was in play-mode.  Star Plus was showing Abhishek's BLUFFMASTER...so I introduced him to his would-be-uncle, much to Sis giving me a "podi!" when she heard that...hehe.  Danced wif him for a while (he enjoys it!) till he got sleepy in my arms, so I handed him to Mom who then wrapped him (sob sob, I cant bear to see babies being wrapped!) & pat him to sleep.  I continued watching Bluffmaster in my room...but my eyes cld hardly open...it started storming arnd 3pm, nice weather to sleep...so I dozed off.  At 4.45pm, I heard Amsyar wailing & some chaos outside...he just refused to shut up...so bad his tantrums was that after Mom bathed him, Dad had to help put on his booties!!  I was having a slight headache so I cldnt even be bothered to go out.  I continued sleeping till 6pm.

He was sleeping peacefully till 6.45pm when he woke up & starts wailing non-stop agn.  It's heartbreaking to see him like that coz it's so not him.  Think he's having colic.  Today's been a loonggg day...having to tolerate his wails...yet keeping our cool!  To a pt, I think Sis just cant bear to see her son like that...she started crying.  She's very sensitive after delivery.  Post-natal blues I guess.  I pacified her not to cry & stress her mind...it's pretty normal for babies; they get colic, have mood-swings & cry non-stop...they'll be ok in no time...no need to worry too much.  As it is, she's been very upset that Amsyar's not drinking enough plain water & thus his jaundice is not clearing (altho it's showing a healthy downhill trend) thus he has to be pricked every other day to monitor his jaundice level!!  Now, he's wailing non-stop & she wish she knew what's bothering him!

I'm now in my room peacefully watching 1 of my favourite Madhuri-Shahrukh movie - DIL TO PAGAL HAI...actually I've got masque on my face, so I'm not abt to give Amsyar a shock! 

It hasnt been ez to type this post wif a straight face w/o any expressions!!!